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He finds a small folded square of paper. It’s stationery from their hotel that night, the night everything inside Alex rearranged. Henry’s cursive… He fumbles his phone out so fast he almost drops it on the floor and smashes it. The search tells him Pyramus and Thisbe were lovers in a Greek myth, children of rival families, forbidden to be together. Their only way to speak to each other was through a thin crack in the wall built between them. And that is, officially, too fucking much. [insp.]

RED, WHITE & ROYAL BLUE (2023) — dir. Matthew Lopez

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Some feelings are like old familiar friends. Depression is like that for me. When I’m not in it, I don’t remember it. I remember it’s bad. I remember the darkness, but it’s different to feel it again. It’s the difference between remembering what a room looks like and actually walking through the door. Being inside it again. Feeling it when the episode starts. It can be slow at the start. An intrusive thought “I don’t wanna be here” but then it’s gone. You bat it way like a fly or a bad smell. When it hits you fully though, when you’re really in it, it’s everything. It’s who you are, you’re nothing else. On the outside, you look the same, smiling and pretending, it’s so much work. But inside it’s a different story. You start to hate yourself. You’re so alone, so unbelievably alone. And you can be with someone you love, but you’re not really with them. We think we know what’s going on with other people, but we don’t. You never really know what’s going on inside someone else’s head. Everyone is fighting a battle you can’t see. We all have blindspots. And you know it’s you. It’s something wrong with you and it’s also exhausting. So goddamn shitty and exhausting, and, it’s helpless . It’s a void. And existing takes so much energy. You wanna sink into a hole of nothing where no one talks to you, and you don’t have to smile or talk or be. Anyway, it’s familiar. I’ve been here before gotten out of it before, but the getting out part becomes the room that you remember but aren’t it. and that’s what’s scary. Being back in the room, where depression lives is a sharp pain and an overwhelming numbness

-Marcus Baker (Ginny and Georgia) on depression

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Why don’t you just tell people the truth? Peter’s father, our father, killed his mother and tried to kill him. I don’t want him to be reminded of that every time he sees me.

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"YOU'RE MY BREATH AND MY BLOOD AND MY SOUL. YOU LET ME KNOW WHAT IT MEANS TO BE TRULY ALIVE"

I AM NEVER RECOVERING FROM THAT SPEECH

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zeke and cal's bond is so special to me. they were there for each other through everything and there was so much love between them. one of my favorite parts of s4 part 1 is everything zeke did to make cal's situation easier on him like putting together the space for his bed and personal stuff, the football game, playing monopoly, always staying with him and obviously the most important one, giving his life for cal's. they had the best platonic relationship on the show and watching it develop was so lovely, i adore them <3

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MANIFEST (2018-2022) 4.02 “All-Call” || 4.10 “Inversion Illusion”

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zeke landon is such a good guy😭 he took everyone's pain until it led him to relapse, put everyone else before himself, kept the stone family going after all the grief they went through, was the best husband to michaela, the best uncle to eden, cal and olive, the best brother for ben and ultimately gave his life to save one of the most important people in his life.

he's so selfless and caring and i'm completely shattered right now :(

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the first + last ever shots of the walking dead <3 

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NORMAN REEDUS as DARYL DIXON THE WALKING DEAD 11.24 ▶ Rest In Peace

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this end, wow, i hoped for this for years but i’m still amazed it really happened.

i can’t believe it’s really finished.

i’m so ready to find out what happened during all this time!! what a beautiful finale and a beautiful tribute.

went from joy to screams to tears.

we are the ones who live.

so grateful for this show. thank you for all these years.🤍

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Nobody talk to me. I need about a few years to recover 😭😭

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that montage was EVERYTHING. the tributes to the ones we lost, rick and michonnes voices flowing into one another, everyone saying "we are the ones that live". wow it was perfect.

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wow

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Uncle! DARYL DIXON & JUDITH GRIMES THE WALKING DEAD 10.12 Walk With Us // 11.23 Family

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I think the worst part is when you realize that they were happy, finally free and together, in a kinda established relationship, and suddenly it was all taken from them. One minute they were kissing in the streets, being domestic in some hotel room in Venice and the next, they saw into each other’s eyes for the last time at the police station. And Patrick waited and longed for that touch for over 40 years. He was frozen in time for 40 years. So when he got that touch again, life and love were timeless. Patrick was touched by young Tom because that’s where their story stopped. There was no life after that.

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MY POLICEMAN (2022) Michael Grandage