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Five days sober 

and im stil not over you yet

you were my lover

now we’re drowning in life’s debt

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All these voices in my head

go silent when youre around

and the silence scares me

it reminds me of you

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I loved you

But you left

All these sounds

But I’m deaf

I can’t go back to all the pain we made

Its gone like you are

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Your like a fucking riptide

feels like I’ve died 

your currents pull me out to sea

I need you so desperately 

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i said no

you said yes

i said no

and you turned around and left

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10/11/16

Maybe there’s a point to this madness A glimmer of hope through sickness You told me to go and I went Look back is this what you meant? Maybe you’re right No need to fight Find myself In the middle of this hell The seasons now over Friends give me the cold shoulder The temperature drops It’s no longer hot And I have to stay high All the time To get you off my mind

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9/12/16

Its seems when youre vexed I cant get you with a text This is something you wanted me to do So here it is this is for you Here I am all out meds Being a pain for you and your friends I don’t know why I was pent up and mad And here I am leaving you sad Thise drugs kept me stable Now I feel like a tight pulled cable Ready to snap for no damn reason And now its late at night Regreting any reason to fight When im so damn mean do you like what you see? Please don’t leave I know what I didn wrong But I don’t know why It seems like we want to die I know you have a reason to be mad And no reason to forgive but please

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Tears

Look at my salted rain Born from an unknown pain

I can’t stop the tears from streaming down my face Going through old memories I’ve lost my place Come on pull it together no one can see me like this I would never hear the end of this

Music in front of me to dead to try To see if I can finally get it right

Sitting in this chair The emotions drown me In my own sadness Why am I such a mess

I don’t want to be in pain This feeling is too plain Am I going insane Am I snapping under some large strain?

Walking alone At the mecry of my own mind

Is this how you’ve been since I’ve left? When I took your heart like theft?

The tears are new I’ve only ever given few

You know I couldn’t cry Was that a lie?

I know nothing anymore What am I doing this for?

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Sleeping

I only wanna do one thing That thing is sleeping I won't be weeping Or reminiscing A place where words have no meaning Darkness within my dreams A world where i can no longer hurt The ones i cared for Why did you love me when all i do is lie How could you look at me when i wanted to die I only wanna do one thing That thing is sleeping I won't be weeping Or reminiscing I spend hours alseep and none awake Too afraid to be labeled as fake You say you cant sleep I can't get enough Im sorry for who i am I realize my mistakes I miss my best friend I've missed you since the end I only wanna do one thing That thing is sleeping I won't be weeping Or reminiscing

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She cared about me when you didn’t

You said i changed

i tried to make things right, or at least for just a while

I understand now

I now know what you meant when you said a somg hits too close to home. Now why dont we Get Scared?

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i gave up because i was living my Nightmare

i Cared but i had no energy left

i was drained trying to figure out Where We Went Wrong 

I understand now

I now know what you meant when you said a somg hits too close to home. Now why dont we Get Scared?

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You gave up before me

i simply pulled myself together and left

Need i tell you The Story So Far?

I understand now

I now know what you meant when you said a somg hits too close to home. Now why dont we Get Scared?

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I understand now

I now know what you meant when you said a song hits too close to home. Now why don’t we Get Scared?

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As i Walk In The Rain

Shit

Trash 

That’s all ill ever be

Liar

Freak

Oh look that’s me

Why cant i do anything right?

Is it me im trying to spite?

The rain brings me comfort in my time alone

The thoughts in my head they’re all monotone

“Step in front of the car no one will know”

These are my thoughts As i Walk In The Rain

Come on hop in on my joyride of pain

Its ok you don’t have to be sane

Just follow me As i Walk In The Rain

Split

Gash

Out pouring comes blood

Blister

Speaks

Come on Kill me

i feel like im losing my sight

Now all i wait for is deaths sweet bite.

Out comes pouring memories

Like the stars in the sky they’re all hard to see

Goddamn cant you see i don’t want to be

These are my thoughts As i Walk In The Rain

Come on hop in on my joyride of pain

Its ok you don’t have to be sane

Just follow me As i Walk In The Rain

Out of my legs comes pouring a deep dark red

Come on just fuck me up i need to be dead

iM JUST A LIL SHIT WHOS TOO FUCKED IN THE HEAD

COME ON SAY i WANT TO HEAR IT SAID

JUST PLEASE SAY i DESERVE TO BE DEAD

These are my thoughts As i Walk In The Rain

Come on hop in on my joyride of pain

Its ok you don’t have to be sane

Just follow me As i Walk In The Rain

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The past was a blast

oh how the might fell

oh how quickly time has passed

in our little pocket of hell

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Not Perfect

I can’t believe

That when you look at me

You find something good to see

Im not that good

im not that great

Just a little shit rolled up in so much fucking hate

Just give it time and and then youll see

Im not perfect

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Spinning

My head is spinning from the way you got me sinning laying in my bed When you choke me up it soaks me up emtotions running through my head Just let it be said when im with you i lose my desire to be dead The night brings a new side of you i never knew let the madness insue your body feels so right youre the only thing in my sight your seduction better than abduction dark skin pitch hair this war isnt fair nothing else compares My head is spinning from the way you got me sinning laying in my bed When you choke me up it soaks me up emtotions running through my head Just let it be said when im with you i lose my desire to be dead The night brings a new side of you i never knew let the madness insue your eyes leave me paralyzed still and stopped fingers around my neck its much more than a metaphor i havent felt this way before cant wait to see whats in store youve shown me a side of me i never knew i dont even know what you do