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hellllyc · 4 months ago

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PERSONAL IDEATION #2

I made progress today 😊

I created an Instagram account dedicated to one of my projects (that I imagine in my head to be a big spectacle musical!). It's versatile, so I can create an interesting story or collage with the platform that goes well beyond just words or images.

What I have done so far, is that with nearly every artwork I post, an original instrumental accompanies it. I hope I can discover additional creative methods to deliver my story in a way that fully encapsulates the vision I have of it.

When I look at what I've done, I think to myself -- I couldn't do this a year ago. Or two years ago, or three years ago and counting. Back then, I only had simple sketches and ideas. Now, I have a lot to work with and from. I like that.

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hellllyc · 4 months ago

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PERSONAL IDEATION #1

Problem:

I feel like I'm kind of losing it in between managing about 5-6 personal character projects at once with no clear direction on what I actually want to do with all of them. It may seem like I have things under control -- and everything may seem put together, but most of the time my mind's an incoherent mess of nonsense and nothingness combined in my head.

I have visions but they are just merely visions. I have concepts but they rarely extend beyond my senses. I do not think in words nor do I think in sequential narration. I work in pure sensation, imagery, and emotion. Forcing my ideas into words feels like a limitation. I'm translating an internal experience into language, and it's hard.

So I was like, okay, let's tackle this in two parts.

How can I convey my thoughts in a way that makes sense to others without losing my vision?

How can express my vision without it feeling watered down into a structure that doesn't fit?

My issue isn't a lack of vision, it's translation. Collages, vibes, big-picture concepts are everything. Organic and intuitive thinking. I have a fear of losing control of my vision. And I feel like no single piece of work can represent the whole.

In fact, I like dwelling in my dreams as I sleep because my subconscious mind knows how to construct and visualize things my conscious mind does not. Whereas my dreams can consist of extravagant and exemplary snippets of cohesive full-length movies, musicals fit with original songs, adventures and etc., my conscious mind and motor skills produces not even nearly one-fifth of what my subconscious is able to do.

That doesn't concern me though. I'm aware that things do not materialize themselves out of nonexistence. For this, I have to keep on working my hands and head if I want to achieve what I want. If there's an issue, I take a break and work my way around it. That's how I always personally arrive at improvement as far as I'm concerned. But, still, I don't like leaving things unanswered. I'll write a solution. It doesn't matter if the solution is correct or incorrect, I'd rather attempt to move forward than just sit here and talk. It doesn't feel right to me, it just does not. And this will go for every one of my longer posts. They will all have potential solutions at the end.

Solution:

A mixed media narrative i.e. a puzzle of fragmented ideas that the reader can then piece together themselves.

A hybrid of visuals and text with an overflow of patterns, visuals, and my thoughts.

Other non-linear forms of storytelling and the like.

In all honesty, I'm thinking this. If I can't adapt to a format that forces my mind, then I'll do things in a format that fits my mind. And I'll encourage people to navigate my work however they want, because that's how it always goes anyways.

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