hello-rajaa

[hello-rajaa]

please read this carefully

halo apis, first of all maaf ya karna gue masih kepikiran buatin lo beginian padahal terakhir gue bilang mau liat lo as pure friend. gue sering banget ya bikin lo literasi, semoga lo ngga bosen bacanya hehe

anywaayyy, gue mau bilang kalo im still glad for everything, 2021 and 2022 always gonna be our year. theyre gonna live forever in me huhu. thank u ya piss for every kindness yg lo kasih ke gue, i learn a lot of things from u, i always thank God for ur existence, and i do like to thank u for ALWAYS coming back into my life. thank u for always trying to sabar ngadepin gue yg gatau limits & boundaries suka larang lo ini itu padahal gue bukan siapa siapa lagi i really appreciate that. i regret nothing from our last 2 years, the pain, the fight, the journey, the up and down moments, the time i spent waiting for u. u know so damn well i'd give anything just for u to look at me the way u used to kan? in brief i wont regret anything, but i had enough this time pis. im so done with every excuse u made to left me behind while u know that i love u so bad. but still thank u for trying, thank uuu lo jarang bgt ngeluh ke gue yg dikasarin dikit aja ovt, thank uuu juga for made me realize that my hopes for us will always be in vain. gue ngga apa apa meskipun nangis dikit, udah waktunya buat berenti kok. i wish u an endless happiness after all. i forgiven it all and i hope u will forgive me too for every mistakes and dums shit situation i made. thank u for being 'apis' thank u udah nemenin gue terus, thank uuu banget lo selalu nenangin dan selalu ada at my lowest, thank u selalu maklumin sifat gue yg jelek & lebay, thank u buat semua yg lo kasihh ke gue, thank u for feelings, energy lo yg kekuras tiap ngobrol sama gue.

thank u for every song we listened to or the things that we talked about, thank u for the little inside jokes we had or the laughs we shared and thank u for being apiss who made me wish i could go back in life, not to change a things, just to feel a couple of things that we have been thru for a second time, thank u karna pernah jadi apis yang kaya gitu buat gue.

okayyy so here we are, this is the goodbyes on my last letters. my last goodbyes to our good memories and to our bad ones. u know i cant write ily on each of those letters as i used to because i forced myself to not feel that kind of thing no more since then. but FOR THE LAST TIME, ik u didnt think it was real but i loved u then, i love u still, i forever do and forever will.

apis, buat setiap ulang tahun lo yg selalu pengen gue rayain bareng sama lo, buat setiap bulan puasa yg pengen gue lewatin sama lo, buat semua hari hari yg selalu bikin gue excited karna bisa ngobrol sama lo, i let it go. i let everything go for good, so im letting go, its come to a close, i marked the end with this last letter i wrote, my great lost love </3