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sketched the little guy again

keep sketching the little guy from time to time

the pose is a bit weird but that's what you get for not using references lol

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Aaaah, to hell with the rules, I'm finally in the mood for some quick ugly sketches. Rules are for people, not people for rules, yay!

(... the major problem with Bulma is that when you draw her in a non-Toriyama style she's basically any woman with big breasts and blue/violet hair lol. On the other hand, that's why it's always interesting to draw her.)

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On a seemingly unrelated note: I've always been more of a "crescent" kind of girl rather than a "full moon" one, lol.

For me, the best part of crescent is the empty dark space in its center - except that it isn't empty at all. When I focus on the blackness, that's when I really get The Big Cosmic Feeling. The picture is being transformed, and I am struck by the realization that this is actually a shadow on this giant spherical object, and I am standing right now on a huge ball rotating in the endless void... This is an eerie and magnificent feeling that never fails to take my breath away.

The full moon, of course, too is spectacular in its mystical white roundness, but it just doesn't do the same thing for me.

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another text on vegebul height difference

What can I say in my defense? I just suddenly wanted to write this post. Haven't written text posts for quite some time, actually.

I guess I'll just add another black and white drawing to the queue, lol. ... I'm hopeless

(should I tag this post as "sexual themes", hmm? it never was a problem before though)

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Did you know that in most animal species, females are generally larger than males? E.g., blue whales, turtles, snakes, birds of prey (owls, hawks, eagles, etc.), praying mantises... the list is long. It's just that mammals for the most part go against the trend.

This is one of those little facts that, being heard in a biology class many years ago, broke the childhood social patterns in my head and slightly turned my idea of ​​the world around me.

Come to think of it, sinсe then I've always been kinda fascinated by the idea. And, not gonna lie, when transferred to humans, I even find something... exciting about this?

Not like a pronounced fetish though - basically it's just one of the many things that cause my curiosity. Does that make me weird or perverted or cringe in the eyes of human society (lol)? I don't know. It's not for me to answer this question anyway.

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Before I started reading vegebul fics though, I always assumed that other people feel the same way as I do about alternative size difference - they're just embarrassed to say it out loud. But judging by the fact that most authors in the fandom avoid this aspect like fire, I was severely mistaken here. Is seems that for most of them, the thought of having sex or being romantically involved with a smaller man seems to be repulsive rather than curious or exciting, let alone just normal.

Which is quite a loss, really. I think vegebul provides such a great opportunity to explore, hmm, a more nuanced way of looking at males and females in a sexual relationship (not to mention the social and psychological aspects of how it's refracted through these particular characters), but it's been largely ignored.

Instead, this ship is mostly about a big dominant male taking a small weak female.

Socially, it's almost always about how all the women around Bulma are jealous that she's got such a hot, perfect husband.

And... I don't know. At some point, it just started to seem so… flat and lifeless to me? No one seems to be interested in how Vegeta, being a small man, looks at himself, the people around him and relationships with women.

Another point to think about: given that Freeza was small as well, shouldn't his army have had a peculiar attitude towards this issue? How do people in space generally feel about each other's looks? What if some species of aliens found Vegeta attractive precisely because of his small size?

What was Bulma's attitude to Vegeta's height, and how did it change over time? As a vain woman, did she worry about the fact that she and her husband didn't look like a perfect picture in the lenses of the paparazzi? What do their children think about it? (And didn't Vegeta secretly read through the style-advice magazines for petite guys that Krillin sometimes forgot lying around CC lol?)

So many different questions come to mind when you let the train of your thoughts go in this direction. So many new shades are added to the palette.

But all these questions are simply non-existent in the world of "perfect and absolutely gorgeous" Vegeta. All the women are drooling over him, and all the men around are only slightly taller, so that fact is not worth his attention. He is great at pleasing his miniscule tiny woman with his huge dick, and that's the most important thing. Aside from cursed Kakarotto, childhood traumas and unplanned pregnancies, everything is perfect in his free-of-insecurities universe.

Except that this perfection makes me yawn.

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I dunno, maybe someone may consider this curiosity of mine disrespectful to short guys in general.

But I wonder - is the almost complete ignoring of the topic by vegebul fandom more respectful?

Who knows. Definitely not me.

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My superego: I need you to draw something meaningful and relevant My ego: well, I consulted with our id, and according to it, we only have energy for a lazy self-indulgent sketch of Vegeta with his hair wet. Superego: …ok, just draw at least something, you depressed little shit.

yep, mysterious dark shadows from below to the rescue, no naked dudes in this blog

Actually, Vegeta with his hair down always gave me a strange feeling. It's like looking at him makes me recognize something, but I can never figure out what or who it is exactly I recognize @__@ perhaps some archetypical stuff again I dunno

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(~ I remember the naive time when I first watched the shower scene in dbz and thought: "Why do they always show him of all the characters naked? Do they think I enjoy looking at that little monkey's bare ass or something? It's getting really weird." … And I still think it's a bit weird lol.

~ So, there are several different versions of Vegeta's physique in the canon. I kinda like the extreme one for its expressiveness (and alienness?). But his palms definitely should have been bigger here lol Still, I wonder - with such ridiculously broad shoulders and a narrow waist, could he ever sleep on his side lol? … I'm only half kidding here, actually. It looks pretty uncomfortable. Perhaps I'll try to draw a more elegant version of him later as well.

~ A funny observation: when I design his figure this way (compact torso + broad shoulders + thin waist), he looks ok to me right up to the moment I try to dress him in human clothes. Then he looks terrible in basically everything lol. Seriously, he reminds me of a chest of drawers on little legs with a potted plant on top. I guess it would be a real pain in the ass for Bulma to make her husband look presentable to a human audience lol. I can just imagine her hiring stylists in desperation, showing them Vegeta's photo and saying, "Ok guys, can you do something about this?" And they're like, "Weeeell…that terrible hairdo has to go?.." And Bulma: "It's out of the question." And stylists: "…Oh dear.")

Tbh I don't think I'll be posting on this blog often anytime soon. Really shitty time in my life, and I mean really. But hey - who knows.

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...Ba-bump

surprise - I'm still alive. and trying to get out of my creative block against the backdrop of the apocalypse lol. …anyway, brought here some rough sketches with Oozaru's transformation process. Just wanted to do something... energetic, I guess.

Yep, no pretty Vegeta for you in this blog even during the apocalypse.

… Oops. In the second sketch, he looks like he's flying at you and wants to bite your head off, doesn't he? :'D But it was supposed to be a top view of Vegeta looking up at the beginning of the transformation. Dynamics is a tricky thing lol.

(Anyway, the oozaru were so cool. I mean, the first time I thought "Damn, I'm starting to like this show!" while watching DB literally was the time of Goku's first transformation. Still a little mad at Toriyama for depriving the Saiyans of their monkeyness haha.)

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Sorry

I couldn't help it

It's basically me showing people the manga panel with real Vegeta's height lol

... I guess now I have to post 3 black and white drawings in a row instead of 2 oops ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ but I regret nothing xD

(Yep, I got a little art block, but hey, I'll handle it eventually)

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Nyahaha :|

A bit of sketchy vegebul silliness

Violet-haired Bulma and boring angle again, figures

You do realize that I'm a serious grown man who has a reputation to maintain, don't you, Bulma? Then why? Why do you keep doing this to me? My hair isn't some kind of joke, Bulma. Bulma, do you hear me? Bulma? Bulma?..

Oh, never mind.

(This was supposed to be a quick black-and-white sketch, but I failed miserably lol. I couldn't help it, it just looked much better with colors. Or it looked even worse without them. I need to learn to work with value contrasts. So the next condition for me is: the next two drawings must be completely black and white.)

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Oops

Hmm, you know... I posted the new rules, and then I realized that, in fact, I no longer have such a strong urge to write? I think my plan has already worked, I just didn't notice it right away, lol.

I guess I expressed everything that really nagged me, and I cannot be concentrated on this forever. After all, that was what made me come back to this blog after a long hiatus - the desire to speak up. Yes, there are still a lot of interesting things to write about which are gathering dust in the drafts, but without a keen inner urge it just doesn't feel natural. And such an artificial concentration will only lead to stagnation. I need to move on.

(However, I'll continue to draw systematically. I think developing my skills in this direction is a really promising idea. And I won't rest until I like at least one of my drawing with Vegeta, lol)

Perhaps if you're interested in my thoughts or analysis on some specific topic related to DB(Z) and its fandom, you can make a request? (I'm not very familiar with how tumblr works, but I think I've seen something like that, hmm) I think this approach will make more sense, because, well, at least I'll know for sure that it will be interesting to someone. (Maybe I could give a review of some fanfiction, hmm.)

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New rules for me (+ greetings and some info)

Yay, I finally fulfilled my condition - 5 posts with drawings were made! Now I can quit drawing and write a bunch of long boring essays in this blog again, bwahaha! (No)

Okay, actually, the new system on this blog is going to be this:

First, there will be at least 3 posts in a row with new drawings, and then, if I'm in the mood, one text post after that. And repeat. For violation of the conditions, another drawing will be added to the row.

Also, several new followers came to this blog recently (hi), and I think I need to clarify some things.

This blog was never meant to be an art blog, and it is not. This is exactly what the description says - my little personal place for guilty pleasures. I mean, I'm not opposed to people following me and retweeting my posts (otherwise I'd just make the blog private), but that's not something I'm actively looking for either, and I'm not going to make it easier for people. (Seriously, the morning I woke up and found 23 tumblr notifications I kinda freaked out, why would I want it lol? Like, 5 is ok, but 23?..)

Basically, I love writing essays more than drawing. Without my "posts with drawings" restriction, I'd just sit and write graphomaniac texts here endlessly, and this isn't good for me. So I decided to limit the less useful manifestations of my hyperfixation that way.

Perhaps, when (if) I have a feeling that my drawings are worthy of it, I'll create a separate art blog, but this moment is still far away. But before that, if you subscribed solely because of the drawings, well... Tough luck then, they come with the rest of me: with all my hyperfixations, self-centeredness, dubious English, cringe-worthy ideas and unpopular opinions.

Anyway, if you haven't been put off by my personality and by my deliberate efforts to make this blog less attractive, then perhaps we have something in common. Which means...

You're welcome here, actually :В

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Suddenly - here's Lunch :|

Because Vegeta isn't the only character in DB, apparently

(Yep, Crappy Design Corp. is a thing now. ... Capsule Corp. would sue me for damaging their reputation if i put their logo on my designs lol)

It starts to bother me that I rely too much on bright colors in my drawings. Well, just because I suck at other means of expression tbh, haha. Maybe I should practice in black and white for a while, hmm?

And now my drawings will be not only static and sketchy, but also monochrome, oh yeah, what a great idea

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Vegeta + Cat

(Just wanted to draw something silly)

"Young man, you’re supposed to knock before you come in! Didn't they teach you any manners in that Freeza army of yours?"

(... What? Have you never found a cat in the bathroom sink in the middle of the night? What a boring life you must be living lol)

My love for small irises has defeated my desire to draw in a semi-realistic style here lol. Can't help but love the way they make characters look kinda wild

Damn, I just never have the patience to render details. I guess the only way in art for me is to pretend to be an impressionist lol. Also, not a fan of how the color composition turned out, but... to hell with this - let's move on.

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I have 3 big problems drawing Vegeta

(I'm not violating my terms again - there are sketches im this post even if ugly, they can still pass for drawings. Still, if hyperfixation on a character or a subject can be considered a crime, then I am definitely guilty lol. But my brain just tends to do it, I'm afraid)

So, here are the basic problems:

1) It's quite difficult for me to at the same time a) make the overall drawing look good, but b) in such a way that it's clear that Vegeta is kinda ugly. Yes I have policy here if you didn't notice lol. I suppose that for this the drawing must have great composition, dynamics and expressiveness of the visual techniques, and... I simply cannot do this at this level of skill development, alas.

2) Honestly, drawing a beautiful face is just much easier than an ugly one. It's much easier to find references for pretty faces and classic bodies and all these guys have small perfect foreheads argh, and besides - the human brain strives for harmony (especially if you're trying to be an artist). So keeping your hand from making Vegeta conventionally handsome is quite a task.

I dunno, maybe this is one of my best attempts, but he still looks a bit like a damn fashion model to me:

(Although, if you add a small body to that... it'll do, perhaps?..)

3) All this bunch of his different faces in different art styles drives me crazy, to be honest. There is a big difference even between his facial features in the anime and manga of the same f*cking period (can I swear here? I'm not sure lol). Seriously, my brain sees all of these Vegetas as different men, and I like (or dislike) each of them for different reasons. How the hell am I supposed to draw him? Argh.

Here comes ugliness

And this is just a small part of all varieties, believe me

(I guess a drawing with an ugly Vegeta will never be as popular as a drawing with a handsome one - people love beautiful faces (and bodies) and will automatically respond to them. But what I'm looking for is not popularity (lol, no thanks), but an inner sense of satisfaction. I just have the urge to complete this art challenge. But I think it'll take a long time of practicing. And in the process, my interest may just shift to other things.)

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Just a silly thing I remembered for some reason

You know, before I watched DBZ, I was sure that it's a kind of family saga (like Jojo, I mean). So at some point, one of the black-haired protagonists married a blonde, and all the next generation of main characters had blonde hair, haha. (Yes, I was that ignorant about SSJ transformation.)

Actually, I'm glad DBZ wasn't at all what I expected, in more ways than one. And yet... I have mixed feelings about where all these transformations have taken the story.

P.S.: I wonder if SSJ form at some point caused accusations of racism (well, there are always strange people). I mean... all these black-eyed black-haired characters turn into green-eyed blondes (pretty stereotypical Aryan looks), and this state is considered superior, hmm.

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I felt pretty shitty today, so decided to draw Vegeta to calm down a bit. Feel much better now. yay, art therapy

(dunno what the fact that the Saiyan arc Vegeta is my comfort character says about me though, lol)

In theory, the space pods should inspire a sense of terror, but they have the exact opposite effect on me. I guess it's due to a subconscious desire to place oneself in a kind of protective sphere, or something like that, hmm.

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Bulma + scouter sketches :|

Here I practiced picking color combinations that look good with violet (and Bulma's look at the beginning of the Saiyan arc is one of my favorites, so why not?)

(Has anyone expected a blue-haired Bulma from a nonconformist like me, lol? ... I'm actually pretty predictable, am I not?)

And yep, I don't have one consistent style yet ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

(I could just copy Toriyama's style, of course, but ... I don't find that interesting. I mean, you can always look at Toriyama-style dbz characters in dbz itself.)

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suddenly, here's a sketch of Saiyan arc Vegeta in human clothing (+ "badman" edition)

(It was always his "daddy version" who wore casual clothes in DBZ, so... I became kinda curious. I guess early Vegeta would've to buy clothes from the kids' department lol)

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... Well, graphomania is fun and all, but I really need to get on with more important things than posting long reads in dubious english on this blog (honestly, I have no idea how readable my writing is for native speakers at all, lol.) If I don't stop myself, then no one will stop me.

So I set myself a condition: the next 5 posts should be posts with some new drawings.