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Momentarily is he quiet, eyes fixated upon the glass holding his drink, not baring a single shred of interest in drinking any of it for the moment.

"You're quieter than normal, darling-- I've never seen you looking so... resigned."

"Try it." Leslie encourages as the silver would have his own drink in his hand. "It's pretty good." He'd say. "Yeah? Worry bout me? How come?" The silver would inquire.

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Pure cashmere overcoat and flannel suit 🇮🇹

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OOC: I'll be online later to try and get to replies. I'm just feeling generally very... bleh.

You know that horrible feeling when everything you keep looking forward to either gets cancelled or changed and you're just left constantly in a state of disappointment that it just... hurts?

I haven't seen my bf in three weeks because on his two days off a week he's been helping his best mate renovate his gf's new hair salon - and helping another friend move. So I had to completely rearrange our little day out thing we had planned for ages that I had really been looking forward to.

And I had to cancel meeting up with a longtime friend that I never get to see because she lives abroad because my mom took really unwell, I couldn't leave her on her own, and my sister decided she was just going to stay with her bf and do nothing and not help...

And now, my other half checks dates with me for the hot air balloon festival which I have so been looking forward to... because his best mate is due to get married and it turns out its on the same date as the hot air balloon festival. And of course, the wedding is just way way way more important and I'm totally understanding of that... I just... feel so fucking deflated because its another disappointment.

I'll try and still go - because there's just something about the childlike wonder of it all that actually makes me really happy (a rare feeling ngl) - but it'll entirely depend on having someone at home with my v disabled mom... and even then, I'd be going entirely on my own. And if not, then I miss out and get hit by more disappointment.

I'm just so fucking deflated by everything.

I've got two theatre trips planned later this year and honestly, I feel like I should just cancel them ahead of time because the person I was supposed to be going with has pulled out entirely, I don't have anyone else- the chances of my mom being up to coming with are minuscule and my sister definitely wont go out of her way to keep an eye on mom if I go on my own so- what's the point, honestly.

I've been isolated af since college so I don't actually have any friends nearby and the friends I do have all live abroad. So I don't have any friends to fall back on... or ask.

It's just the worst feeling in the world.

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Send 'Soft gestures' + a number for my muses reaction to yours

Feel free to combine gestures as you see fit!

Brushing hair out of their face

Hugging them from behind

Kissing the nape of their neck

Tickling them

Whispering sweet nothings in their ear

Playing with their hair

Tracing patterns on their skin

Rubbing their back

Cuddling them

Wrap them up in a blanket

Put a scarf around their neck

Help them with a zipper, laces, ect.

Help them with their tie

Help them clasp a necklace around their neck

Trace their scars

Kiss their forehead

Rub their shoulders

Kiss their knuckles

Kiss their fingertips

Caress their face

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David Tennant wearing suit by Joshua Kane at the 2023 Olivier Awards

'Regency Swirl' jacquard cloth in a silk and wool blend, designed by Joshua Kane and woven in England for the 'Dandy Rebels' collection.

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𝐚𝐬𝐤  𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞 :    𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒄𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒆𝒐𝒖𝒔  𝒒𝒖𝒐𝒕𝒆𝒔

‘  i’ll  find  you  again ,  wherever  we  end  up  next .  ’

‘  the  enormity  of  my  desire  disgusts  me .  ’

‘  please ,  one  more  kiss  in  the  kitchen  before  we  turn  the  lights  off .  ’

‘  i’ve  been  lost  but  i’m  here  now .  you’re  the  only  person  who  has  ever  been  able  to  find  me .  ’

‘  almost  dead  yesterday ,  maybe  dead  tomorrow ,  but  alive ,  gloriously  alive ,  today .  ’

‘  you  are  not  broken .  ’

‘  you  can  love  and  be  loved ,  despite  what  may  feel  like  the  eternally  brutal  nature  of  the  world .  ’

‘  i  did  violence  to  my  own  heart .  ’

‘  will  i  be  forgiven  for  the  sins  i  did  not  commit ,  but  created ?  ’

‘  i  would  never  kiss  anyone  who  doesn’t  burn  me  like  the  sun .  ’

‘  i  would  rather  break  the  world  than  lose  you .  ’

‘  i  think  you  and  i  have  known  each  other  in  a  few  lifetimes .  ’

‘  i  didn’t  know .  i  had  no  idea  how  greedy  my  heart  really  was .  ’

‘  is  that  why  the  idea  of  losing  you  torments  me  so  much ?  ’

‘  how  long  have  i  been  without  you ?  ’

‘  am  i  foolish  for  wanting  this ?  it  will  end  in  flames .  it  always  does .  ’

‘  sorry  about  the  blood  in  your  mouth .  i  wish  it  was  mine .  ’

‘  if  i  love  you ,  is  that  a  fact  or  a  weapon ?  ’

‘  tell  me  how  all  this ,  and  love  too ,  will  ruin  us .  ’

‘  and  you  realize  the  one  person  in  the  world  who  loves  you  isn’t  the  one  you  thought  it  would  be .  ’

‘  it  cannot  be  a  mistake  to  have  cared .  it  cannot  be  an  error  to  have  tried .  it  cannot  be  incorrect  to  have  loved .  ’

‘  finally ,  i  plead  guilty  of  adoring  you .  ’

‘  a  child  weaned  on  poison  considers  harm  a  comfort .  ’

‘  without  realizing ,  i  find  it  in  myself  that  i  cannot  stop  thinking  about  you .  ’

‘  tomorrow ,  when  i  wake  up ,  i  promise ,  i  will  be  better .  ’

‘  someone  has  to  leave  first .  this  is  a  very  old  story .  there  is  no  other  version  of  this  story .  ’

‘  when  i  imagine  myself ,  i  am  always  leaving .  i  couldn’t  draw  my  own  face  if  god  asked .  ’

‘  do  we  simply  stare  at  what’s  horrible  and  forgive  it ?  ’

‘  i  wanted  to  let  go  of  the  pain  even  though  it  was  the  last  thing  that  felt  alive  from  you .  ’

‘  have  i  endured  loneliness  with  grace ?  ’

‘  i’ll  be  your  slaughterhouse ,  your  killing  floor ,  your  morgue  and  final  resting ,  walking  around  with  this  bullet  inside  me  ‘cause  i  couldn’t  make  you  love  me  and  i  am  tired  of  pulling  your  teeth .  ’

‘  and  then  my  soul  saw  you  and  kind  of  went ,  ‘ oh ,  there  you  are .  i’ve  been  looking  for  you . ’  ’

‘  sometimes  it  feels  like  someone  else  is  wearing  my  body .  ’

‘  i  spent  my  life  arguing  how  i  mattered  until  it  didn’t  matter .  ’ 

‘  who  knew  my  haven  would  be  my  coffin ?  ’

‘  dead  is  the  safest  i’ve  ever  been .  ’

‘  i’ve  never  been  so  alive .  ’ 

‘  you  know  what  i  was  gonna  tell  you  before ,  but  didn’t  have  the  nerve ?  you  got  your  name  written  all  over  me .  i  got  my  name  written  on  you ,  too .  ’ 

‘  you  already  are  something .  you  always  were .  and  you  still  have  time  to  be .  ’

‘  you  know  me  by  heart .  it  infuriates  me  that  you  know  me  by  heart .  ’ 

‘  why  am  i  waiting  for  you ?  hungering  and  thirsting  for  you  in  every  cranny  of  my  soul  and  even  in  my  ribs ?  ’ 

‘  you  came  with  a  handful  of  pain  and  a  smile  which  broke  the  ground  under  my  feet  as  the  earthquake  does  when  two  people  meet .  ’

‘  the  only  good  thing  is  that  i’m  getting  used  to  suffering .  ’

‘  the  return  to  time  was  not  my  choice .  ’

‘  we  are  built  to  live  inside  each  other .  this  means  we  are  built  to  ruin .  ’

‘  time  does  not  bring  relief ;  you  all  have  lied .  ’

‘  time  does  not  know  how  to  keep  our  hopes  safe .  ’

‘  you  needed  me  so  much  that  you  had  to  end  me .  ’

‘  there  are  days  where  i  am  morbidly  in  love  with  you ,  and  this  is  one  of  those  days .  ’

‘  i  know  no  end  to  desiring  you .  ’

‘  i  fear  that  i  am  both  too  much  yet  not  enough .  ’

‘  yes ,  yes ,  yes ,  i  do  like  you .  i  am  afraid  to  say  the  stronger  word .  ’ 

‘  a  heart’s  a  heavy  burden .  ’

‘  life ,  as  i  see  it ,  is  all  about  farewells  rather  than  reunions .  ’

‘  heaven  is  real  and  you  only  had  two  minutes  to  prove  it  to  me .  ’

‘  it  was  already  love .  ’

‘  everyone  desires  love  but  also  finds  it  impossible  to  believe  that  they  deserve  it .  ’

‘  i’ll  love  you  until  i  forget  how  to .  ’

‘  i’ll  love  you  until  i  forget  how  to  and  then  i’ll  fall  like  my  knees  aren’t  already  bruised  from  doing  it  and  i’ll  remember  why  you’re  worth  the  ache .  ’

‘  of  course  i’ll  hurt  you .  of  course  you’ll  hurt  me .  of  course  we’ll  hurt  each  other .  but  this  is  the  very  condition  of  existence .  ’

‘  nothing  makes  me  sadder  and  nothing  makes  me  happier  than  you .  ’

‘  i  love  you  and  i  do  not  want  to  love  you ,  it  is  too  much  and  too  difficult .  ’

‘  grief  is  just  love  with  no  place  to  go .  ’

‘  i  felt  my  life  with  both  my  hands  to  see  if  it  was  there .  ’

‘  you  do  this ,  you  do .  you  take  the  things  you  love  and  you  tear  them  apart .  ’

‘  i  hope  it’s  love .  i’m  trying  really  hard  to  make  it  love .  ’

‘  if  you  touch  me  again  i  might  burn  up  in  the  cold  air .  ’

‘  i  asked  you  not  to  leave  several  times .  ’

‘  i’ve  only  adored  you  lifetimes  ago  and  here  we  are .  it’s  nice  to  see  you  again .  ’

‘  all  time  ever  does  is  pass  and  all  i  ever  do  is  remember .  ’

‘  i  feel  as  though  we  were  never  strangers ,  you  and  i ,  not  even  for  a  moment .  ’

‘  i’d  choose  you ;  in  a  hundred  different  lifetimes ,  in  a  hundred  worlds ,  in  any  version  of  reality ,  i’d  find  you  and  i’d  choose  you .  ’

‘  nothing  about  this  is  soft  but  we  pretend .  ’

‘  maybe  you  and  i  are  just  a  dream .  ’

‘  i  know  you  loved  me  too ,  you  knew  me ,  and  it  gladdens  my  heart .  ’

‘  i  promise  i  shall  never  give  up  and  that  i’ll  die  yelling  and  laughing .  ’

‘  i  don’t  do  anything  with  my  life  except  romanticize  and  decay  with  indecision .  ’

‘  the  world  was  made  so  that  we  could  find  each  other  in  it .  ’

‘  you  don’t  meet  the  people  you  love ,  you  recognize  them .  ’

‘  i  think  you  and  i  have  known  each  other  a  few  lifetimes .  ’

‘  this  body  knows  fear  like  a  front  porch  knows  welcome  –  it  is  always  coming  home .  ’

‘  i  miss  you  more  than  i  remember  you .  ’

‘  if  i  could  have  done  it  all  again ,  i  would  have  loved  you  better .  but  i  could  not  have  loved  you  more .  ’

‘  we  could  have  been  happy .  i  know  that ,  and  it  is  perhaps  the  hardest  thing  to  know .  ’

‘  you  want  a  better  story .  who  wouldn’t ?  ’

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Vaux may have given the air that he had a perfect amount of experience with relationships, love and adoration - the truth was quite the opposite. In the length of his life thus far, Vaux had only been in one serious relationship and it had only ever been a lie to use him, manipulate him and hurt him. He'd lost faith in finding aught genuine from that point onward and thus, in a sense of genuine intentions, the both of them were rather green.

He chooses to comment not on it, however, and instead basks in the delicate touches and the holding of his hands. He's smiling - small but beautifully genuine, and after but a moment does he slink himself closer and rest his head upon the others shoulder, giving in to that craving for closeness.

"Lonely no more, darling. I'll not let you be so."

It wasn't the first time Rothalion had remained utterly silent on his own feelings - sometimes to consequences unimaginable. Why he had chosen this time to change such a pattern he knew not, only that his fears of rejection now lay crushed under reality and just how glad he was in realizing it.

Rothalion paused, tilting his head to rest the bridge of their noses together and closing his eyes. He smiled brighter and wider, unable to truly contain the glee that near burst from his chest as his brain caught up with Vaux's words. He pulled back, eyes flicking open to examine Vaux's face ere he replied,

"I would love that, actually. Although I am utterly inexperienced I... would like to start this new chapter with you."

He gently took the other's hands in his own, a thumb brushing small circles upon the back of one of his hands. His head tilted, eyes flicking down as the pale tint of rose touched his face once more.

"Although I had felt so strongly for some time now, I feared that to take that first step may just ruin everything. It seems, however, that mine own mind is its own worst critic," he admitted quietly. "'Tis been a lonely existence. Full glad am I that 'tis you that will break that pattern."

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@fourthclone asked: [ EASE ] — sender encourages receiver's legs open MEME; gestures that get me going

Hitched breaths linger in the confines of his throat, the outer lines of a slender neck peppered with kisses and nibbles alike. Breathlessness comes easy when skin is doused in adoration, when the sudden weight of clothes feels obscene in comparison.

Lithe fingers reach forth, grip his company by the shirt and pull him closer where the tailor lays 'pon the comfort of his couch. The sensation of a knee parting his legs brings a cheeky smile to his expression, teeth briefly nibbling his own lip in idle anticipation: no hesitation in reaching to hook knees over hips.

It brings relief to feel fingers against his skin, the weight of his own shirt shed aside - a brief chill consuming the expanse of his person. His back arches against touch, long lashes brushing cheeks as eyes closed - toes curling against the comforts of a plush throw.

"... I do hope you intend to keep me warm, darling - -" Whispered words are hushed against an ear, the brushing of lips 'pon skin following behind.

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New Sprezzatura

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@stoicfulmuses || 𝕃𝕀𝕂𝔼𝔻 for a 𝕊𝕋𝔸ℝ𝕋𝔼ℝ

"And you're sure that its a good idea, darling-?" He's marginally disinterested in the drink that rests 'pon the bar before him, the gentle touch of his fingers briefly skimming across the glass - instead, he's near fixated 'pon the poise of his company, instead, and the apparent agitated aura seeping off of him. "I do worry about you, at times."

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@amcryllis || 𝕃𝕀𝕂𝔼𝔻 for a 𝕊𝕋𝔸ℝ𝕋𝔼ℝ

"I always found the falling of rain to be rather beautiful in its own way--" Easy is it to offer words that, perhaps, ought have remained only as thoughts - to company he has found while walking toward the boutique one afternoon. He's more than happy to share the expanse of his umbrella with this someone unrecognised, the downpour nigh bouncing off of the pavement at their feet; rushes of water streaming toward drains. "Except when one needs to go out in it- the soggy feeling is abysmal. Are you heading far, sweet?"

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@saburaito || 𝕃𝕀𝕂𝔼𝔻 for a 𝕊𝕋𝔸ℝ𝕋𝔼ℝ

Its mesmerising, the rain that falls from the heavens at such speed that it bounces off of the pavement, collecting in large puddles or rushing towards struggling drains. Storms akin to that were not common, and yet when they hit one couldn't help but be in awe of the strength of nature itself.

Inspired, the tailor had been sat within the window of his store, sketching movements he saw within the weather, of nearby bending trees; turning such scribbles slowly into shapes that resembled clothing - - naught he would make for aught belonging to a usual day, but perhaps a catwalk or something similar.

'T is only the chime of the store bell above the door that rouses him from deep thought, a quick glance at the clock ere he stands unto feet telling that time had swept him away and now was he somewhat delayed in greeting company.

"Good afternoon, darling-" The sketchbook is temporarily abandoned, favour standing instead with posing a bright smile and the gesture of a delicate hand. "--is there aught I can help you with-? Seeking something particular?"

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@reevc || 𝕃𝕀𝕂𝔼𝔻 for a 𝕊𝕋𝔸ℝ𝕋𝔼ℝ

"Ah-- good morning, darling." Having been checking the paperwork nested 'pon the reception desk alongside his dear receptionist, Vaux had initially been far too engaged to take note of the chime above the door ringing to note incoming company. 'T is only as he raises his gaze that he takes note of the familiar figure, and thus offers as bright of a smile as he can muster after a rather long morning of fittings.

"What can I do for you, sweet? Looking for anything in particular?"

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@amaurotine || 𝕃𝕀𝕂𝔼𝔻 for a 𝕊𝕋𝔸ℝ𝕋𝔼ℝ

He's sat, eyes observing passers by while fingers gingerly stroke the ribbon tying together a rather beauteous bouquet of white and pink flowers. A gift, they had been - one from a client of whom had let him down on countless occasions with little time to spare. It had turned out to be a waste, the time that he had lost could have easily been accounted for another - - and flowers did naught to fix those agitations. They were bittersweet, and needed a far better end.

Thus, he stands - he meanders around, handing out single flowers to those of whom he liked the outfits of, ere pausing near another;

"Here-" He offers a perfectly white rose to his unknown company; "You are beautiful, darling-"

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@cryosoldier || 𝕃𝕀𝕂𝔼𝔻 for a 𝕊𝕋𝔸ℝ𝕋𝔼ℝ

"I'll be with you in just a moment, darling-" Late evenings were usually some of Vaux's favorite times to work, if only because of it all being quiet within the store aside from his own movements. Visitors at those hours were usually few and far between, and thus he had been in the middle of stocking new fabrics in the back room when he heard the chime of the door call out - - announcing company.

He's momentary silent ere he emerges from the large archway, offering a bright smile as he slows his approach;

"How can I help you, sweet? Come on in and get warm, make yourself comfortable - I know the weather is a smite bitter this evening~"

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OOC: I've just about finished all of the starters I owe- s I'll be posting those out in a moment! I'm also probably gonna start throwing a few asks around, too-! Love you alll!!!

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Long fingers, finely manicured in a pearlescent pink tone, reach gladly for the note and recognition was immediately applied to both signature and handwriting. 'T would not be the first time that Tataru had sought his aid - and Vaux was ever happy to comply to any and all of her requests.

"Any blue is fine, darling." In fact, starting with a colour often allowed for one an easier time in building the outfit as a whole simply because it gave a solid foundation. Vaux offers what he hopes to be a reassuring smile, deciding his next question carefully in the hopes of making the entire process as easy as possible for the youth before him; "Is there anything you don't like, sweet? Any types of collars or fits? I promise, whatever we make will be perfectly comfortable - I'm just trying to get an idea."

So this was Mr. Vaux. He was quite pretty for a tailor. Though, Lex had little experience with tailors. The most recent ones he interacted with were the ones Baderon dragged him to when his clothes stopped fitting.

Lex stepped forward and handed the (unfortunately slightly crumpled) note. "Miss Tataru told me to find you. I um..." He wracked his brain for the exact wording. "I am in need of 'formal wear' for a banquet in a few weeks. She said that you're the best."

He fidgeted with the bandanna round his forehead. "She said I'm allowed to ask for some things too? I wanna keep my ribbon, and I like the color blue. Rhotano blue. Is that okay?"