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i don’t want to do this shit anymore maybe i’ll just jump in front of a bus

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never related so much.

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Anne Sexton, ‘The Addict’

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I want to die

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feeling like drinkin poison, blowing my head out, hanging myself and finally burning the leftovers

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ig: jonmichaelfrank

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damn why am I hungry?? I ask, surprised, after eating 700 cals per day for 2 months 

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im so fucking hungry

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My ed: starve.

Me: okay

Me: *doesn’t eat all day*

My ed: I said STARVE.

Me: I am

My ed: sTaRVe

Me: I AM

My ed: STARVE BETTER

Me: *screams*

My ed: *screams louder*

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it terrifies me how easily I can lose track of calories. how naturally I slip into bad habits, taking another bite for lunch past my 300 cal limit, or skipping an exercise. I hope I’ll do well. 

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1000 cals is not the end of the world, right??

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anyways starving has a negative effect on studying (wtf, who would’ve thought??) but ain’t no way im stopping. catch my acing my finals and losing weight 

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I keep making bad decisions but at least I’m losing weight 

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nothing brings me joy like losing weight does