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vomiting words

she doesn't know who she is

crippling existential dread

caffeinated nutsack

brimming with wasted potential

his musk was chaotic (xD)

he scooped her up, parted, entered, and drizzled in the span of a few seconds

glaring at her bisexual bob

something about you makes me want to choke you but in a good way

I am confusion and caffeine

red like the blood of my enemies

white as the sclera of your eyes

blue as the bloody bastards in the royal family

yellow as mildly dehydrated piss

orange as really dehydrated piss

green like the bottle blowflies whose maggots devour decaying flesh

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soft reminder: you’re alive. you survived the worst nights you’ve ever experienced. you picked yourself up when you were at rock bottom. you made it through the worst relapses, loneliness, heartbreak, failure and darkness in your life. when you wanted to disappear you stayed, time and time again. you can make it through anything. you will get through this too.

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11th-3- 2025

I'll turn 27 this year. I dont need a VPN anymore <3 I was valedictorian. Everything I was afraid of worked out and I'm grateful for that. Officially with hubs now, left my old life behind, which I'm glad for most days.

currently grappling with the emotional ordeal of so much change and just trying to process and cope with L I F E.

25-3-23

I hate that I have to use a VPN to use tumblr but it feels good to be back ❤️🫠

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19-10-21

If you were really honest with yourself, whose life have you been living?

My own for as much as I can… otherwise it’s been or atleast it feels like it’s been pretty heavily restricted by my parents. But even so, I do think I (to a great extent, if not entirely) do follow the best of my own drum, and I think that is admirable.

I just hope I get the chance to REALLY come into my own & lead my life according to my authentic self, soon. A long & happy/fulfilled life.

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update: i did finally get the period but it lasted over a month and now its stopped too thank fck... I've stopped taking inositol ad don't see myself taking it anytime soon...

26-1-25

Homesick for a home that wasn’t there/ I didn’t really have. I always come back to wondering if I’ll w we feel comfortable/ “at home”

Like what am I even doing

I just want to be able to have a private cry alone

Have some actual “me” time

Not having to deal with constant mysterious aches and pains

My pcos is pcos-ing and I haven’t gotten my period in months and I may be getting it today or may not??!! Idk it keeps playing with me

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eat him out wednesday or whatever. i've stopped keeping track

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Main Hero room (Distant Village) by Ekaterina Yakovleva

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Getting back to the routine after the holidays with my best shark face. 🐈‍⬛🦈🤍

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26-1-25

Homesick for a home that wasn’t there/ I didn’t really have. I always come back to wondering if I’ll w we feel comfortable/ “at home”

Like what am I even doing

I just want to be able to have a private cry alone

Have some actual “me” time

Not having to deal with constant mysterious aches and pains

My pcos is pcos-ing and I haven’t gotten my period in months and I may be getting it today or may not??!! Idk it keeps playing with me

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Weight log 2025

9th jan = 74kg

1st Feb =

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Oh a space to call mine.

I’m not used to being around people all the time. I’m not used to being so dependent on other people all the time.

(6-1-25)

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Window watching ☕️🌿

( find me here )

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Journalling resources for when I need it:

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2025 🎀 what’s in

healing

exercise

self care : skin, hair, body, mind

enforcing boundaries

journaling

2025 🎀 what’s out

negative thinking

allowing fear to control me

procrastinating

overthinking

toxic relationships