gustavnilsson

[gustavnilsson]

But im older?.....

skz fic. this is so bad,but whatever. also ist very short,not my kind of thing,but yeah,this was just a old draft from when i was bored,sooooo

felix x older reader

reader feels mix feelings against felix,their 3 year diffrence is scaring her..While felix is head over heels

Its raining,like its poring down from the sky,like the clouds are crying. Reader just finnished at work,feet hurting,makeup smudging and hair now wet. With sharps steps she walks threw the dark streats of seoul,on her way to her....boyfriends? boy friend? or yeah,felix appartment. He texted her a half an hour ago,saying he needed help with something. She told herself they could take it another time,but just as allways. Here she was,walking in the rain. To felix appartment,again. The water dripped as she stepped inside the appartment building,legs hurting from walking all day as she walked up the seven pairs of stairs. She could taken the elivator,but no,life was just so amazing she was going to take the stairs.

With a little to agressive knock she knocks on felixs appartment. And a half second later he is there like a puppy to his owner,opening the door with a big smile. "ah! y/n,i missed you!" He said pulling her into a tight hug. "i saw you two days ago,felix." He smiles as he kisses her cheek,his blonde long hair brushing her cheek. He was cute,to cute. "But two days is longggg,48 hours,thats not nothing!" He finnaly lets go of her as he steps aside,letting her inside his warm,cosy,smells like a little bit to much home appartment. A sigh leaves her mouth as she stepps inside,felix closing the door walking past her mubbeling something "your soaking!" She is not even listening,he was so carring,it hurted to pull away.

"Here! Take these!" Felix pulls out a pair of pink sweatpants and a black hoodie,all three sizes to big. A laugh escapes her mouth as she gently takes them,walking towards the bathroom to change. The outfit was cosy,warm,but worse of all it smelled like him.

"wow..." Felix said scanning her up and down as he stood in the kitchen,a plate of brownies in his hands. "your..your beautiful,really y/n" ..."thanks,felix...i appriciate it.." ... His eyes meat hers,his full of love,hers full of fear. "lets watch a movie" "okay"

Yeah thats was a hour ago and now their both half cuddled under the soft blankets on felixs couch,his arm over her shoulders,her head on his chest. nobody can hear the movie,the unspoken silence is to loud. it allways have. sence they where little,when y/n used to tease him in middle school how tiny and small he was,or when she gradueted and he just started first year as a freshman. yeah three years wasn´t much,but it was. she was fucking 28 allmost dating a 25 year old. she saw him as little,not as a brother,just to far away from boyfriend. He was everything,would burn the world for her. But what is love if it´s only from one person? y/n could never hate him,never. But could she ever love him? Love him enough that he deserved?

"you okay?" ops,to much thoughts... "yeah,i was just..thinking.." A beat of silence,hope fylling his eyes,or meaby it was fear.. it didnt matter. "thinking about what?".. "us." "us?" "felix we cant ignore-" "ignore what?! That im a little younger tha you?!" suddenly his voice sounded more firm,like he was trying to prove something.. or meaby it was the anger from constant rejection

"your being so drmatic,y/n! do you hear yourself?" "You want to throw away everything we have because of a little age gap?! thats ridiculous!" He was angry,whitch wasnt often,only when somethings wrong,and that meant it hurts more. "im just not good for you!" "How do you know whats good for me?" something flicred threw her eyes,she didnt know,she wanted to,but didin´t. silence.

His hand reached for her cheek,she didn´tn flinch. couldn´t. "y/n..." "y/n look at me,please" Their eyes slowly meet,his eyes fylled with something...her lip trembled. "Why cant you just let me in?" A minute passed,meaby two. Feelt like five. "your to good for me"..."y/n i love you" "i allways have,why cant you see that?" Suddenly a laugh escapes her mouth,her ears turning bright red. All the tension dropping in a moment. "okay,okay lover boy" Felix expression turns into a grin,his hand lifting to her cheek again. "alright,just kiss me already" no hesitation,just his plump lips on hers,a long wedding like kiss,a small giggle in between.

After he ruffels her hair,pulling her into his arms. "is this my moment to finally get to call you mommy?" "FELIX-" "im just kidding!" y/n lands a hard smack right to his arm as he breaks out into laughter,pulling her into him as he kisses the top of her head. "alright,alright,love you" "yeah,love you two.." A beat of silence.

"Mommy."

[gustavnilsson]

IM HEREEEE

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