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I’ve had a few people attempt to remove Elliot’s mutism which I’ve outright said “Nah, not fixing it at this point in time, but here’s a little personal lore tidbit for your troubles.” or something along those lines, probably a bit more, excuse the pun, muted than that.

As it seems to have been said before, I guess I’ll say it too: OOC communication is important.

If you RP a healer and you say...

“I can fix your blindness!”

“You’re deaf? I’ll cure it!”

“Don’t worry, I can mend whatever made you mute.”

“Hold still, I’m currently in the process of removing that character trait that you like RPing.”

DON’T.

Are you a Light-wielder? The virtue of Respect dictates that you must only help those who welcome your help.

Do you get help from the spirits of the wilds? Who are you to interfere with the natural order unless the person’s life is otherwise in danger?

Channeling some chi? What you would deem a defect may instead be the source of their personal strength. 

In short, ask permission. No, it doesn’t have to make sense to you. Ask permission anyway.

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So, just hit level 50 on my alt a while ago and I think I can summarise the levelling process from 1-50 in about, eh, a word or two.

Torturous. Painful.

Since I was levelling a DPS, it was made even worse by long queue times to get in and I had to play through about sixteen levels worth of content in order to actually get into an instance where queue times are not stupidly ridiculous. That instance? Palace of the Dead.

And it fucking carried me through all the way to 50, mixed in with the occasional roulette and FATEs that I encountered across the way. While it helped that I had the experience of levelling a class once on my main, dear god, it was still painful even when I knew pretty much plenty of things. And I did it FC-less too.

Now, don’t get me wrong, there is a lot in place in Heavensward that helps making your levelling so much easier. Palace of the Dead exists, for one, and there is the ability to unsynch duties so that you can bring your level 60 friends along and have them demolish everything while you pick up the dredges. Not to mention that the 100% armoury bonus for classes below 50 is in place, it’s not 50% for a class at 50 and then an additional 50% if you have one at 60, it’s a flat 100%.

Even still, it took me about two weeks tops to get from 1-50 while stopping every so often to roleplay and all that. I do not recommend that experience to anyone.

All in all, the levelling process is slow, gruelling, and boring, even with everything in place to make things easier to do such as the bonus experience items, the brand new ring (which is a fucking godsend by the way), Palace of the Dead, et al. I now realize one of the main reasons why I switched over to being a career healer/tank in MMOs.

However, it is not as bad as it used to be, so, points for that.

Addendum - I reached level 50 with my aetherpool in PotD at 85 Aetherpool Arm and 94 Aetherpool Armor. I’m not joking.

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Going to open my heart here

Not like anyone is reading this tumblr anyhow but if it helps, it helps.

There have been times where I’ve been left with my own thoughts and been having many an anxious thought. “Do they hate me?” “Do they not want me around anymore?” “What if everyone hates me?”

These thoughts pop up from time to time when interacting with a group of friends in FFXIV that I roleplay with on occasion and oftentimes with other folks too. I have been trying to cope by telling myself that if they didn’t want me around, they would be completely evading me.

I guess that’s why I act so tentative all the time because I’m scared that people hate me for things that I deeply regret and that I keep feeling like I’m not worth anyone’s time.

Although, saying that, I try to keep moving forward, I accept that what I have done in the past may have been bad, downright horrible even, but I’m just going to have to accept that and move on. It still haunts me, sure, and I feel like that the people who I’ve wronged in the past have all the reason to hate me, and I’m okay with that. I won’t hold anything against them, I deserve it after all. But if I can move forward, then maybe I’ll one day live to make it up to the people I’ve hurt.

So, if you’re a friend of mine who just happened to stumble upon this tumblr, I just want you to know that I thank you from the very bottom of my heart for being with me despite everything that I may have done. If you’re someone I’ve wronged in the past, I beg for your forgiveness, you have every right to hate me and I won’t hate you if you do.