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What's it called when you miss home but you're already "home". And you don't know what or where this so called imaginary home is. Because I feel that right now.

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This isn’t right. You’re supposed to be with me!

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Today in my Banned Books class we had to write a hypothetical letter to our school board that was banning a book we felt strongly about. So naturally I did "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" by Stephen Chbosky and I thought I might share what I wrote with you lovely people of tumblr because I am somewhat proud of what I wrote. I hope you like it.

(remember this is hypothetical)

"Dear School Board,

I have heard of the challenge of the book "The Perks of being a Wallflower" written by Stephen Chbosky and I would like to weigh in on the subject. I won't lie. I am biased towards this book but I will make sure to incorporate both sides in my argument.

first I would like to acknowledge the negatives of this book because they're definitely are some. Throughout the book there is a mention of drug abuse, sexual abuse, physical abuse, talk of suicide, and probably more. Some may look at these as definite negatives of a book, but these factors are important to a book that demonstrates the real struggles in life. This book isn't just directed towards teenagers, it's for everyone who is dealt with any of these negatives. This book talks about real life, it can relate to just about anyone, especially those in high school.

When you're a teenager or "coming of age" it's hard to know who you are and where your place is in the world. Which is why we experience everything we can. Yes, we make mistakes, and sometimes those mistakes are fatal and stay with us forever. I believe that this book is a glimpse of Hope for those people who don't know who they are, or who to be. Those who feel awkward or excluded from everyone else; our wallflowers.

right off the bat I would argue that anyone could relate to the main character Charlie, in any way from being abused, or feeling awkward. "The Perks of being a Wallflower" is about making mistakes, and overcoming them it's about finding who you are amongst the crowd that everyone ties you to. This book helps people, this book understands when no one can.

So tell me, why would you ban a book that could help someone, who can't necessarily help themselves?

Sincerely, a concerned student"

Thank you for listen to my Ted Talk, good night.

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just because you don’t look like somebody who you think is attractive doesn’t mean you aren’t. flowers are pretty but so are christmas lights and they look nothing alike.

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Okay but honestly fucking shit like this when they show Zuko’s scar side when talking about Sozin and then having the bar pass and have his non-scar side when Iroh says Roku is his great grandfather if EXACTLY the kind of shit that elevates this show to where really no other show has ever come and probably never will

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Please share your opinions on twilight Bella as a tragic character!!!!

bella is actually very interesting in an entirely accidental way and i had an absolutely fucking WILD talk about twilight bella with a friend that involved like, beauvoir, heidegger and tolstoy HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH

But the gist of it is that Meyer tries to write her as "different from all the vapid girls" and "mature and altruistic" and whatever the heck

But what we get is a teenager who is shown to have suffered a certain amount of neglect and is not dealing well with it

Many times she is shown to take a motherly role towards her own mother. She's constantly shown to do the same for her father, and even among her friends she takes on the responsible, 'adult' role.

But this is romanticised in a way that sorta obfuscates the true nature of what it is; a teenager that is not interested in teenager things, a kid who feels alienated from their peers of the same age range, that's always a person with a certain degree of suffering.

"You're mature for your age" is something that gay kids hear because they're suppressing their sexuality and can't explore it as straight kids can, so they bury themselves in books. It's a thing poor kids hear because their socioeconomic situation does not allow them to have leisures, so they start working part time early on. It's something kids who struggle socially hear because they fail to connect with their classmates and instead take on activities that are deemed "adult" and "productive".

Being called "mature for your age" is one of those compliments that shouldn't be a compliment PARTICULARLY for teens because the things that force you to mature faster are things that ostracize you from your peers and no one deserves that. This is the case for Bella - she doesn't connect well with the other kids because she's more responsible than them because she HAS to be, given that her mother is neglectful and her father is... Kinda apathetic.

And the truly horrifying thing about twilight is that when Edward walks into the picture, she gets to be that kid again. She's a teenager and now she feels like it - she has a silly crush on a boy! Butterflies in her stomach! Bella's so called love for Edward relies on him giving her the opportunity to finally just be a gooddamn kid.

And because he is a) an old man and b) pretty damn smart, he is able to use this to his advantage. This is especially clear in Midnight Sun, but the gist of it is that "You're different from other girls, you're young but so mature" are classic words that you get from those twenty-something dudes dating 14 year old girls.

It's awful. He's textbook predatory with her. He threatens to break up, leaves, causes immense suffering, and then comes back when she's already starting to move on. She's a kid. She's a literal kid, one who's trying very hard to be a grown up because she has more responsibility than she should have.

She's a kid who doesn't feel protected by her family, and the Cullens offer her that. He takes this safety all away at his whims, causing her such immense emotional pain, to a point where she'd do anything to not have it happen again, because she's a KID and everything is INTENSE and it's her very first boyfriend and she's heartbroken.

He plays yo-yo with her feelings to keep her under his thumb. I fucking hate it. She marries him at like 18 not because she's so in love or whatever the fuck, but because he keeps making her feel insecure with their relationship, and she needs to somehow make this solid, so she does it in the only way she knows, and he once again gets exactly what he wants. His leaving and coming back, his mercurial moods, his isolating her from her friends, it's all about making sure she can't leave, and then they're married and he bites her and it's infinitely harder for her to break this dependency bond.

THE TL;DR IS THAT TWILIGHT IS A MESS BUT PEOPLE ARE UNFAIR TO BELLA AND NOT HARD ENOUGH ON EDWARD TBH

but that may be my personal bias because of work-related experiences idk feel free to argue back if you want

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if a werewolf dies but they were an organ donor does someone get a new kidney that turns into a wolf kidney once a month

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This week's status:

Lol. Help.

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This adorable proposal.

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men have good skin cause they be stressing everyone else out except themselves

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Single Word Spells

Because I’m lazy and don’t like to monologue while I’m doing a spell, here’s a couple of the single word spells I use in my personal practice.

absum - to make something be concealed from sight

     ↳ def. to be away, be missing

advoco - summoning spell

     ↳ def. to summon

casso - destruction spell

     ↳ def. to destroy, make void

bellus - glamour spell

     ↳ def. beautiful, charming, handsome

explico - reveal information

     ↳ def. explanation, to unfold

mutare - transmutation

     ↳ def. to change

cessabit - calming spell

     ↳ def. to rest, be free of

uro - burning

     ↳ def. to burn, inflame

conturbo - invoke confusion

     ↳ def. confound, to throw into confusion

taceo - to silence

     ↳ def. shut up

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I had to capture this from Griffin’s stream this moring

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Brushing a pig

(Source)

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*chefs kiss*

Watching twilight on a poorly hung projector. (x)

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how can him go inside but me not

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I just had a beautiful thought. A modern version of Medusa where she has her own clothing store and all her mannequins are all the people who have tried to shoplift from her. And that she only wears gorgeous designer shades.