heatherntesweater

[heatherntesweater]

Happy Birthday Beloved

When birds chirp

When the sun rises

When people wake

When flowers grow

When children play

When gates open

When envelopes are posted

When the smell of food wafts

When friends giggle

When vines intertwine

When old people go on walks

When people drink

I see you

All i see is you

My dear

You bloom in the day

You are shining

In the light

When the stars shine

When the moon glows

When the fireflies come out

When the streetlights turn on

When the city sparkles

When headlights blur in the rain

When neon signs blow

When the air turns cold

When the waves crash

When the lighthouse turns on

When the fish sleep

When jellyfish glow

I see you

All i see is you

My dear

You glow in the dark

You are luminescent

In the night

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Only hers.

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#i love you

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#i love you

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Words cannot describe you.

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I limp my way through the forest.

Clothes torn. Sweat on my body.

Mud on the forest path try to hold me back,

Shielding me from better days.

I see in the distance a shimmer,

Silver, green and blue grace my eyes,

As I see a beautiful lake.

The lake in the woods.

I move closer to the gentle lake

To fall on my knees and look in.

Moonlight falls on the ripples

Inviting me in.

There is moss on the banks,

And fireflies near-by.

I see the full moon

In the lake in the woods.

I yearn for a place

In the heart of the lake.

The moonlit lake in the woods.

Willing and with conviction,

I fall gently into the lake

And let it embrace me

With it's cold loving arms.

The water is gentle and cold

But runs much deeper,

You do not want to know more

I hear the lake say.

I rid myself of the calm clutches

And plunge myself deeper

Into the depths of

The lake in the woods.

The depths are turbulent

And yet gracefully gentle

I feel water enter my lungs

As i asphyxiate.

As I feel my breath stopping.

I open my eyes towards the sky

And I see the beauty of the lake

All around me

I see stars on the night sky

I see the full moon

I see rays of moonlight

Through the waters

I see fireflies

I see dried leaves floating on the water

I see small pebbles

I see lilies.

My breath is getting slower

And my eyes are closing

I can't think clearly

But i know where I belong.

I think of Baburs words

When he first laid his eyes upon

The mountains of Kashmir.

Is duniya mein agar jannat hai, toh bas yahi hai, yahi hai, yahi hai.

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I remember scribbling this on a piece of paper. Found the picture today.

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Kings are dying

Empires are falling

Hellfire rages

Consuming us

Through the pain

And confusion

I find clarity in her

I find solace in her

The fires raging

Across celestial bodies

Wane in comparison

To the fires raging across hers.

She said she looks in the mirror

What she said next fell on deaf ears

For I was jealous

I envy her mirror

What would I not give?

To see her in front of me

In the pale sunlight

In all her glory

I envy any river

She looks into

For it catches a glance

Of her.

Her fire

Burns across me

It scalds the insides of my body

It makes me euphoric

Butterflies flutter

Blood rushes

Sweat.

And I shiver

I will lick her wounds clean

I will dry her tears

For I know

She'll do the same

I die with every word of hers

And I'm reborn with every touch

Never before has death

Been so appealing

I know where she is

In the night

In the cold and darkness

I go to the graveyard

She sits on a grave

Her beautiful legs dangling

I envy the moonlight

For it gets to touch her

I lean in to kiss her

She lifts her head

I see her beautiful black eyes

And I die again

I am reborn when we touch

I die with her kiss

Never before has life

Been so appealing

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The old chinese vase sits on the mantle.

Filled with water.

A single drink pulls me in

Pulls me into my past.

The old chinese vase sits on the mantle.

Blue and white

A single drink from the vase

And I forget the present.

The old chinese vase sits on the mantle.

Sneering,

It asks me to drink from it

Guilt makes me want to obey.

The old chinese vase sits on the mantle.

It knows that sorrow is addictive.

It wants to take me back

Back to a time when i didnt know her.

The old chinese vase sits on the mantle.

Beckoning me closer.

You dont deserve her, it tells me.

You are nothing.

The old chinese vase sits on the mantle.

Look at your reflection in my waters,

It tells me.

Go back to sorrow.

The old chinese vase sits on the mantle.

I go near it.

Smiling it askes me

To plunge in.

I take the old chinese vase

And hold it gently in my hands

With all the strength

I have in my body

I break the old chinese vase.

As the vase shatters on the ground

Shards fly everywhere

I can see them on the ground waiting to bite

I will get back to her.

The water from the vase turns into a flood

Flooding the room till my neck

One last attempt

From the old chinese vase

I will get back to her.

I dive underwater

Feeling water enter my lungs

Memories from a time before

Flood my brain.

I shake off ill feelings,

Forebodings and prophesies.

I don't know much but i know this

I must get back to her.

I swim until i hit something

Its a door

I open the door and run out

Out of my past.

I jump in the old car

And drive away

I see the old house with its broken shards

In my rear view mirror.

I dont know much but i do know this

I love her.

I love her more than the sky.

I love her more than the planet.

I love her more than the stars.

I love her more than wine and ballrooms.

I love her the way Kennedy loved Monroe.

Beautiful.Impossible maybe.

And yet,hopeful.

I know i want her.

God himself could tell me i cant have her.

God could tell me that I'll go to hell before I can have her.

I will tell my loving father

I will burn in hell for a thousand years if it means I can be with her for one.

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In the end

Do not blame me for the agony I caused

Blame this needy, pining heart.

But in the end

I ask you to leave it alone

For it has seen enough.

Enough tears and enough bloodshed.

Enough sorrow.

In the end

If you cannot spare me I wont ask you to.

But I fall on my knees and ask you,

Spare this needy, bleeding heart.

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Water is funny

April's face was funny

when she was drowning

Her face,

serene like the lake,

pretty like a dream,

Oh April!

You look so like your father.

Funny how I chose her to be the last.

Funny how she didn't trust her mother

when I said it's lovely to float.

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He didn’t know

his touch did it all .

He Didn’t quite

want to know

that no matter

how much ever he tried

it was always

his love that hurts.

Like she could have just not hid her teeth when she threw her head back and laughed

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Dear child,

did they tell you

the fireflies live for a day

to light up the air?

Do they let you see

the bruises on your father's knees?

Or those scars on your mother's wrist?

Golden boy,

you have a lion's heart, they tell you

Precious girl,

you have an angel's wings, they love you.

But someday you will see-

your flaws; you will cry,

you will mourn the lies.

You will see that

they never wanted you to see.

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The butterflies have

Stopped tickling

They have started stinging

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We need more images like these i think