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I’m a what now?
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So I cant use my Baton?
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haruchiyoskantana · 2 years
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Y/n is Sick
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haruchiyoskantana · 2 years
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I got a kisskiss
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text fics are so cringey lmao, why is the reader always a pick me💀 like aint no way in hell would the characters care about them
I’m sorry then why are you
1. On my page?
2. Taking soo much time out of your day to even come here and talk
3. Such a coward to have to go on anon?
It’s always the anons that have so much shit to say too. If you don’t think my shit then why are you here? Must live such a sad life to think I genuinely care about what you have to say. I’m a grown women and I’ll post what I want. The reader isn’t a pick me either and I’m soooooo sorry if you feel that way. Go bitch to someone else who actually gives a fuck about what you have to say.
Not only that but why do you care so damn much like honestly? If you don’t like it then why they hell are you even reading it? My bad you must not know how smaus work huh. I do feel bad for you. I hope you get the help you need bud. Do my a favor baby~ block me 😘
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haruchiyoskantana · 2 years
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We love you
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Something in the Drink
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Y/n is Drunk
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Mikey was not happy
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Crazy how that worked out, huh
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it was a Saturday morning when you had woken up, Sanzu was not in bed with you. You sat up and looked around to see if he was in the bathroom, but he was gone. You sighed softly getting dressed before heading to the headquarters which is where you thought he was going to be. He wasn’t there either, in fact nobody was. It was like everyone just disappeared. You pulled out your phone to see if anyone had texted or called and nobody contacted you.
A soft sigh left your lips. Hearing the doors opening to see everyone coming in, you smiled seeing Sanzu, Ran went to greet you as Sanzu was behind him. He had his arms opened as you walked past him to give Sanzu a hug. Sanzu smiled down at you, wrapping an arm around your shoulders. A smile on your face, it made you look so beautiful and so full of life. Ran had sat next to Rindou with a frown on his face. “Hurts doesn’t it? That’s what you lost. But you can do something right?” Ran looked at his brother as tears filled his eyes, “what?” Rindou smiled at him, placing a hand on his shoulder, “You can be happy for them, and make up for being a raging asshole when they really needed you. I can’t say if they would forgive you, but think about it.”
Ran watched as your laugh sounded so angelic, you seemed so much brighter standing next to Sanzu, he knew that he would never be able to give that to you. He knows it now, He knows he would never be able to give you the time and love that you deserve. Ran sits in his chair, just watching. He wished Sanzu had given him more time to correct himself before sweeping you off your feet, but time doesn’t wait for anyone. He should’ve known that. He should’ve been there when you needed him. But now youre happy, that’s more than he can ask for.
Mikey had set up for you, Ran and Sanzu to go out on a mission. You nodded as you went to gear up. Taking the weapons of choice.
Arriving at the location, much to your dismay. There was tension the whole time on the way here. You walked in front of them as they followed, you entered the building seeing the gang playing poker, fighting each other and it was all smokey. Pulling out your handgun, shooting everyone in the forehead along your way to the back where their leader would be. Blood had splattered on your cheek.
“So, lets se-” A gunshot heard behind you made you stop moving. Sanzu and Ran only use guns when extremely necessary. You had turned to see Ran holding his stomach. Looking at you then the blood on his hand. Sanzu was pissed, killing everyone else. You had Ran sitting in your lap, brushing his hair out from his eyes. “i-im..Im so sorry..” Ran said, placing a hand on your cheek. “Shh.. none of that. You sound like you’re going to die, none of that silly. We are going to get you help. Sanzu.. Call mikey.. Yeah?” You looked at Sanzu, tears streaming down your cheeks. He couldn’t move, he had fallen to his knees. You had pulled out Rans phone before punching in mikeys number, you couldn’t stop shaking. Raising your hand to your cheek, Mikey pickled up after the third ring. “Mikey.. You need to send help.. And fast.. Please. Ran..” You were sobbing, clenching the phone in your hand tightly. A silent scream leaving your lips.
Mikey disconnected the call, notifying everyone. Trying to get there as quickly as possible. “You were always too good for me ya know. Always so bright even when you werent. Always watching out for everyone else, and never yourself. I really am going to miss that goofy smile you always had for me.” Ran said, he was going to die and he knew it was going to be here. He smiled softly at you. “If it’s okay with you, can I have my goodbye kiss.?” You nod, you can feel him getting cold, you cupped his cheek before leaning down pressing a sweet kiss on his lips. “I love you y/n..” Ran said before closing his eyes for the final time. “ran..Ran that’s not funny, open your eyes! Ran!!” You yelled out, You felt yourself getting pulled from Rans body by Sanzu seeing Rindou running in, A scream leaving your lips. Thrashing in Sanzus arms, “No! Sanzu let me go!! I need to make sure he’s okay!! Ran! Answer me! It’s not funny, please..” Sanzu held you tighter, he himself was crying.
You had wiggled out of Sanzus arms crawling towards Ran, Rin was standing there unsure if his eyes were playing tricks on him or not. You shook Ran, “Wake up, this isn’t funny anymore, you need to wake up. We are waiting for you Ran.. Please..” You cried out, stucking in a breath through your teeth, you rested your head on his chest, you didn’t hear his heartbeat anymore. You stilled, looking up at Rindou, he dropped to his knees. He was shaking, you pulled Rindou into your chest, he gripped your shirt tightly. The sobs leaving his lips were louder, and more painful than your own. Everyone was in tears at the sight. Rindou knew that you loved Ran, there was no doubt of that in his mind. Rindou would’ve never questioned you about the pain you were feeling nor the pain he was.
You were pulled from Rindou by Sanzu, and Takeomi grabbed Ran while Kakucho forced Rindou up, Taking everyone away from this place. Everyone knew that it was time to get out of there before the cops showed up.
That night, Rindou, you and Sanzu sat in Rans office. None of you said a word. You could smell him, you had grabbed one of his spare jackets he kept in his desk. You didn’t put it on, just clutching it to your chest. Rindou was sitting with his back against the desk, you were against the wall, the tears never stopped falling. You tried to breathe but you felt like you were suffocating. You didn’t expect to lose him, not like this. You wanted this to just be a nightmare. All of it one really fucked up dream.
Closing your eyes, you saw Ran the day you two got together for the first time. He still had his long hair, before he cut it all and asked you to color it to match Rindou. A small smile on your lips soon fated realizing you’ll never be able to do that again.
You had heard a ringing in your ears, as you closed your eyes.
You shot up in bed, looking around to see Sanzu next to you still asleep, you picked up your phone calling Rans phone. “Mm? Hello..? Y/n?.. It’s like 6am why are you calling me?..” You let a sob leave your lips which caused Sanzu to stir awake, “N-nothing Ran.. sorry, I had a really bad dream.. I just wanted to make sure you were still alive. Sorry for waking you.” You hit the end button as Sanzu looked at your figure. A small frown on his lips. He pulled you to his chest with a soft sigh. “It’s okay baby, it got you. Ran isn’t going anywhere, you know that.” You nod against his chest.
“I know, but Sanzu, it scared me, it felt so real. I felt his blood pouring onto my legs. I heard his voice, but I still don’t believe it. I need to go over there and see for myself. You get some rest, okay?” he nods, he knows you need to do this, He gives you a sweet kiss, and wipes away the tears on your cheeks. “I love you, k?” He says, “I love you too, Haru.” You smiled at him before putting on some clothing. Taking the first set of car keys, you had driven a bit recklessly to the Haitani household. You still had the key. Rindou was already getting ready to head out. Rindou was a bit confused as you sprinted to Rans room, You had opened the door to see him sitting up in bed. His eyes are squinting to make out your figure.
Walking up to his figure, you took his hand pulling him to stand up and wrapped your arms around him tightly. Pressing your ear where his heart was, hearing it beat. A small choked out sob left your lips. Ran was surprised to see you, let alone hugging him, He wrapped his arms around your body rubbing your back. “I’m here, see? I’m alive. It’s okay, I’m too tough to die. You know that.” You nod against his chest. You sniffled before looking up at him, “I know.. It’s just.. It was too real. I.. You died. In my arms Ran.. I felt.. I felt your-” Ran shushed you and rocked you back and forth. Rindou was leaning against the door frame, watching it all happen. He was shocked to hear the words leave your mouth. You weren’t one to cry over someone’s death besides your brothers.
Rindou walked to where the two of you were before he also wrapped his arms around the two of you.
You had always felt safe with those two. Sanzu too, You knew Ran would never be more than a friend anymore, but you will always still love him, you both know that. He just wasn’t good enough for what you needed. Sanzu was, Ran knew this, and he let you go.
“Okay, go home now k?” You sniffled again and nodded. “Ill let Mikey know you nor Sanzu are coming in today okay?” Rindou said before ruffling your hair, you nodded again not trusting your voice. He smiled at you as you walked out. Driving back to your apartment where Sanzu was waiting. You got out of the sports car, he smiled and hugged you, “taking my car too hm?” You laughed a bit before shaking your head. “I just grabbed the first set of keys I could. Rin said we arent going in today.” Sanzu nodded as he tugged you inside.
Home always felt warmer with Sanzu.
You may have lost so much, losing family, its not easy to let it go. You get reminders every day, every year on their birthday as you go to give them a call. Their phone line is always going dead. Missing them everyday, that pain never goes away, it stays with you.
ONE YEAR LATER.
You laughed softly at the dinner table at the fancy restaurant Sanzu had taken you to, You were dressed in a pale pink dress with a pair of flats. Sanzu looked at you, a lazy smile on his lips. “I love you, ya know that?” You nod, “Well duh i know that. You say it all the time, but never stop. I love the way you say you love me. It sounds so pretty.” Sanzu rolled his eyes as he stood, taking your hand, pulling out outside, it overlooked a lake, the night lights reflecting off the deep colored lake that would be a pretty blue in the daylight.
You looked out and leaned against the railing resting your head against his shoulder. “I love you, Sanzu Haruchiyo, I can’t wait to steal your name from you.” He laughed a bit, before walking behind you, getting down on one knee. You smiled, and shook your head, “please you can’t keep this up.” he pulled out a ring your smile dropped as your eyes widened. “Shut up Haru.. stop it..” He smiled, he didn’t even get to ask before you were hugging him, making him fall back.
He chuckled before looking down at you. “Stupid, I didnt even get t-” you cut him off with a sweet kiss. “Shut up, you don’t even have to ask.” Sanzu laughed before he picked you up as he took you to the car, driving to the headquarters. You couldn’t stop looking at the ring, You walked in, holding his hand. Ran smiled as he walked up to you pulling you into a hug.
“Finally tying the knot I see?” You nodded a huge smile on your face. Ran ruffled your hair. “I’m just glad youre happy.” you showed a kind smile, kissing his cheek. “Just stay happy for me, yeah? You deserve that.” He nod as he looked at Rindou, who was doging on Sanzu.
“Crazy how that worked out,huh?” Ran said with a smile on his face. You laughed out and nodded. “Crazy how that worked out, that’s an understatement.”
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Get help Ran
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Bajis grave and Sanzu
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It was the of Bajis birthday, walking beside you was Mikey. The others were trailing behind, seeing as the two of you were the closest to him. You looked at Mikey, as you both sat down in front of his grave. A frown on his face, you had a small smile on your lips but don’t let it fool you. Tears were running down your flush cheeks. It was cold today. You wore his toman jacket wearing your hair up just like he did as well. Chifuyu walked and sat beside you and Mikey. The rest soon joined after.
“You shouldn’t be crying ya know.. Kei would hate to see you crying. You and I both know that.” Kazutora finally spoke up. You rested your head on his shoulder, holding his hand. “It’s hard to keep it together. I just really miss him.” He squeezed your hand reassuring you. Ran was not pleased to see the closeness between the two of you, but knew better. This was not the time nor the place to act out of line. He was hurting you seeing this upset, but that’s to be expected.
Mikey had stood, giving you a smile before leaving. You knew he needed some time alone now. The others soon left as well, the only ones staying with you were Chfiuyu and Kazutora. You told Ran to go as now you didn’t need him. You needed your friends who knew the pain you were feeling. Someone who actually knew him. That shared that hurt and those memories with you.
Kazutora held you in his arms, rocking you gently in his lap. The tears had never stopped flowing, no matter how hard you tried. “I miss him so much.. Sometimes I wonder if things would be better if it had been me who died that day.” Kazutora went to speak as Chifuyu shook his head. “Mom really loved him more. I was actually going to be forced to marry some family. Mom was in so much debt..She lost her shit when he died, I had to leave. I left toman so quickly due to the fact I knew it was only a matter of time before it was going to be even worse. I changed my name. It’s Y/n L/n, that could be why Mikey didn’t remember who I was or my relation to my brother.” You sighed softly before standing up. “I need to go on a walk. I’ll see you guys later, yeah?” They both give you a hug as you depart from his grave.
Walking along the lonely streets, the only things lighting your way were the street lamps. You sat on a bench in a park. The same park where Chifuyu and Keisuke had first met. He had brought him home that day, it was super cute. You missed those days, where he was still here. When you were sad he always knew, trying different things to make you happy again. He can’t do that anymore. You’re here, alone in a park wanting nothing more than to see him with you. Sitting next to you, complaining about how hungry he was. Or how excited he was to hang out with mikey, fighting beside him is what he loved the most, yet he went out, fighting against us.
It had been 12 years since he died, and each year you can feel yourself slipping more, just wanting to see him, the pain never really goes away. He stays there and it never leaves. You learn to wake up each day without their presence, without their voice, or their touch. You learn to live without them, each day you still want to call him to tell him about your shitty day or if you had a good day. You can’t do that anymore.
Fat tears rolling down your cheeks, biting your lips to compress the sobs that burned your throat wanting nothing more to come out. You placed your hand over your lips trying to not alert anyone passing by. You wanted to yell, scream, punch whatever you see. You were mad at the world for taking the one person who brought out the good in you away from you.
You went back to the headquarters. Everyone could sense the change in your demeanor. Walking up to the case where Sanzu kept his pills, he eyed you seeing what you were taking. He could see the amounts you were taking as well. He didn’t have a good feeling about it, He felt time slow, as you shoveled the pills into your mouth. Sanzu ran to your side “Rindou!! Ran!!” he cried out, trying to shove his fingers in your mouth. Sanzu was on the floor with you, fighting to restrain you. Ran felt his blood run cold.
Rindou pushed Ran aside as he helped Sanzu, the look on Rans face was the same one when he found their mother overdosing on pills. Rindou was able to make you throw up the pills you had just taken, before he pulled you to his arms. All three of them share the same saddened looks of regret on their faces. Your cries, and screams were heard all throughout the building. Mikey was leaning against his office door, crying as well.
A week had passed since then, none of them leaving you alone. They no longer trusted you.
They did of course take you to get some help that you needed. Mikey also was nowhere to be found, that you’re not shocked about. You just hoped he was safe.
After some time you started to feel okay again, You didn’t wake up feeling like death was the only option anymore. Sanzu and you had done some drugs the night before, it was a weekly thing now. Ran was not happy about this either. He hated seeing you now. Rindou was trying to be as supportive as possible as well. Ran was not, he was always gone, making up excuses to not be there when you needed him. Rindou called him out on this, only getting a “well, she isnt my girlfriend why should I care?” Rindou called him a few choice words for that. They haven’t spoken since that night it happened.
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Sanzu took the key from his pocket, opening your door. You were sitting on the couch flipping through some shows trying to bypass time till he got there. Smiling at him, you stood and walked over to him. “Youre really here, huh.” You wrapped your arms around him, and he hugged you back, lacing his fingers into your hair. “Of course, I’ll always be here, Doll face.” A small laugh left your lips, looking up at him. Sanzu cupped your cheek as his eyes glanced from your eyes to your lips. You bit your lip as he used his other hand to press you close to his chest as he captured your lips in his.
A soft moan left your lips as you gripped the fabric of his suit. Sanzu pulled away, pulled out a tab and placed it on his tongue. You slipped your tongue out of your mouth as he placed one on yours as well. Grabbing his neck tie you pulled him down to your level, smashing your lips against his again. He walked you back against your couch, sitting down, you straddled his lap. Looking into his eyes, yours were hooded. Sanzu started placing open mouth kisses along your neck, soft pants leaving your lips. You bit your lip, the sweater you were wearing made you even more hot than usual. Sanzus hands roaming your body, in mix the drug finally kicking in you just wanted some friction. Rolling your hips against the growling bulge in his pants, he let out a low groan that went straight to your cunt.
He pulled the sweater off, you weren’t wearing anything under it, making his cock twitch at the sight. “God, you’re so perfect.” he pushes your hips down hard against his, letting out a whimper you looked at him with glossy eyes, “You feel that baby? All this? It’s because of you. I’ve hardly touched you and I can feel how wet you are, you’re soaking my pants.” Your cheeks flushed at his words, he wasted no time as he grabbed at your chest bringing one of your breasts to his mouth. Nipping and biting at the soft skin, leaving marks.
Your hands went to his hair, bringing him closer to you. “Please, I need something Haru, I need to feel you. Please” You begged a bit looking at him with tears in your eyes. “God you look so good like this.” he growled out before picking you up, taking you to your bedroom. He placed you on the bed as he started to undress himself, leaving his boxers on for the time being. He pulled your pants off diving in, his tongue lapping your clit. You were unable to prevent the sounds coming from your lips. Looking up at you as he hooked his arms around your thighs, he began sucking on your now puffy clit. Your hands finding his hair, yanking on the pink stands.
“H-Haru! Oh my god it feels so good, please give me more. I want you to touch me. Please touch me.” You choked out, he hums against you sending vibrations through your body. His finger rubbing circles around your clit to wet his fingers. He teased your entrance, before pushing in a finger, a loud moan falling from your now plump lips from biting them so much trying to suppress your sounds. He groaned from the feeling of your warm gummy walls squeezing his fingers. He curved them right right causing a gasp to leave your lip, almost seeing stars. “F-fuck..haru..”
He kept his eyes on you, watching every one of your movements. “Haru, I can’t wait.. I can’t I need you. I want you to fuck me please. I need you now. I want to come around your cock.” You eyes locking with his rolling your hips against him, he pulls from you, sucking on his fingers. You sat up before crawling towards him, pulling down his boxers. They fell on the floor as you gave his cock a few pumps, as you spit on it before placing your mouth around him. A groan leaves his lips, his hand in your hair, making sure not to be too rough. You felt yourself gag every time you bobbed your head, drool making its way down your cheek. Tears mixing in from the gagging. You felt so good just pleasuring him, you could do it for hours. “Damn doll, we are going to have to do this more often.” You looked up at him through your lashes, humming in response. That made his legs shake a bit. He pulled you off his cock as you looked at him with doe eyes.
“I’m going to ruin you. Lay down for me, yeah?” You nod before laying on your back, he follows his hands resting on either side of your head. He leaned down and gave you a deep kiss. Left marks down your neck. He reached between the two of you and rubbed the tip of his cock against your cunt a few times before bottoming out inside of you. Both of you let out gasps, your hand finding his hair, the other leaving nail marks on his shoulder. You wrapped your legs around him trying to feel him deeper. “So good - fuck.. God Haru.. so big.” your legs shook a bit as he began to thrust into you.
The sounds of skin slapping, and moans filling the room. “Damn baby I even prepped you and you’re still squeezing me, if you keep that up I’ll cum too soon. God this pussy feels like it was made just for me.” Your eyes rolled back, biting your lip. You weren’t sure if it was the drugs or if Sanzu was just this good in bed. But you felt like you were in heaven. “Don’t stop, please never leave. Mm so full. Choke me, god fucking choke me” you panted out, and who was he to disagree. He wrapped his hand around your neck, throwing a leg over his shoulder. His pace was harder, but you could feel every inch of him.
“Pretty -shit.. Where do you want it hm? Do you want me to fill you up hm?” he groaned out, his hips becoming sloppy. “Fill me up! Breed me I don’t care give me all of it.” you screamed out. This flipped something in him. He pulled out, shoving your head into the mattress slipping back in, giving your ass some slaps, kneading at the plump skin. The new angle made you scream out, head only filled with just him. “Breed you hm?, that’s a dangerous wish. But if that’s what baby wants, that’s what she gets.” your eyes rolled back as you felt his load fill you up to the brim, the warmth and the thrusts of his relentless hips tipped you over the edge, squeezing his cock milking him of everything he had. You only knew his name as you chanted it out.
Heavy panting was all that was heard. He pulled you up, giving you a sweet kiss. “Let’s get you cleaned up, yeah?” You nod making grabby hands to him, he smiled and picked you up. Sanzu started a bath for you, he joined you. You leaned against him, tracing mindless shapes into his chest. “Hey.. haru?” he hums in reply. “I.. I think I might.. Love you? I mean you’re always here.” He smiled a little bit before looking at you, cupping your cheek. “What about Ran though love?” shrugging, “He.. he was a good fuck.. But, I don’t think I can handle his back and forth behavior anymore. What he said really hurt. If he’s going to be like that all the time then I don’t want to be with him. I know that I want and deserve to be loved, even at my lowest points. I used to love him, and now I don’t think I can or want to anymore. You and Rin have been there this whole time. Thank you for that, Thank you for saving me that day too. I needed it” he nodded, before planting a kiss on your lips. “Then I’m all yours baby.”
Ran stood outside of the bedroom, flowers in hand. The tears in his eyes, he deserved this. This was his fault. He had you so close, pushed you away. He only had himself to blame.
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haruchiyoskantana · 2 years
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I miss you
Ran to Sanzu x reader
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Sometimes the past hurts, and I love you
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You had woken up from the pain in your leg, a small whimper left your lips. The sound alone made Ran shoot up, “you okay?” he asked, rubbing the sleep from his eyes, trying to see you better. “No.. my leg really fucking hurts..” You bit your lip, trying to suppress the screams you wanted to let out. “Ran.. please, it really hurts..” You grabbed on to him to pull you up. You had removed the blankets from you. You had bled through the bandages. Seeing the now dried blood stain on his sheets you frowned. “I’m so-” Ran placed a hand on your neck, placing a kiss on your forehead. “Don’t even worry about it, okay?” You nod, Ran got out of the bed. He had picked you up before taking you to the bathroom before turning on the bath for the second time for you. He then set out some bandages for when you were finished washing up. He had switched out the sheets and threw the ones that were now dirtied into the wash, hoping since the sheets were dark enough he wouldn’t have to throw them away, but if he had to oh well.
Ran had come back into the bathroom after making the bed, you were laying in the bath letting it fill. Your eyes had become droopy trying to fight sleep. Ran had taken his time cleaning the wound. A small smile on your lips, you carded your fingers through his hair that had fallen in front of his face, pushing it back. Ran felt his heart skip a beat at the small amount of affection. A soft pink flushing his cheeks and the tips of his ears. You let out a small laugh, soon to be replaced by a whimper as his hand grazed the injury. In total it was 22 stitches, front and back. You were lucky that it actually exited your body, and that they didn’t need to fish the bullet out.
“Say.. Y/n.. I-” Placing a finger over his lips you shook your head. “No need, it’s just fine. I get it, truly. You don’t need to apologize, I get it. You don’t feel the way I feel for you and that’s okay. I-I.. I’m not mad at you for not feeling the same for me. You can’t control something like that.” You placed a hand on his cheek giving him a look with soft eyes, and a kind smile. Ran having nothing to say he nods. He knew he was better off without someone as kind as you. You reminded him of his mother in some ways. She was so kind, and had a heart of gold. He helped you out of the bath, before wrapping your leg once more. His cell rang, seeing Mikey on the face of the screen, he groaned before answering it, leaving the bathroom.
You had sat on the toilet seat for a couple minutes before getting up, the pain in your leg had died down quite a bit, you were able to walk, Ran was in his closest getting dressed as you walked out of the bedroom. There was a balcony on the other side of the house, the sun hadn’t risen as of yet, normally you would still be asleep but the pain in your chest prevented that from happening. You knew there was nothing you could do to change how he felt. Nothing you wanted to do at the end of the day. You just would keep doing as you planned to do, love him from afar. Don’t let yourself get any closer. You already failed at that by staying the night here and letting him care for you. Something you regret already. Seeing how he looked the night before gave you a glimpse of hope that he too would love you.
Seeing an unfamiliar car pull up, you turned your head to the side. A woman stepped out of the car. She was so elegant. Tall and beautiful, she was young too. Biting your lip you walked back inside, before going into the guest room, putting on your clothing. A small sigh leaving your lip as you walked out of the large home, it would be a while before you were back. Walking down the street, the brisk morning air nipping at your exposed skin. Seeing a shrine nearby you started making your way to it, giving a prayer in hopes of good luck. You had sat there for a while. Thinking back to all the memories the two of you shared. You remembered the first time you and Ran had met. It was funny actually.
You were out late at night, when some guys had cat called you. Ran being the guy he was he started making his way over to put those guys in their place. He stopped a few steps away as he saw the gun pressed against the guy’s side. The same crazy eyes Sanzu had when he went on a binge of doing god knows what. The guy was quick to back off. You shot him in his foot as he cried out in pain. A laugh left your lips, before you started walking away. Rindou was the one who got to you first, you aimed the gun at him as well as Rindou was quick to disarm you. “Damn, could’ve just asked.” You smiled at Rindou, Ran was impressed by you, he didn’t know what it was that day, but both Ran and Rindou became glued to you. Becoming close, Mikey let you in. You were thankful to say the least.
You were always quick to defend them, always so quick to insure their safety first even before your own. They did save you after all. That day you had met them, you were on your way to the bridge. As you were walking you had made it to the same bridge that you were going to, it had been three years since then.
Ran just finished getting dressed as he called out your name, hearing nothing in return. He was about to walk out when he saw a lady come up to him. “Is this the Haitanis?” she said, “who is asking?” Ran replied which made the lady laugh. “We are looking for someone named Y/n? She was going to marry my son and disappeared the day before and we haven’t been able to find her. Come to find out she had changed her name to Y/n. We have been waiting this whole time. Her family was in such great debt to us, and they were going to have her marry my son to make up for it.” Ran was hurt and mad at her words. “I’m sorry but I’ve never met an Y/n, so I must apologies. I must go, I need to get to work.” he nods at her, as she replies with a, “If you are looking for her, she’s on the bridge. She left as soon as she saw me, I see why she left. Be good to her. She didn’t have the best life growing up.” Ran nods before getting into his car, speeding to the closest bridge he could find. He sat you sitting on the ground resting against one of the poles.
He parked and got out of his car before making his way over to you. You looked at him with the same soft smile as earlier. “Cut that out, I don’t like seeing it.” Ran said before pulling you up, and wrapped his arms around you. “Stop running from me. Hear me out god Dammit! I can’t help you if you don’t ask and I can’t love you if you won’t let me! For fucks sake stop running away from me, not when I’m trying so damn hard to love you.” Ran spoke, his body was shaking ever so slightly. You felt like you couldn’t breathe for a moment as you processed his words. “You.. you what?” you whispered out softly. “I love you damn it.” You looked at him, a smile on his lips. He finally said it. He cupped your cheeks and kissed you, and damn did it feel good.
You felt like you were floating, like a kid who got the gift they really wanted for Christmas. Like getting the perfect coffee on a cold day. It felt so good to finally hear those words slip from his lips. Ran pulled away resting his forehead against yours. “Please, stop running away from me. I can’t love you from a distance. Not knowing that I can love you this close to me. When I can kiss your lips, knowing how to make you shiver but kissing your neck. Knowing that you enjoy your hot coco, half milk and half water. Knowing that you prefer the winter months over summer because you find the snow pretty. Knowing that you can’t sleep with your hair up because it gives you a headache if you do, Knowing that you only like hand guns over other weapons due to the range it gives you, there are so many other things that I want to know more about. Please let me take care of you for once. Let yourself feel loved for once Y/n..” Tears pricked your ears as you nod in his hands. Placing yours over his, for the first time you smiled. You believed it was real. Believe every word he said without a second though crossing your mind.
You walked into the headquarters, everyone was looking at you and ran. It was a shock to say, to see you hand in hand, resting your head against his arm. He leaned down to give a kiss before you both parted ways. You went to Mikey’s office, he smiled as he saw you, something he himself hasn’t done in a while. “I’m glad to see you shining for once. It looks good on you.” he said as he pulled out a snack. “Also you’re not going on any missions until it’s healed. Don’t worry, I already paid for some months of your rent.” You were about to say something but he shook his head. “Don’t worry, I know that they would’ve done the same for me.” He said with an unreadable expression. You nod as you went to him, giving him a hug, one you both needed. “You know, it’s okay right? I don’t know what you’ve gone through, Mikey, but I want you to listen to me okay?” He nods against your chest, a soft sigh leaving your lips before you start running your fingers through his hair. You saw Mikey as a sibling that you didn’t have.
“I don’t know what you’ve been through, and it’s not my place to ask. I don’t know who or what you’ve lost Mikey. I can see it through it. The sadness in your eyes, they tell so much about someone. I can tell you’ve lost so many people that you loved. People who you deeply cared for. Family, and ones who were like family. I know that hurt, I do Mikey. It’s okay to ask for help. Saying you need help isn’t weakness, It’s saying you’ve been strong for so long that you’re at your breaking point. It’s okay to be lost sometimes, and it’s okay to not be okay. Nobody is always okay. If they say they are, they are lying to you. I love you Manjiro, kinda like a brother that I never got to experience. I would have bet you were an amazing brother. I can tell you were always so kind. So willing to protect those who meant so much to you. In the end you feel as if you failed. In the end, there wasn’t anything you could do. They’re not gone forever you know, they will always be there with you. You may not see them or feel them. But they are here, that I know for a fact.”
Mikey was sniffling against your shirt. You had hit the nail on the head. He had lost so much.
“Thank you.. I do. I do need help. You remind me of some people I knew. His name was Shinichiro and Takemitchy. One of them was my brother, and the other was just like him. Cared so much for others and man did they suck at fighting. But it was such a fun time back then. I miss them. I had a sister too, her name is Emma, and she was in love with my best friend. She never got to tell him, he loved her too, but they both died too soon to tell each other that. I also have a friend who died too soon as well, his name was Baji. He was so hungry one time that he actually set some cars on fire. Those guys, man we would get into so much trouble.. But that was such a long time ago now. I miss them so much. Thank you. I really needed this. Y/n. I see now why Ran is so in love with you. You’re like a light in a dark room, so comforting.” You smiled down at him as you whipped away his tears, he smiled softly at you. You did the same back to him. “Now get back to your lover boy. I’m sure he is waiting for you.” a small laugh left your lips as you nod. “Call- I don’t have my phone..” He pulled open his desk and handed it to you along with your keys. “Here you are.” You rolled your eyes, “call me if you need me k? Manjiro.” Walking out you went to Rans office, he welcomed you with open arms. Pushing your hair back, the Dragon tattoo was displayed on your neck. It seemed Mikey had forgotten about you. There was a time you were a part of Toman. You were Bajis’ sister after all.
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She what?
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You sat there for a while before anyone came, You were in and out of sleep. Hearing someone come into the room you were in is what woke you again, a slap to your face really woke you up. Looking at the man in front of you had a wicked smile on his face as he held a knife to your chin. “Well well looks like we got a hold of the little play thing, tell me where are the Haitani brothers? You would know, Hm? Seeing as how you and the older one are together right?” You bit your lip, before shaking your head. He gripped your hair forcing you to look at him in the face. You can see the hate and feel how pissed he was. You were going to die here. This is where it ended.
Spending hours of being punched, kicked and cut at was not how you expected to go out. Although you deserved it in the long run. You laid on the ground unable to move. The pain was a bit too much anymore, the tears never leaving your eyes. “I never got to tell him..” you whispered out. You were in and out of consciousness at this point. The leader picked you up by your hair holding the gun he now hand in his hands to your cheek. “What was that princess? Going to tell me where they are now? I might spare your life.” You looked at him, a small laugh leaving your lips. “I could never betray them like that. That’s where you and I are different. You will just have to kill me then.” he threw you by your hair away from him before kicking the chair.
You suddenly felt a burning feeling in your leg, a scream leaving your lips. He shot you. Moments later, as if it was in slow motion, Ran came in followed by Mikey and Rindou. Ran shot the guy in the head, before making his way over to you. Mikey’s usual stoic face now showed sadness. Rindou stood, his body not willing to move. Ran picked you up before you finally closed your eyes.
On the way to the private hospital, you lay in the back of Rans car, Rindou sitting in the passenger seat, Mikey following on his bike. The silence was deafening. “Why.. Why did you do that.” Rindou said to himself. He did in fact love you. There was no doubt about that. Ran looked at him, he drove faster. As he pulled up to the hospital Ran carried you in. you got help right away. All three of them waited in the lobby. None of them said a single word.
Hours had passed before a doctor came out. Informed them that you got here in time, and later you would’ve died. There had been so many drugs in your system, all date rape drugs. “Can we see her?” the doctor nods before informing them of the room number. Mikey has never been one for hospitals, after Kenny got stabbed he tried to stay away from them. Ran and Rindou walked to your room, you opened your eyes to see them.
“Y/n.. you’re okay..” Rindou walked to you first, he was not one to show emotions, but he was crying now. He held your hand and held it to his cheek. “I’m glad you two are okay.. He was really wanting information on you two..” you whispered softly. Ran felt himself stop breathing. You went through all of this because of them? You almost died for them? “Why?” is all Ran said while looking at you a frown on his face. Ran was fighting himself right now. “It’s the least I could do.. After all.. I care about you both so much.” Ran was mad at himself, for everything he said. “y/n.. I’m-” “it’s fine Ran.. don’t worry about it. I was prepared to die tonight. If it meant protecting you two, I would give my life for it. So please, don’t apologize. I mean you’re right after all. It’s fine, I’m used to it. Really. It’s okay. I mean this is just how it is. I get used, fucked and the rest is history, Trust me I know Ran. Don’t worry, I’ll be out of your hair soon. Just remember to keep smiling, k?” Mikey came in, informing them that they were needed due to an emergency. “I don’t want to pull them away Y/n but I really need them to take care of this..” You shake your head, “no it’s okay Mikey. Don’t worry about it, yeah?” Mikey knew that look, it’s the same one he wore after hearing of Darkens death. After Emma died in his arms. After baji, that look Mikey knew deep down that you would actually do it. He didn’t know what to do, he would always ask Draken about something like this, this was not his strong suit. He thought about calling someone else but he knew that they wouldn’t know either, the only ones who would help would be the ones who he’s taking away from you right now.
Mikey did what he thought would help, even if it was just a moment in time, just to buy some time for them to return to you. He wrapped his arms tightly around you. Shocking everyone in the room, your eyes filled with tears, as you hugged him back. Loud sobs ripped through your body, gripping his shirt tightly. Mikey wished that someone hugged him when he was this low. Gave him some sort of happiness. Even if it was a brief moment in time that it filled the void in his heart. Just a piece of him to have been filled while he waited. Your sobs left Ran and Rindou frozen, both of them looking at you with nothing to say, not like it would’ve been of use anyways. Ran felt like a monster. Someone who had fucked up everything in just a second, hearing those sobs and knowing it was his fault. Rindou grabbed his brother’s arm, dragging him out of the hospital. “The faster we get done with this bullshit the faster you can make it up to her.”
Mikey stayed with you, he had climbed up on the bed, and fell asleep beside you. You on the other hand couldn’t sleep. Too much on your mind, you had slipped from Mikey’s arms before standing up, ignoring the harsh pain in your leg. You walked to the rooftop, sitting on the edge of the building. The brisk air, giving you goosebumps.
You had noticed Rans car pull in, and you watched them both run into the building. Ran looked at to just see Mikey in the bed, and you were nowhere to be seen. Ran felt hopeless. Rindou sat on the bed, before Mikey stirred a bit. “She’s on the roof.” Ran dashed out of the room to the building rooftop. He saw you standing on the edge looking down, he ran to you pulling you back to his chest. A gasp leaving your lips as you went to punch whoever grabbed you, the familiar scent filling your nose and you lowered your fist. He grabbed your shoulders and faced you to him, he hugged you tightly, the slight shake to his body was all it took to set you off. “I’m sorry..” you whispered out as he shook his head. “You said that already. I don’t want to hear it again. Please come home. I.. I can’t do this anymore. Please come home..” Ran cried out gripping the hold he had on you. You gave a small nod. “Okay..” you whispered to him.
Going to the room, Mikey was gone as well as Rindou. It seemed they had already discharged you. Ran had brought you back to his place, seeing as Rindou hadn’t come home yet. Ran had helped you up the stairs before giving you a change of clothing, he hasn’t said much since the rooftop. “I know you must want to shower, I can help you if you would like?” You looked at Ran, he looked like a puppy who had been left out in the rain for hours and just wanted to cuddle with his owner. You gave a nod, knowing that showering with the injury may be hard. Ran helped you undress, already running the bath. He was gentle, he washed your hair, the dried blood coming out, the bath water had turned a soft crimson color by the time you were finished. He finally saw all of the bruising, cuts and everything; it made him sick to his stomach. He helped you out and dried you off before helping you into some clothing. Ran lead you to the bed, for you to rest. He took a shower himself before coming and joining you in the bed. You had already fallen asleep. He wrapped his arms around your frame, whispering another ‘I’m sorry’ before he fell asleep.
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“God ran what the fuck is your god damn problem?!” You yelled at him, he had come over to your apartment after you had left, after his attempt at talking to you after leaving mikey’s office. “Nothing is the problem?” he groaned and sat on your couch. “I am just worried about you.” rolling your eyes, you pinched the bridge of your nose. It was already past midnight when he decided to come. “I don’t need you to worry about me, you said it yourself, Ran. I only care about your name and just a dumb whore right?” He felt his blood run cold, when did Rindou tell you? “Where did you hear that?” He looked at you, a laugh leaving your lips. “Does it matter, Ran? My apologies that Rindou cares about me and wont let me lose sight of what I already know. I mean fuck me right? Just a stupid whore for you to fuck and leave me the next morning. Why do you fucking care so much? Just get the fuck out. I’m sick of looking at you right now.”
Ran had never seen you so upset before. This was new, and he hated it. He looked at you once more before leaving. Not saying a single word.
You called Hanma, he picked up after the second ring. “Hey, what’s up?” you sniffled a bit before speaking, “I.. Can you come here please. I really need a friend, Ran and I got into a fight.” a soft hum left his lips. “Do something for me ok? Go get that tiny black dress, and put it on. Wear those strappy heels with it too. I’m coming. I’ll be there in 15 minutes.” a small okay left your lips as the call disconnected.
You had walked to your bedroom and got on the outfit he suggested, and you looked good. You had pulled your hair out of the ponytail it was in. You put on some light makeup to cover up your puffy eyes and as you finished up you heard a knock on the door. Standing up you grab your phone and keys as you open the door. “Hi pretty girl, are you ready to go?” You nod before locking your door and walk with him to his bike. He started it, and helped you behind him.
It may have been a mistake coming to the bar, but it was too late to turn back now. Seeing different groups, different gangs all at the bonten location was something you noticed right away. You sat next to Hanma as he ordered the drinks. There was idle conversation between the two of you, until he brought up the fight. “So yesterday we ended up sleeping together and it was the best, god it was amazing. So he sent me a message and it made me sad, really fucking sad. It was like a ‘better not be there when i get back type of message.’ So that’s why there was a change and told you not to come. I made sure everything was washed and cleaned. I went home, cried some more, and then I napped. I ended up going to Mikey and taking a mission on my own. Ran wasn’t happy about it but I figured if it put distance between us, I could stop my emotions being so high. I love him a lot.” You frowned a bit. Finishing your drink before finishing, “Rindou had called me and told me wha Ran had said, saying I was just a whore who wanted his name, which couldn’t be further from the truth. He came to my apartment and that’s when the fight happened.” Hanma frowned a bit. “It’ll be fine, let’s just get drunk yeah?” You nod, as he orders another around.
After some time of drinking different drinks and shots, you needed to go to the bathroom. Hanma agreed as he did as well. You sighed softly as your drunken state made it harder to walk. You walked back to your seat and wanted to Hanma, another gang leader saw you were finally alone, and taking advantage of your drunken state he came over, put something in your drink, as he made conversation with you. He had seen you many times with the Haitani brothers, and he wanted to make sure they hurt. You had pulled out your phone as he walked away talking with Rindou.
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Dude are you kidding me
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You stepped inside of your small apartment, sliding down the door. Gripping the fabric of your shirt tightly. The tears running down your cheeks for the 100th time today. You sat there for a while, until you had curled into a ball and fell asleep.
You woke up again once it was dark out, having 18 missed calls and 32 texts between Rindou, Haru and Hanma. Turning off your phone you stood and took yourself to the bathroom, hating the reflection in the mirror. Your body was covered in marks from Ran, You stepped into the shower as you washed your body, and hair. After you got dressed in a black turtleneck, leggings paired with knee high boots. You put on your harness, as you armed yourself with your handguns. Making your way out of the door you put on your coat and started making your way to the headquarters. You had tied your hair up in a ponytail before walking past everyone, Ran doing a double take at you, Rindou frowned as he saw you.
Arriving at Mikey’s office door you knocked, “come in’’, you heard from the other side. Opening the door, you walked in, Mikey gave you a smile. Sitting down in the chair at his desk across from him you smiled back at him. “Hi Mikey, Oh! Here” You pulled from your pocket a dorayaki bun. You handed it to him, his eyes lit up before taking it out of its wrapper. “So what’s up? You don’t normally come in here, let alone this late at night.” nodding in agreement, he wasn’t wrong. “Can I go on a mission? I want to go alone if that’s okay.?” Mikey frowns a bit, but nods. “Sure, when did you want to go?” he asked you, taking another bite out of his snack. “Now if that’s okay.?” Mikey nods and hands you some papers to look over. The details were pretty clear. Kill these three guys at this location. You nod before sliding the papers back to him. “Thank you mikey.” You stood walking over to him, kissing his forehead before you walked out.
You went up to the case of weapons, grabbing some extra guns, knives, ect. Grabbing a pair of gloves you slipped them on before you began to walk out of the building. Ran grabbed you by the arm to face him, “Where are you going?” you rolled your eyes and yanked your arm from him, “Doesn’t matter.” You snapped back at him, hurt swimming in your eyes. Rindou who was watching this go down came up behind you and wrapped an arm around your shoulder, and Sanzu came up and wrapped his arm around your waist. “Stupid.” is all they said to Ran before walking you out, confusing on your face, and ran was left hurt and even more confused of his feelings. They closed the door after pushing you out.
Walking to the location, as a car was too expensive for you. Seeing as how this mission alone will make you a couple hundred thousand, You of course agreed. Walking into the building where they had their hideout, you started acting, tears going down your cheeks, and you had rubbed dirt over your clothing before walking in. messed up your hair along the way as well. One of the guys had come up to you, helping you off the ground. “You okay?” you just nodded before reaching behind you, grabbing your postol. Pushing it against his forehead in one fluid motion and pulled the trigger. Pushing the guy off of you, standing up you smiled aiming at the other one of your list. The reason why Mikey agreed to have you join Bonten was due to your ability to never miss. You always left a mess, but never once did you ever miss.
After finishing up killing everyone, all but one. The last guy on the list, you smiled at him and came up to him. “Where’s the money? Hm?” He pointed at the safe, and gave you the code. You walked over to the safe, seeing the cash in there. You put it into your bag, before shooting him in the head as you walked out.
Walking back into the building you were covered in blood, placing the weapons you didn’t use back in the case before making your way to mikeys office to inform him of the mission being complete. Placing the bag on the chair, “all done. I’m going to go get cleaned up ok?” Mikey was shocked, usually this would take some others hours to complete the mission, yet it only took you an hour. Even when the brothers it took hours. Had he known this prior he would have sent you on solo missions sooner. “Hey, i’ll send you a list of other jobs for you okay?” You looked over your shoulder and nodded. “Thank you.”
As you walked out of his office Ran was waiting for you.
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