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Wallpapers by de Gournay 

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wedding dress idea #memotoadri

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We have been together for quite some time now but we are always separated by something e.g. oceans, curfews, working hours, indecision, personal tastes. It is always more than just distance or time. It is more of a problem of being disconnected from each other and I often feel that that disconnect is painful. 

But I love him.

We understand each other and we both know that the universe wants us to never break apart (there are signs for this. weird things happen to us. it's funny.) but sometimes we forget how to love each other (another factor for that disconnect). 

we think presents can make everything ok after an argument

we think that desiring big and grand things are a sign of commitment

we think that making promises means that everything is alright and secure.

we think that always being physically close to one another is the only way to show that you love each other.

we think that love means effort to be romantic, to be bold and to worship each other.

we think that love means being totally empathic to the point where you no longer have the necessity to tell the person how you feel, he/she is supposed to know automatically (telepathically perhaps). 

Maybe these are things that people in love do or have the ability for but I dont think it means love. I know that I love Adri because of the person he is. Because I cannot imagine a life without him and his effects on my environment (haha). It is too impossible and farfetched. Mainly because he makes me happy even when he makes me upset, angry or disappointed. It is as if the universe made an indestructible invisible string tying us together so even if we wanted to escape and run far away it would be extremely difficult and exhausting, we would just have to accept each other and learn all there is to know so that we could live 'dengan sempurna'. Maybe the universe did actually tie us up. I don't know what love is, there is no real guideline on how to properly love someone (I am extremely skeptical of the articles posted on facebook), I often go back and forth thinking about what love ought to be and what faux-love is but then again I think too much all the time (Adri says this always and I hate that he says that but I guess it's true).

Maybe I'll just leave it the universe to manage the development of our human relationship (I do, however, believe in the sanctity of love and that maybe its management is out of our hands). I digress. The point is feeling disconnected sucks but we are probably still tied to each other by that eternal string. So I shouldn't feel bad. I should be thankful to the genius of the universe.

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@_thelustlist_ via instagram

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seen on rebloggy.com/Arctic Monkeys

What if all the girls described in Arctic Monkeys’ songs meet all together in a bar?

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Anna Valdez

Laptop with Landscape, 2014 oil on canvas, 32 x 30 inches

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Youth

It is slipping away as time goes by. 

I can see it drive right past me in a nice shiny red car.

I can see it shouting at me and hailing me from afar.

"Come and get me!", it said.

I look at myself and I see an impoverished youth.

"What are you talking about?" they said "You don't look old".

It's not that kind of youth Im looking for, my friend.

My mind and spirit need an injection of vitality. 

My mind and spirit need to shed and regrow, again and again and again.

My mind and spirit need to run with all the change that is going on.

My youth is slipping away and I need to grab its tail before it is all gone.

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