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Ugh I’m back in tumblr, just when naively I thought I outgrew this part of myself 🙊

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I’ve become a morning person, but only on mornings where I naturally wake up beautiful, minimal effort, no one else awake at this our, no strange men on the street, older lady’s walking their dogs, sun just came up, room is not a mess, feel productive, just a bit sleepy, and sitting in a park.

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Don’t always like myself, but just realized how strongly I love myself. I wish to be felt in the way I feel myself? Yk

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Can we talk about how "women bring up old shit" and "women don't let things go" is often just men purposefully avoiding accountability because they know if they dodge a conversation long enough the woman will look like the crazy one by bringing it up again

They say women cling to things for too long but they purposefully don't allow us to discuss things at the times that they happen.

They play it off as some innocent thing that they just don't remember, but it's not: it's a purposeful manipulation technique to make women feel ridiculous for standing up to mistreatment.

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Mortifying but sincere..

Ok sorry for my self- indulgent malignancy from time to time … but at least learn to tolerate my insufferable music taste, before you imitate it.

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God your so fucking boring so you want to make me completely void of vision. Don’t push me into your crystal box you vapid fool.

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I love having a twin sister, who I so fondly dislike. Like there is no other person on this earth who hates me the way that she does and I adore her for it. She is like me in every way that directly conflicts. I can't help but wish she was real (she is). She is just so important to me that sometimes it feels like she is just apart of my imagination.

She is so special, everything I wish I was and im glad I’m not. Literal other half ( reading this back kind of worried I may be codependent/ toxic) but it’s ok!

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Lowk I have no idea how shit has figured itself out but here’s to another day

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Decided i will start posting some of my shit poetry that only makes sense to people who make no sense. Sorry I can’t form a single coherent thought. 🤷‍♀️

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Back, but so sick of yesterday

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As has every person before me, I have decided to be a bit less self involved in hopes to cure my tendency to spiral into depressive episodes! Or maybe just to avoid so much internal conflict? Or to try and stay somewhat grounded for the first time in my life? Anyways… it hasn’t been working but I’m probably not trying hard enough!!

+ “Decentralize” the self?

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Questioning the same virtues I’ve always prided myself on/ hold myself against will always make me a feel a bit more self absorbed.. when will the cherry picking end, I am so tired of only asking questions I’ve already quietly decided.. My “liberty” is self designated limitation..

(? Like how am I supposed to know what my values are (in moral nature) vs what is simple convenience/ mental clarity.. cause I’m seriously starting to question the integrity of morality itself as like a framework)

- Help, it’s painful to be this insufferable in my own home (secret tumblr acc completely seperate from my real life) (in my minds eye!)

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Why did I just see a video where someone called rape the r-word, as if it were such a grotesque word?!! Like no… the action itself is. But call it for what it is. Censoring the word undermines the gravity of its action/ and the reality of what survivors face… why are we still doing this?!

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I think every woman should see themselves in every other woman.

Not that unique of an opinion huh?

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One day a girl will wake up and realize that her value is greater than simple existence and satisfaction.

One day a girl will realize that she deserves more than to accomplish happiness.

Dare she be radical, dare she be loud, full of questions, and complex. Dare she be unholy and unjustified…irrideemable

?apparently I’ve yet to wake the fuck up?

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I should not get too personal, instead I’ll choose to stay disappointed. Not neutral, just deeply disappointed.