hanverse-recs

[hanverse-recs]

'talk about: pop music' - a mini series by @cosmicalily

Outline: A series of standalone Stray Kids fics inspired by my favourite pop princesses of the era, because even the catchiest songs can have the deepest meanings. Author’s note: This was originally going to be entirely a Pinkpantheress series, but I've been wanting to do a 'party 4 u' inspired fic for so long and this felt like the perfect opportunity! Also I'm not accepting any criticism for starting a new series when I have two currently unfinished ones . . .

Tracklist: (Disc 1: Hyung Line)

Track 1: ‘party 4 u’  with BangChan “You know that I've been waiting for you.” - Charli xcx Track 2: ‘OMG’  with Minho “I don't often use your name, but I'm craving to” - Suki Waterhouse Track 3: ‘Pop Star’  with Changbin “I don′t like the cameras, but I love it when you ogle.” - Coco & Clair Clair Track 4: ‘Red Wine Supernova’  with Hyunjin “Fell in love with the thought of you.” - Chappell Roan

Tracklist: (Disc 2: Maknae Line)

Track 5: ‘Illegal  with Jisung “But tell me why my heartbeat is in a rush.” - Pinkpantheress Track 6: ‘Busy Woman’  with Felix “Maybe for you, though, I could accommodate.” - Sabrina Carpenter Track 7: ‘California’  with Seungmin “Got a fragile heart, always thought you knew that.” - Beabadoobee Track 8: ‘Headphones On’  with Jeongin “Every good thing comes my way, so I still get dolled up.” - Addison Rae

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[hanverse-recs]

harsh reality | HJS

“i wish we could live through every memory again. just one more time before we float off in the wind.” — here with me, d4vd

pairing: late bf! han x f! reader

when spending time with your beloved boyfriend and daughter, you can’t help but feel like there’s something wrong with your touch of reality.

[warnings]: mentions of death, straight angst i fear, fake reality, touchy subjects, mentions of a miscarriage, pet names (angel, love), subtle foreshadowing of angels, no happy ending

word count: 1.6k

💌: i’m so sorry in advance.. *not proofread*

You let the water rush by your feet, dangling them back and forth as they sloshed around in the pond beneath you. The sun beamed onto your skin, with fluffy clouds giving you shade as they passed. The birds chirped around you, the sweet sound of the early summer giving you comfort.

You watched as your boyfriend splashed around in the lake, laughing as he gave a little girl piggyback rides. His pants were ridiculously folded up to his knees so they didn’t get wet, but the splashing water still found its way onto his clothes. His white clothes at that. Which is why you opted to wear a different color.

You felt the cool breeze run past you, as you took it all in. The colors were so vibrant, so warm and welcoming. The smiles on the two people you loved most bringing you joy. It was perfect.

Too perfect.

“Can you make a really huge one for me?”

Han handed the bubble wand to the younger girl, a soft smile painting his face as she nodded. She blew with all her might, watching as multiple bubbles flew into the air. She pouted, dipping the wand back into the bottle and trying again. He made his way over to you, coming behind you and pushing the swing softly.

“Everything alright love?”

You nodded, watching the little girl pop the bubble she blew into the air. The breeze blew underneath your white dress, put you pat it down with your hands to keep it from going up. Han stopped the swing, coming in front of you. You scoot over, letting him sit next to you. He took your hand in his, your fingers intertwining as you rested your head against his shoulder.

“You ever feel like things are too good to be true?”

The little girl turned to face Han, waving as she held a small frog in her hand. You waved back happily, feeling the weight of Han’s head rest against your own. The little girl waved once again, as if she didn’t see you the first time. You brought your hand up to wave, only to stop when you seen Han wave back at her.

Odd.

“I’m not sure I understand what you mean..”

Your thumb caressed his hand, a small sigh escaping your lips.

“All of this. Being with you, our surroundings, the warm weather. It feels so nice, but it all just seems too real.”

You glanced over at the girl again, her face feeling familiar but unfamiliar at the same time. Han raised his eyebrows at you, a small smile escaping his lips as he looked up at the sky.

“It is real, love. We’re here with you, we always have.”

You tilted your head at him, eyebrows furrowed as you thought about what he said. Maybe it was all in your head. This life that you dreamt of with him was real, and you were living it.

So why did you feel so out of place?

“Papa! My bubbles aren’t working!”

You both laughed, Han getting up from the swing and holding his hand out to you. You took it happily, following him to where the little girl stood. She handed the bubbles to him, a look of frustration painting her face as she waited for him to fix the container. You admired the girl— she was adorable, features same as Han down to his chubby cheeks. Her hair was a dark brown, long to her back. She wore a white dress with yellow flowers. White flats on her feet and a white headband to match.

You kneeled down to her height, petting her head softly as she stared at Han with big eyes. She gave no reaction to your petting, as if she couldn’t feel it. You wanted to call out her name, get her attention, except.. you didn’t know her name.

Why couldn’t you remember?

It was like her name was on the tip of your tongue, but no matter how hard you thought, nothing would come to mind. You shook your head, opting for a nickname in hopes of her response.

“Is papa helping you honey?”

The girl didn’t answer— didn’t even look your way. It was as if you were never there. Was she ignoring you? You stood up, looking at Han with a confused expression as he handed her back the bubbles. Not only did she not answer, but Han had no reaction to her not answering you either.

It was odd.

A weird feeling settled in your stomach, signaling you that something wasn’t right. You looked up at the sky, watching the previously blue sky turn a soft orangey pink hue from the sunset. You reached for Han’s hand, only to grasp onto air.

You looked beside you, watching as Han began to walk away with the girl. She held her bubbles in her free hand, skipping along the grass.

“Hey guys, wait up!”

Except they didn’t. They couldn’t hear you, nor turned around to see if you were following them. You continued to follow them, catching Han looking over his shoulder to catch your eyes. He smiled at you softly, stopping to turn around. He waved goodbye, not saying a single word.

“Papa it’s not bye, it’s see you later!” The little girl looked to you, running up to give you a soft hug. You stood there shocked, quickly returning the hug she gave you.

“See you later momma!”

You watched her run back to Han, taking his hand as they continued to walk away from you. You began to run after them, watching as they slowly disappeared into a bright light. Nothing but grass, trees and the same bodies of water you were looking at before surrounded you. There was no Han and no little girl. They were gone.

“Wait! Han!” you called out, wondering if they were playing a harmless joke on you.

Nothing. You called out again, only to receive a response from the wind. You backed up slowly, trying to look around for them in the distance. Still, nothing.

“Han this isn’t funny!”

You looked up at the sky once again, watching as the sky filled with the moon and stars. Darkness quickly surrounded you, the unsettling feeling in the pit of your stomach growing. It was cold, and suddenly snow began to fall around you. You felt yourself on the brink of tears, feeling lost and hopeless with no idea as to where your lover ran off to.

You stepped backward, running into what felt like cement. Turning around, you were met with a tombstone covered in snow. You felt your body shiver at the sight, afraid as to what it would read. You kneeled down, your knees hitting the cold snow as you brushed off the snow.

It couldn’t be. You definitely didn’t read what you just thought you did, right?

In Loving Memory; Beloved Brother, Son, Husband & Father.

Father?? Husband? You brushed off more of the snow, revealing another line of words.

In loving Memory; Beloved Daughter.

Daughter?

It was Han. Han.. and your daughter. The tombstone read their names, and they were buried right beneath you. You felt your eyes swell up with tears, your hands gripping the fabric of your dress.

Your eyes shot open as you sat up, finding yourself in a dark lit room. It was unfamiliar to you. You rubbed your eyes, catching glimpses of little things that resembled a hospital.

Were you in a hospital?

You took a deep breath, wiping the few amount of tears that escaped. Thank goodness it was a dream, only a dream. None of it was real.

You looked over at the clock on the wall, reading 5:03 am. You looked beside you, in search of a remote or some kind of call button, only for a nurse to come in the room.

“Oh goodie you’re awake!” She walked over you, adjusting your IV line before looking at the machine that displayed your vitals.

“How did I get here.” you mumbled, your voice raspy. You watched her face drop slightly, a soft sigh escaping her.

“You were in a crash dear. Pretty fatal, but you managed to survive. I’d say that’s lucky, at least for you.”

You furrowed your eyebrows at her, looking around the room and further into the hall. You wanted Han— no you needed Han. You wanted his comfort.

“Where’s.. my boyfriend? Can I see him?”

The nurse stopped in her tracks, closing her eyes as her jaw clenched. She took your hand in hers, running her thumb across your knuckles softly.

“I’m not sure how to tell you this dear.” she paused for a moment, taking a deep breath as she struggled to push out the words to you.

“Your boyfriend is dead.”

You felt your heart drop, the memories of your dream-turned-nightmare coming back to you. Dead? She’s joking, right?

“He risked his life to save you. You and.. your child,” she glanced at your stomach, placing her hand on it softly.

“Which we unfortunately could not save. I’m sorry.”

She squeezed your hand slightly, grabbing her things and heading toward the door, closing it behind her. You felt your world crash from under you, unsure of whether to cry or go completely numb.

It was right in front of you, and you couldn’t see it. The white outfits, why the little girl didn’t acknowledge you, why everything felt too real. This unsettling feeling. They were dead, and they simply visited you through a dream.

They stopped you from following them, but why?

Why wouldn’t they let you go with them?

Why would they leave you to suffer here alone?

How could you go on without the person that made you happiest?

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