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Tuk

It has been nearly ten years since Atuk’s passing and he is still one of the most often returning characters in my dreams.

Sometimes I feel as if my uncles don’t realise how much I took care of Atuk only because of my tender age.

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Films are back!! Shots were in various locations, Japan.

#1: Houses view on the train.  たくさんいえをみて

#2: 電車に乗って 

#3 & #4: 大阪！

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Dunnottar Castle, Stonehaven, Aberdeenshire, Scotland.

www.castlesandmanorhouses.com

Dunnottar Castle (Scottish Gaelic: Dùn Fhoithear, “fort on the shelving slope”) is a ruined medieval fortress located upon a rocky headland on the north-east coast of Scotland. The surviving buildings are largely of the 15th and 16th centuries, but the site is believed to have been fortified in the Early Middle Ages. Dunnottar has played a prominent role in the history of Scotland through to the 18th-century Jacobite risings because of its strategic location and defensive strength. Dunnottar is best known as the place where the Honours of Scotland were hidden from Oliver Cromwell’s army in the 17th century. The property of the Keiths from the 14th century, and the seat of the Earl Marischal, Dunnottar declined after the last Earl forfeited his titles by taking part in the Jacobite rebellion of 1715. The castle was restored in the 20th century and is now open to the public.

The ruins of the castle are spread over 1.4 hectares (3.5 acres), surrounded by cliffs that drop to the North Sea. A narrow strip of land joins the headland to the mainland, along which a steep path leads up to the gatehouse. Buildings within the castle include the 14th-century tower house as well as the 16th-century palace. Dunnottar Castle is a scheduled monument, and twelve structures on the site are listed buildings.

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Schloss Neuschwanstein (Neuschwanstein Castle),  Above the village of Hohenschwangau, Bavaria, Germany.

www.castlesandmanorhouses.com

Neuschwanstein Castle (Schloss Neuschwanstein), is a nineteenth-century Romanesque Revival palace. It was commissioned by King Ludwig II of Bavaria as a retreat and as an homage to Richard Wagner. The palace was intended as a personal refuge but it was opened to the paying public immediately after his suspicious death in 1886. Since then more than 65 million people have visited the palace. It has appeared prominently in several movies and was the main inspiration for Disney’s Sleeping Beauty Castle.

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The kind of things you'd want to read on daily basis. God bless these two souls- the old person and the young lawyer :)

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Choices. Choices. All down to choices.

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HANDS DOWN TO THE BEST FUNGI TAGLIATELLE EVER! 

At Monschau, Germany.

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Back in Miyajima, Hiroshima. Editing would help a lot but too lazy.

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Autumn @ the University of Warwick

[Tesco Disposable Camera / Oct 2013]

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I won’t apologize for missing you, or because I said that I am, or because I text you first, or again. Everyone spends too much time trying to build walls instead of doors. I don’t want to be apathetic or indifferent, I want to be honest. It’s both a curse and a blessing to feel everything so deeply, but it’s who I am. I’ve stopped being sorry for all my soft. I want you to find your soft. I’ve seen it before. I’ve seen it in the way you used to hold my hand. In the way you kissed my forehead in between the real kisses and the extra long hugs. In the gentle yet hard goodbyes we said each morning. I never wanted to let go or say goodbye out of fear that I would never be able to find you again. You’re gone now but I’m still knocking on the door. I’ll stop begging for you to let me in as long as you promise me one thing. Find yourself. Be in touch with your heart. Reflect on what happened between us. Think hard about it. Don’t ignore it. Don’t run away from it. Not talking about the contents of a closet will not make it empty. Relationships are important. They’re a big deal. Love is a big deal. It changes you. It teaches you things. I want you to learn a lot from this. I know I did and will continue to do so, and I am glad that it was you who taught me. I hope you can say the same for me.

goodbye letters // o.k. (via sweetdreams-and-otherthings)

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See You Again (Cover) by Fathia Izzati Ft. eevnxx

On repeat.

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anyone else get the intense urge to just disappear? to disappear from everyone’s lives without leaving any trace? and be forgotten? it’d give me so much peace i don’t want anyone to think about me

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with a dreamy, far-off look, and her nose stuck in a book…

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Me,

Alas, a post titled myself. I find myself amazed with the writing here in the drafts inbox, most of them with very good English. Somehow rather, I’ve lost some of it. Somehow rather, my posts sound Plain Jane and it disappoints me greatly.

I’ll search for that ability and summon it again if I could. Yet I heed my pneuma on life, generally, plays a bigger role than what I’ve given credit for. Strange. And now I long to write so eloquantly so much so that ironically writing has not been something I practice often anymore. That longing of it takes pride, when I’m not supposed to. Practice makes perfect; or so they say. Yet for writing, they forget one more thing; the soul.

Life feels empty, and my soul feels trapped. Lone fills me in but somehow rather I enjoy that. So much that I push people away. Perhaps one day it will no longer stray.

Tough chance though.

5th May 2017, 2.23 AM. Coventry (Zarith’s floor)

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The Two

I wonder sometimes on some of the mysteries of life. What shapes a person into who he/she really is, why a particular being behaves as how (s)he's behaving. I grew up between two extremes; Malay conservationists and liberalists. A constant struggle being pushed and pulled; watching one side to blame the other whilst you stand in between. For so many years, the same question has been lingering in my mind - "Which side speaks better of me?" And for many years too I find myself leaning towards one or the other, and ironically to neither at the same time. I look at one side and recall only pure anger but also see a part of me that’s in it, and I look the other and see more parts of me but also the resentment of it to be so very different. It's plain ridiculous.

Until one day, I decided that why bother choosing when I can try mix the two?

Apparently, not everybody share the same view.

Apparently, nobody does. I'm all alone in this shit.

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Pendragon Castle,  Nateby, Kirkby Stephen, Yorkshire Dales, Cumbria, England, UK

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Genuinely terrified to face this summer. I fear those relapses; reminders of last year’s summer that are slowly creeping back in.