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Another day of waking in disgust. Fall asleep again; wake up self-loathing Let’s not give in to temptations and just Get up and gather yesterday’s clothing. What use is brushing your teeth anyway? You’ll just end up staining them with coffee, Keeping that tired heart pacing all day Till the night makes you breathe more easily, Besides, you won’t like the reflective glass Mirroring that pale face and hollow eyes; The self-image distorted by mind, alas, Today you’ll believe its virulent lies. Of course, I know you’ve been much better, But you’ve been worse too; it doesn’t matter.

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“You brought me back to life and then killed me again.”

-danielle (toeverybrokenheart)

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i know i need to let you go.

in fact i’m beginning to hate myself for not doing so.

i say nothing because your name is the only thing that slips off of my tongue and no one wants to hear me vocalize you running circles around my mind anymore.

i wonder how you interpret the songs that you showed me so long ago. do you think of me or does another girl belong to them?

i’m constantly checking your social media accounts because i still want to know what you’re thinking of even if i know it’s not me.

despite needing to let go of you

i don’t want to.

v.m

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You said you cared but you’re not here to hold me while i cry. You swore you’d never hurt me yet you are the one that hurt me the most.

T.D (via td-mylife)

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On days like this I just want to crawl in a corner and like every blanket on me and start from the top of our old text and pretend that I still have you. I hold the bear you gave me. I stare at us in pictures. It actually really sucks that we’re done. Eventually we will move on and continue without each other, but you were such a big part of my life and my reason to live that after you left I really didn’t know what to do with myself which is not a good thing at all, but makes the recovery for me harder. I just hope you know how much I loved you as a boyfriend and how much I still love you. I just want to be friends for life. I thank you for still being there for me as a shoulder to cry on even about you, and I hope you know I would still go to the end of the world for you. I always will and always have.

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I’ve never felt a pain more physical than heartbreak.

I’ve had the air kicked out of me playing backyard football with the neighborhood kids, but it wasn’t at all comparable to laying in my bed at night rewinding all of our memories in my head like an old VHS tape.

At least in my backyard the oxygen came back into my lungs.

v.m

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“Do you remember when we used to talk all the time and you struggled to be away from me? What happened to that?”

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It’s the days when I just really feel like holding someone’s hand that I miss you. It’s the days I want to talk for ages about nothing in particular. It’s the days I want to tell you about my favourite book and it’s the days I want to lie on your chest as you read it aloud to me. Because when someone so constant suddenly disappears out of your life you don’t just get used to it. I’ll admit, some days I barely notice, sometimes that lasts for months. But some days I swear your absence could fill an empty room, and nothing makes a room feel emptier than wanting someone in it. I ache for you sometimes. I ache for our conversations, I ache for your boring brown eyes, I ache for your skin pressed against mine and your breath on my neck. I want my lips to trace every inch of your body and I want your hands to trace every inch of mine.

letters to my ex (via life-of-el)

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Don’t let boys with beautiful eyes and persuasive mouths anywhere near your curious eyes or your delicate lips. I know these boys they make us curious and it makes us stay, but we mustn’t let them pull us in. So tempting it is to spill the galaxies of our minds and draw the constellations of our dreams for them, but we must keep such things to ourselves because they are not strong enough to hold them. I know how badly you want to give it all to him, but he is not enough. He is not enough because you are too much. You are too curious and you love too hard for boys like him. He only wants your body, he only wants the shell. But you are so much more and without him you are still so much more. You are more than the forlorn girl he creates of you. You are the endless dreams he suppresses and the loud and infatuating mind that he is too self-centered to appreciate. So don’t let him near your skin, don’t let him seep through, don’t let yourself seep out. Don’t let your loneliness convince you that you need him. Don’t let an empty day convince you that he is worth your time. He is not. Please make this time your own, use this time to make you your own, entirely your own. Stay strong and one day you will find someone who is worth every second of your time and you their’s. Please, please, please just wait because you will find him and you will be as beautiful to him at noon when your mind is wide open as you are at midnight when his hands explore every inch of the skin that dresses your soul.

you are too much and baby girl, he will never be enough (via life-of-el)

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You wouldn’t break a bird’s wings just to make it stay. That’s the reason why you should let a heart go, when it feels suffocated in your embrace.

ma.c.a // Free Will (via vomitingwords)

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“Truth is, I miss you. All the time. Every second. Every minute. Every hour. Everyday.”

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“She was getting better…but then she remembered the things that tore her apart. Now, she’s back at the start.”

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as much as i hate admitting it to myself, i still do type your username on the search bar. i still remember your birthday and the way your blue eyes shine when you smile. i still wait for a someday where maybe we’ll cross paths again but deep down, i know someday doesn’t have a date. i still lay on the floor, listen to your song and feel my tears filter through the cracks of my broken heart. no one told me getting over someone would be so damn hard, if only you would’ve come with a warning sign…

i long for the day i won’t see you in my dreams anymore. (via sunsetico)

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my heart will always belong to you, no matter what my mind tells it.

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