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ON PURPOSE, I'M GOING TO LOVE YOU ON PURPOSE

Jenny Slate // Casey McQuiston, Red, White & Royal Blue // Pleiades, Anne Carson // Taylor Jenkins Reid, The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo // @oriley42 and @earth167 (and a half) on Tumblr // Jodi Picoult from The Book Of Two Ways // The Night Vale, Episode 100, The Toast // Adam Melchor, I Choose You // Kierston White, The Chaos of Stars

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helloooo we miss u!

thank you so much for reaching out, it amazes me and honours me so much to have you thinking of me and still finding your way to my blog. hope you're well and wish you all the best

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happy holidays!!!

Happy holidays!! Thank you for thinking of me and I hope you had a really great few festive days and will have many more happy and good days

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Hey! Do you maybe have a master list on here? I read some works of yours and I would love to read all the others but I can’t find them all (in order) on your blog so just asking if you have a link or something for your master list!

Hi! Yes, thank you so much for asking!! All my stories are linked on this list my stories, except for my newest pieces (not quite resolved, which is a part two to "not quite honest" and my other one shot on your side). Thank you soo much, truly, for reaching out and reading my stories. It means the world!

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Why do you always make the reader get back with harry after he's done awful things to them? You don't even give them time to work things out. I like your writing just curious as to why?

Hi :) Thanks for reaching out to me, I also really appreciate how nice you voiced your (semi-)criticism. And you've got an interesting point! I don't fully agree tbh, I think I did (and very much tried to) give the characters lengthy conversation where they work out whatever happened. Some of that working through the issue happens whilst the issue ist discussed for the first time, maybe even during a fight. I suppose sometimes I didn't want to drag the story on too long and maybe cut some aspects short. I love the drama. I love creating the well where my characters can fall into. The "working-through-it" part is important, of course, but for some story styles (imo) it's fine if that part is 1/3 of the story and not 1/2. I also remember a story where I announced that it wouldn't end with the two of them together and many of my dear readers were unhappy about that, since then I tried to make it reasonable for the two to find each other again no matter what. I definitely see your point especially in my old writings - there are some stories that I quite honestly wouldn't write again or I'd change them entirely. I reread some of them and literally caught myself thinking "oh no, red flags for dayysss.. how the hell did I miss that". So yeah, sorry for the way too lengthy reply (though I perhaps finally gave the time and space to explain and work through something porperly?) Anyhow, hope this makes sense and again, an honest thank you for reaching out and being so nice about it. I always appreciate that very much. x

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Hi girl 👋🏻, it's been a while. How are you? Are you still active on here? 😊

Hi! :) I'm alright but it's been a crazy few weeks. How are you? I hope you're well! And I'm semi-active on here. I definitely want to write something again soon since I've got some ideas. But I check my inbox relatively regularily despite not posting anything.

Thank you sincerely for writing to me. I appreciate it! x

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Hey,

Hope your really well and I hope you successes have come true!! Hope you will check in from time to time. Wishing you all the best

Hi :) You're the sweetest, thank you so much for this. I appreciate it a lot. I'm doing alright. I recently caught covid for the first time despite being fully vaccinated and boostered and it honestly fucked me up mentally more so than physically. I've been feeling a little down. But it's alright, I'll fully recover soon enough I'm sure. At least college is going great. :) I hope you're doing well and that you're having a good time. And of course I wish you all the best! Truly thank you for reaching out. x

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Can we pls get a part 2 to What we once were? Literally crying rn I love it sm

Hi :) Ok I'm really flattered you enjoyed that one!! Like - Honestly it means the world.

I wrote it a long time ago, but the reason I can't really give you a second part is that it's based on something that I experienced as a Teenager. It's a rough take on the first time I was in love and the story concludes somewhat how it ended for me. To give you a "part 2" or really a run down to what happened to the real life characters: I didn't delete the chat. I responded and agreed to meet him a few days later. He was eager to meet up immediately but I managed to push it back to meet him in public and on my terms. It was crushing when I didn't receive the apology I'd hoped for. I'd hoped he would to the very least tell me how sorry he was. I would have hoped that he'd say he regretted treating me that way and that he would change and make an effort to be better for me. After not showing up as promised we rescheduled and he gave me a loose hug, mumbled a sorry and disappeared again after telling his friends "everything's great again!". I was beyond embarrassed. And in all honesty I resigned after that. I loved him so much. I can't stress enough how much I loved him. To this day I'm sure I since didn't love anybody as much as I did him. But he'd also hurt me harder than anyone else ever had. He'd hurt my pride. And to be honest, I think when your heart is broken your pride is all you have - at least that's what it felt like for me. So when he disappointed me with his half arsed apology and in the following weeks tried to act like I was an accessory to him - I slowly became furious. After only maybe three weeks of being somewhat ok again, we stumbled into another situation in which he took over talking for me. He made it a habit to make decisions for me, put me into a situation with somebody else that I didn't want to be in. And while pride may be a flaw sometimes, in this case it saved me. Because I felt so truly angered that he treated me as an inferior after he owed me - well, I basically just got up and left. And then I broke off every contact, rejected any of his advances and disappeared from his life.

I made sure to cut off his friends, too. I spent the rest of the year socialising with other people and built a solid friend group completely cut off from anybody who still spent time with him. I think partially because of my withdrawl he tried harder. For months he called out to me whenever he saw me from a distance or had my friends tell me how sorry he was. It was incredibly hard to keep rejecting the advances, but I'm sure it would have been fatal if I'd let him close again.

While I focused on doing better, he did worse. He grew popular with the wrong crowds, started getting into drugs and what not. He was eventually sent away and disappeared. I didn't see him for probably months, then only once a year - even less. We never spoke again until I stumbled into him years later, drunk and lost it laughing because he'd grown a beard. It's funny to me now that the first and last words after years of loving him were "Since when have you got a beard?" before laughing so much my belly hurt. It must have hurt him which I regret now. But I also don't because he deserves it.

He never dated that other girl I was worried about. She did her own set of messed up things so lots of our friends ended up not really liking her all that much. If he's been with others I don't know, but I assume he dated new people he met wherever it is he was sent to. I'm in college now and changed a lot. I have a clear view on what I allow others to do with and to me and what I'll never ever tolerate again. He's employed somewhere, doing ok I think, but I'm honestly not sure if he managed to get away from using drugs and violence as the answers to his problems. He reached out to one of my friends a few months ago and sounded like he was happy with where he is. He didn't directly ask about me, only alluded to it. She knows that I've got him blocked on pretty much everything, so she didn't elaborate on me.

I'm glad he's got a steady job and that he seems happy. But unless a therapist told him to try, I hope he never reaches out to me again.

This is not a part two but it's the best I can do. And it's honest. x

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hope u are doing well!

Hi! Thank you soo much, I'm actually doing pretty great. College is going great, albeit tough and I somehow keep avoiding getting sick, which I'm relieved by. Hope you are well too! Thanks for checking in. x

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hiiii i just want to say your fics are soooo good!! and i every time i read them they never fail to make me cry. i hope youre doing well!

Oh you're too kind!! Thank you so much for saying that. It means the world to know I can convey feelings through my stories. Thank you! I'm doing really well. College is still kicking my ass but only one semester more and I'll hopefully have my degree (and more time to write again) xx I hope you're well and thank you for checking in on me!

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Omg i was looking for your account but it wouldnt show up and my heart dropped for a second

Same! I recently looked my account up and it wouldn't appear :o I can promise that I'll never delete my account ever, so if it's a bit hidden it's 'cause tumblr likes to mess with us. :) I'll try to see if I can figure out what's wrong xx Thanks for searching me up, that actually means a lot to me! x

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Don’t know if youll see thing but ive been following you and rereading your fics for a few years now. Your fics make me feel so many things, they bring me comfort even though they make me cry my whole heart out. You are super talented! and i just want to thank you for sharing your work on here ❤️

Hello! I can't quite express how grateful and surprised in the best way possible I am each time I open this page and see a message as lovely as yours. Thank you so so much. I don't think there's a better compliment to writers than to hear that their stories are still being read and cared about years later. I take that as the biggest compliment and I'm so so thankful for you. Thank you so much for reaching out to me. People like you made writing all the more worth it and enjoyable for me. x

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whats your wattpad?

Nonexistent.

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! wishing you a healthy and happy 2022 🥳

THANK YOU!! I wish you a healthy, happy and kind new year with just the right amount of adventure sprinkled on top. x

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Your fics are the best!!!!!

This is so nice to hear! Thank you so so much. Made a long day of studying for college much better, so thank you and I wish you a happy new year in advance. x

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I loved Not Quite Resolved! I'm so glad you revisited their story and gave them their happy ending!

I'm so happy to hear from you! I hope you're well! :)

Thank you so so much for your feedback and for reading my story!! I'm happy you enjoyed it. x

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not quite resolved

I m p o r t a n t: This is a continuation of my story: not quite honest 

Hello everyone! I’m not really back, but I couldn’t not write this one. Hope you enjoy! I think it’s essential to read part one to really understand what’s going on, but feel free to do as you please. Have fun! x

Several weeks had passed since Y/N and Harry had held each other, hoping that by squeezing the other person close that they could erase the dreadful hurt of the night. Harry, equally grateful as surprised that the night didn’t end with her sending him on his way, allowed himself to be hopeful. Though only timidly. He hoped that by pulling her to his chest, he could chase away any lingering doubt in her mind. Y/N in turn hoped that if she allowed herself to be held, the losing of trust would stop. She wanted to trust him. Believe what he said. Trusting and believing his words had always come so easily and natural to her during their time together. It was a hard conclusion to draw when she asked herself where exactly the root of her pain was coming from. She didn’t know how to rebuild their effortless believe in each other.  So she’d held onto him tighter, chuckled at his words of humour and hoped, truly and whole heartedly, that this would be enough. 

To some degree this worked. Or to the very least, it looked like it did.

The next few weeks were noticeably different than before. The days were marked by the slight change in behaviour. Y/N was less touchy with him. Something Harry wasn’t embarrassed to admit he noticed the quickest, as well as this being the one thing that he found the hardest to ignore. They still kissed, they had sex. More so than before, actually. But the small things, like a lingering hand or kiss on the cheek just because she could - those small gestures of love and attention, they were gone. Instead Harry could see the wheels turning insider her head each time before she as much as slightly initiated that she would like to be physical with him. He watched her rethink every gesture, hesitate before touching him. Almost as if he didn’t belong to her. It pained him that his past mistakes had made her doubt her ownership over him.  The only times this seemed to be different was when they were in bed together. But those moments could barely make up for the loss of affection found in ordinary gestures.

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