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Carson MacCormac and Vincent Muller as Cole Hill and Rust Vance in Clown in a Cornfield (2025) dir. Eli Craig

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I just...don't really care what other people think, unlike some people. Vincent Muller as Ruston "Rust" Vance in Clown In A Cornfield (2025) | written by Carter Blanchard & Eli Craig & directed by Eli Craig

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CLOWN IN A CORNFIELD (2025) dir. Eli Craig

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You don’t smell so good either.

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PANTON ★ KISS

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ADULTS (2025 -) 1.07 | Annabelle

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A big thank you to everyone who pre-ordered my Coloso class! I’m so excited to finally share that the class is now live, and you can start your learning journey today.

Creating this class took a lot of hard work and dedication, so I hope you will find it inspiring and educational.

Thank you again to everyone who’s joined so far, and for those who haven’t yet, here's the link:

https://coloso.global/en/products/illustrator-simzart-us

I hope you enjoy the class! 😊🌸

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PANTON ★ SEASON 1

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sometimes i feel like whether i put effort or not, no one will ever love me the same way i love

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i cant even really express how ive been feeling lately cause i dont wanna make them feel like i'm guilt tripping them into feeling bad for me so all that's left is pretend i'm okay, pretend everything is fine and pretend i'm good with what's said, i dont think i have any other choice, time will heal me someday and i will feel whole again

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i wish there was a way to stop feeling guilty all the fucking time. it's heart wrenching time consuming mind crushing and the worst part is nobody understands how bad it gets. all it takes is one mistake and i feel the weight of everything crashing down my shoulders. like i'm not a good person anymore, like i was never meant to have the friends i had, like nothing before that mistake ever even mattered. and now i'm sitting here, scared that the people who still stuck by my side are gonna leave eventually too, cause they're gonna realize i'm not worthy of their time and they're gonna be so much happier without me.

i cannot stop beating myself up for it, i wish i was more thoughtful, more rational, i wish there was a way to go back in time but i cant, i wish everything went back to normal but it wont, and i'm stuck here feeling lonely and sad and overthinking so many stuff, wishing i had done so many things differently i just want everything to stop cause i did my best to apologize and express how i feel but i cant until i dont put it into words. i feel like screaming into the void but this is the only place i can express these thoughts without being found.

worst part is: i miss them, i miss our quotidianity, but i know for sure they dont miss me. not even a bit.

i hope its gets better soon and maybe i wont feel like a burden to all of my friends anymore

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moon's companion

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my shop | mobile wallpaper

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…nothing makes me feel more alive

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