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I’m back from a hiatus after they took my old account down 😭

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I truly feel like nobody will love me unless I lose 10kg 😭😭

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"Wow, you lost weight" you lie every time, that's a lie, stop lying, I'm fat

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i want to get worse. i need to get worse.

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Stole this from twt

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My go4l will be when my family tells me "Stop that, you're too sk1nny."

That's when I'll know I've won.

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I miss my 47kg and I don't like be 51kg again...

I wish I was at my lw again

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I'm probably anemic right now

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i don’t think i’ll ever be able to see food normally ever again

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"you are not even fat"

BUT I'M NOT SKINNY

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I want to hate food. I want to be petrified of eating.

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And I still can't make my younger self proud

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Just remember in 20 seconds, the food will be gone. The taste will be over, and all that will be left is regret. Just like last time.

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I weighed myself today and I weigh 51kg, exactly the same as when I left the gym, even though I ate so much in college, if I could only eat less...

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i fear there has been a bit too much eating and not enough disorder lately

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not eating as a gender affirming activity

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I went out to dinner at college and when I got there I realized I had forgotten my card at home, I'm sure it was a sign for me not to eat