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All I can do is keep trying even when it hurts

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It’s pretty interesting. I’m hung up on one person that I want a future with but at this moment, she doesn’t want one with me. I know I made mistakes and I’ve been trying to fix them, but I feel like I just make things worse, being sympathetic about her friend I don’t mean to just… I truly hate myself…..

I am sorry I am trying to do better. I’m trying to do my best, but I don’t even think that’s good enough.

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I truly want someone to talk to me because they want to talk to me not cause they’re just bored or lonely because they actually want to see me or just talk or just sit on the phone with me or whatever I hate my other thoughts no matter why I’m always gonna feel the same way about her I know things changed. I really wanted to try to fix it. I don’t even know if I can anymore.

This is truly breaking me. I guess I need to do better on ignoring my feelings and emotions.

But I know I can’t help myself with her cause I expressed too much. I truly hate myself.🤦🏾‍♂️

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I come to realize I don’t matter no matter how hard I try no matter what I do it’s not good enough. I have to sit there suck up my pride and not feel some type of way.

I might want her I realize I’m not really an option. It hurts. I just don’t know what to do with myself. I express how I felt but I don’t think that matters.

I guess as long as she’s being safe, I guess that’s good enough even when she stops talking to me🥺😔

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🤦🏾‍♂️I come to realize I’m the problem. I’m a reason why nothing works out even when I’m trying and trying to change how I am. 😔

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An awesome woman wrote this for me. I fucked up so much. I miss her every fucking day, but I’m a mistakes. Hopefully, I can fix stuff or make things different between us. Nothing will ever be the same. I can always still try. I wish I never left no deal with my consequence. I hate myself for it. If I could change anything I would’ve talk to her and I would not have left.

I truly didn’t know she loved me this much but I allowed someone to poison my mind and it made me think something else and I ruined what I had with this person but I will always wish her the best. I will always still want to have a peace in her heartregardless how small it is.

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This sucks another Valentine’s Day and I am going to be by myself like usual. It’s fucking sucks. I’ve been having nothing but bad luck with everything.

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In your eyes, I found my dreams; in your heart, I found my home.