haecien

[haecien]

happy new year cien !! ⭐️⭐️

Hi aryaa happy new year!!

[haecien]

— 📣 Attention !!

Walks up to my mic, beep beep.. anyone still there?

UH so! It's been super long I know, I guess my passion for writing fics for kpop has died down over the year. I just couldn't find the time and effort to be able to write anything, since new year is approaching I wanted to come on here and say I am going to be permanently stop writing on this blog I am deeply sorry and this has been on my mind since forever but really my passion for writing fics is down to nearly 0....

However... that doesn't mean I won't be... completely gone. Yur feel free to contact me on discord ( haecien ) , Instagram ( hae.cien ) or tiktok ( ykwaez or haeciien ) . I'll still keep this account and my other accounts, I don't want to just delete all my hard work. I'm so sorry again I hope everyone understands:(

Oh but one more thing, if anyone is interested in me getting into more.... anime manga related things stay tuned.... 👀

Happy new years and again I deeply apologize...

Tagging mooties for more spread : @slytherinshua @eternalgyu @blue-jisungs @mirxzii @welcometomyoasis @weird-bookworm @foreverbase1 @fairyhaos ++ all my other moots i loveu guys mwa

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SHES BAACCKKKKKKKK !!!

Taglist — @slytherinshua , @eternalgyu , @nanadreamies , @wollycobbl3-blr , @novody , @chaeryvips , @foreverbase1

[haecien]

Loveu

I love the theme Yuma bbg

i love you bbg

[haecien]

Lmaolmao no worries!! I've been meaning to get back into obey me so I have an excuse to play and to draw hehe

I am so sorry for spamming your inbox you're just the only person I know who posts barbeel....😓

And I feel that. It’s a rare pair so what can you do. I wish I wasn’t alone on this but I ain’t ever seen someone else do fanart for this ship. Swear the only time I’ve seen another Artist draw BarBeel is when I commissioned them to do so =w=“

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To all the love letters I wrote but never sent | Xu Minghao

Synopsis: what happens when your best friend, minghao, finds the secret stash of love letters you’ve been writing to him over the past few years?  Minghao x gn! reader | fluff, best friends to lovers | w.c | warnings: mention of a drug (minghao is said drug) | not proof read A/n: happy birthday @haecien! Idk, when i think of you i think of letters… can you tell?

For years, you’ve been utterly and hopelessly in love with your best friend, Minghao. 

At first, you thought it was just a passing phase of infatuation. You know the one which happens when you begin to get a little too close to your best friend? It’s the time when you begin to sit a little closer to them, you begin to lean into them, share secrets with them, stare into their eyes as they talk and then watch as their eyes stare back intensely at you. Your mind starts to make weird connections that maybe these actions aren’t so platonic anymore? Maybe, just maybe there’s a spark between the two of you? 

You didn’t really bother to think too much about it, thinking that the phase would eventually run its course, that it would eventually pass. He’s your best friend after all. There’s going to be some level of connection or intense emotions shared between the two of you. It will pass, and then everything will go back to normal.

Oh you were so wrong. What you thought would be a simple passing phase of infatuation turned into a full blown crush, one which you could not control. Everything about Minghao was so infuriatingly intoxicating. You hated how attentive he was, you hated how pretty his eyes were, you hated the way he had with words, you hated all the details you noticed about Minghao because they only made you fall in love with him more. The more details you noticed about Minghao, the more time you spent with him, the more you wanted him, and the more you needed him. He was like a drug, one that you couldn’t get enough of. You lived off the high of being near him, all while hating the fact that he was yours, but not in the way you wanted. He was your best friend. Not, your boyfriend. 

You hid your feelings of course, behind a smile and the facade of a supportive, loving best friend, out of fear your feelings would change the friendship you held so dearly to your heart. You were scared your feelings would frighten him, chase him away. Because as much as the proximity between you and Minghao pained you, it gave you the pleasurable high you never ever wanted to come down from. 

But the pain of being near someone who you believed would not, and could not love you back was overwhelming. It began to consume you. You needed an outlet. You needed a way to write down all the feelings you had for Minghao, just in a way he would never find out. 

So, you settled on pouring your feelings out through letters. You guided your pen across the paper, letting the ink act as your messenger for the heartfelt words you longed to tell him. Whenever you felt like your feelings for Minghao were too much, you would write. You chuckled at how silly it was, writing letters to someone who was never supposed to receive them. Still, it must have worked because writing everything down helped to soothe the pain in your heart until it was only a dull ache. 

Months and years passed. Your stash of secret love letters seemed to only grow thicker with each passing day. And you swore to yourself that Minghao would never find out about the letters. 

Or, at least that was what you thought. Life always seemed to throw you unexpected curveballs, though, not all of them were bad. 

࣪𓏲ּ ᥫ᭡ ₊ ⊹ ˑ ִ ֶ 𓂃 

“Y/n! Do you have my charger? I think I left it in your room the last time I was over!”

“You… Hao! You’re always leaving things over, maybe you should just move in! It should be in one of the drawers at my desk. Try the one on the bottom left!”

Snickering at your frustrated tone, Minghao walked over to your desk. His eyes scanned the books and sticky notes scattered across your desk. You would never change would you? You were always going to be that messy person he met on the first day of grade six in school. Well, that was just one of the many, many things he adored about you. 

Flushing at the thought, Minghao shook his head. He needed to find his charger to charge his dying phone, not charge the (definitely not platonic) feelings he had towards you that only seemed to grow stronger with each passing day. Crouching over your desk, he pulled the bottom left drawer open. He clicked his tongue once again when he saw his charger lying within a mess of twisted cords and wires. He picked it up, and shut the drawer. He was going to have to teach you the art of tying your wires together neatly, again. 

As Minghao was about to get up, a shiny box tucked beside your desk caught his eye. Pulling the box up with him, he lightly swept his hand across the top to remove the dust that had piled on there. He shook the box gently. What was in it? Since when did you have this box? Raising it to his eye level, he inspected the box closely. Noticing some writing at the bottom, he squinted. 

“To all the love letters I wrote but never sent”

Love letters? Slightly taken aback, Minghao almost dropped the box. He knew you were hopelessly pining after some guy for years. You had told him that. It pained him to know your heart belonged to someone else, but he always told you to go for it. You never know, maybe the guy you like liked you back. Somehow, you never did. Wanting to respect your boundaries, he never pushed you further than that. 

Minghao sighed. He should really put this back. This was obviously your private stash of love letters to the guy you were pining after. He gripped the box tightly at the thought of you hunched over, pouring your heart out on paper to someone that wasn’t him. His heart clenched. You’ve loved this guy for years, and he did want to know who this idiot was. Which idiot were you so afraid to confess to? Maybe it was Junhui, one of your other best friends. You two were close, and he knew Junhui had a small, tiny crush on you. Minghao growled a little, Junhui…. That little… The more he thought about it, the more annoyed he got. 

Minghao was torn. He really wanted to know who you loved. But no, he would never invade someone’s privacy and breach their trust like that. He would never do that to anyone, especially not to you. 

“Hao?”

Your voice broke Minghao out of his intense train of thought. Alarmed, Minghao peered up at you, “I’m sorry! I saw this shiny box! I didn’t open it though!”

You stared at the box in Minghao’s hands, wide eyed. He found it? Fidgeting on the spot, you bit your lip, trying to calm the hot flush that was rising quickly up your face. You knew Minghao was telling the truth, he wouldn’t open the box. It’s just the thought of him finding that box out of all the things you had littered around your room. It was embarrassing and horridly nerve wrecking.

Noticing your discomfort, Minghao spoke gently, “Y/n, I’m really sorry. I’ll put it back.”

Impulsively, you shook your head. Your brain was fried, your emotions were going into overdrive, but something inside told you that it was okay to let Minghao know. It was finally time for you to tell him. You loved him. 

You took a deep breath, “You can open it.”

“Y/n, you don’t have to… this is your personal box…”

“Hao. It’s okay. I want you to.”

Staring into your eyes intently to make sure it was really okay, you affirmed his wordless question with a slight nod. 

Minghao set the box on your desk, and gingerly opened the lid. Picking up the stack of letters gently, Minghao shuffled through them quickly, noticing how the date of each one went back further and further. He inhaled sharply. You must really love this guy… Setting his sights on one where the title was bolded and written larger than the rest, he pulled it out of its place between the rest of the pieces of paper.

He let his eyes run across the title.

I think I love him. 

He unfolded the letter, scanning through it quickly. 

I think I love him.  The way he laughs, it’s so melodious.  Like a harmony sung by the most prestigious choirs. 

I think I love him.  His eyes, the way he looks at me.  It brings out my inner most desires.

I think I love him.  It’s the little things he does like carry my bag, buy me a drink. Even the way he helps me tie my wires.

I think I love him.  Minghao, that’s his name.  I want him so badly but alas, what I want will never transpire. 

Minghao? That’s his name… He rereads the letter again, staring intensely at the line that his name is written. Him? The idiot he was talking about earlier… It was him? 

Minghao’s eyes widened in shock. You loved him.

As the realisation kicked in, a tiny glint in his eye appeared. You loved him. 

Letting a toothy grin spread across his face, he looked at you excitedly. 

You reeled back, slightly unsure as to why Minghao was acting in such an unMinghao-like manner. Why was he smiling? He literally just found out that the person you’ve been pining after for years was him. Shouldn’t he be creeped out? Yell at you? You’ve been writing about him for years…

“I LOVE YOU TOO!” Minghao exclaimed.

You stilled. What? Did you hear him wrongly… 

You chuckled nervously, “Hao? Say that again?”

Shaking his head, Minghao walked over to you in a few big strides. Shoving the letter right in your face, Minghao repeated himself, “I SAID, I LOVE YOU TOO!”

Watching Minghao’s bright eyes, his words finally began to sink in. You yelled, “WHAT? YOU’RE TELLING ME, WE COULD HAVE ALREADY BEEN DATING BY NOW?”

Minghao nodded, laughing at your reaction. That was what he loved so much about you. Your reactions were somehow always so perfect. 

Using his free hand to lift your hand in front of your face, Minghao intertwined your fingers. He placed a gentle kiss on your knuckles, “Yes, we could have… but it’s not too late to start? In fact, now that we both know, how about we ditch the work we were going to do and go on our very first date?”

Scrunching your nose and looking at Minghao adoringly, you replied with a kiss on his knuckles, “Of course. And you know. Just in case you didn’t already know. I love you. A lot.”

Minghao leaned towards you, “No, no, I know. But I think you’re going to need to rewrite the description of your box.”

“And what’s that?”

Clenching your hand a little tighter, Minghao replies with a smile, “To all the love letters I wrote but never sent, don’t worry because he got them anyway.”

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[haecien]

I've been so offline on tumblr I apologize hehe:( but I'm doing suprisingly good and I've finished a game(well one of its endings atleast) and im currently enjoying it and having brainrot of it

Hi shuie how have u been!!!

cien bien my love i've missed you!!! I've been good 😊 working on some new exciting stuff now haha. Hbu?

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killer chat headers. credit and rb if using

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you guys…

thank u all sm for over 500 followers u all mean sm to me for real 🫶🫶🫶 i am a tiny bit confused as to how i jumped from 400 to 500 in a month when i hadnt posted anything 😭😭 (just shows u guys r real ones fr)

ive decided to do a qna event to celebrate… as if i dont already talk abt myself enough!!! there will be 2 lists, one kpop and one miscellaneous ^^ also please please specify which list ur question is from!!

eg. hiii 🪽, 🥥 from kpop and 🎀, 🪩 from misc pls

anyways tagging some mooties because i love them

@slytherinshua @blue-jisungs @hursheys @dolloie @ywnzn @weird-bookworm @haecien @miryofshampoo @sxgarhan @rizzkisworld @rubywonu @wheeboo + anyone else ive missed ty all for interacting w me and being my friend ily all mwah

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boyfriend jin texts || KSJ

synopsis: jin is your silly NOT TWINKY boyfriend

a/n: sooo sorry for inactivity *gives you jin trying to use brainrot slang*

@haecien

[haecien]

I remember talking about this in dms but don't worry HAHAHSHSH

Hi shuieeee❤❤

So like how would svt react to a people pleaser s/o??? LIKE the reader is always adjusting to the needs of the svt members even if they don't wanna do it🥲🥲

hi cien!! so sorry this took so long. you can find the fic here! ngl i probably wasn't the best person to write it since i'm also a chronic people pleaser 🥲

[haecien]

just because I'm studying to be a psychiatrist doesn't mean I'll still write a fic with a reader that has a neurological disorder....

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BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you are given this award you're supposed to paste it in the asks of 8 people who deserve it. If you break the chain nothing happens, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out🖤

THANKYU ZANNA ILY:(

[haecien]

BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you are given this award you're supposed to paste it in the asks of 8 people who deserve it. If you break the chain nothing happens, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out🖤

Loveu sky:(

[haecien]

Hello dear🌹

hope that you are well

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I am a mother of five smart children.

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Im so sorry to hear what has happen to you and your family:(

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I love it when people draw my ocs like I'm literally jumping around and kicking my feet

[haecien]

HIHI CIENCIEN BABES

its been so long 😢😢😢

HOW ARE UUUUU

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IVE BEEN GOOOODDDOD