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The trend in my dreams still continues. Most nights I dream in some kind of fantasy (or sci-fi) setting as those are genres that always naturally attracted me. The only thing I regret is that I often can’t remember them clearly. They always come to me during the day as fragments. Shadows of the stories. The memories are very hard to catch. They are like a whiff of smell I only sometimes can follow to source.

Tonight I dreamed about writing a fantasy book while simultaneously living the story of its protagonists.

On a related note I only yesterday realized, that I made a significant progress with my sleeping regime. It has been weeks since I have gone to sleep after 2 am. And apart from today same goes for waking up after 10 am. And I have forgotten to take my second pill yesterday, so today it might as well be due to the lack of serotonin in my neurological system.

It became so normalized I had forgotten to appreciate the progress I managed to accomplish by getting it that way :D

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My dreams are lately quite afflicted by the film studies. On top of experiencing them in real time I often have a meta information on them, in the sense of what will happen in the future or similar stuff, without it actually influencing my actions in the dream itself in any way.

For instance I have remembered fragments of today’s dream just a few minutes ago and it was a first part of a series of several books. I am now let down I will never know the whole thing. From what pieces I can remember it was truly a fascinating world. Though being a protagonist of it really sucked. It was quite the Byronic hero role :D

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#babysteps The closet was not sorted since I moved here a year ago and literally just dumped my things out of my bag, and into it. For the last semester I did not even want to open it. I just used to let my laundry on the drier, till I needed it.

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I had to watch hour and a half long Nazi propaganda documentary for class today. My jaw hurt for another hour and a half from how hard I was clenching my teeth, so I am glad I am functional enough to make waffles for the first time. I have not had home-made waffles since my grandma died when I was four!

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In shocking turn of events the label “this color can be more bright and last longer on highlighted hair” apparently means “this color can partly withstand bleaching”, resulting in my hair being now the color of a blue cotton candy. Seriously, wtf is this thing made of?!

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I was always someone who did not care much about my country. It was just a place I happened to be born in you know? In the case I needed to flee to my family in Switzerland it was like “meh, whatever”.

But I think I am somehow developing feelings for my country? Like wtf? I don’t even know why. Or what to do with those things. Help?

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I was attacked!

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When you wonder how your hair matches your swim shorts :D

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I had a good dream today. And that is all I remember anymore, so I am writing it down here, before I forget even that.

I have also once again woke up at 8 am, which is nice, because it means I am starting to develop a habit. I could appreciate it more without the accompanying panic :D

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I am kinda drained. I think it is because I had a nightmare tonight. I had a stick with thorns stuck in my feet, and I was terribly scared of pulling it out. But also was desperate to get it out (but I was too afraid to do it myself? Which is the opposite of me in real life).

That is a second nightmare this week I know off. I don’t remember any normal dreams either.

The fact that I woke up in panic that I overslept because of my inner clock probably did not help. (I could sleep in today for an hour and half. If I was able to that is.)

I feel I am overall better, but on the other hand I had not have this frequent intense nightmares since ever. I guess I will have to wait and see if they persist.

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There is something peculiar about funerals in the summer time. I think it has to do something with the sadness so great even the summer sun and heat can’t pierce it, becoming instead a heavy blanket suffocating a man.

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Když už z toho dělám fotodeníček. Aka víc dekorací na pánských WC pls!

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I think I am falling for my best friend again. Like goddamit we have done this already it is good for nothing.

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When you turn a dying printer into an aesthetic :D

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What have we learned: It s not me it is the bad henna. At least I have some experience in application now :D

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Well my first try at henna ended up with my skin not catching almost any color. Probably because I used too much cream too soon. I will go for a no. 2 this evening, maybe try to leave it on through night (my bed will be a mess full off dried henna, though :D).

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Suspiria Directed by Dario Argento (1977)