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     Exhaustion racks their body, from overwork as well as lack of sleep. Plagued by nightmares recently, ones of previous times they have been a part of. They’re jittery, hands trembling with the vague shake of their body. But there’s no time to rest.

     They can’t afford that.

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im home from work and reinstalling a game but lets see if i can get anything done between mikhael, kamui (@/ragesuffer) and ashura (@/outloathe)!

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ragesuffer‌:

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Mikhael has appeared!

What do you do?      >Woohoo      >Feed      >Run away      >Marry

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along with the ask call, lms if u want me to doodle your muse :0

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like for an ask, ill send them out when im on break :*

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mhyseria / CAMILLA‌:

   KINDNESS SPLAYS ITSELF across sweet, almost motherly features as she approaches, a slight skip to her graceful step. Stopping at the summoner’s side, one hand reaches to rest ‘pon a rather weary looking shoulder.  ❝ You look so down and gloomy today, Mikhael. ❞ She knows that she’s stating the obvious, but its her silent way of showing that she’s been paying attention to them, and cares enough to inquire about their well being.

          ❝ Are those new battle plans really a bother? I could help you, if you’d like. ❞

   @helsummon ・from  ☾

     “Ah-” The sound escapes them, startled out of their thoughts at the touch the Nohrian princess gives to their shoulder. Of course, they relax ( not by much ) noting that it is only Camilla and they find themself somewhat at ease around her. Not completely, given their tendency to dwell in their mind– on the lives they have lived and those who have died for and because of them in said lives.

     Camilla is one of them. Seeing her makes their chest clench tight, noting in one of the lines she had saved them, and at the cost of herself.

     Mikhael wants to shake their head, to rid the thought before they become further distressed ( as if they aren’t already ) before offering a tired- somewhat strained- smile.

     “Y- Yeah,” A gentle nod, which contrasts the crumpled papers between their fingers, “To the question and your offer, I mean– I would.. I would like that.”

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fensariru‌ / SHARENA:

@helsummon was asked a very tough question . ☆

       ‘ mikha… do… you think i died         before or after the rite began?? ’

     “I—” That is a question they had not expected, and it is a question that they find themself unable to answer. They cannot leave her without one though, which makes their gut twist uncomfortably with guilt. They cannot give her an answer because each time they have witnessed her death, it always interchanged. Some timelines it was before the rite. Others it was after.

     They remember that she was one of the few to die first.

     There is no definitive answer that the summoner can give to the princess. Their throat feels tight.

     “I- I’m not sure,” They finally manage to breathe out, dull eyes peeking open to look to the princess ( Mikhael is unsure of when they had squeezed them shut ), “If you had been dead for some time, in this world... perhaps it was before the rite?” Their voice inflects to speak the question, eyes falling downcast again.

     “Does... Does knowing that you died– does it trouble you?”

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nyways mikha ship biases while im here

feh- alfonse, bruno, hríd, laegjarn possibly. líf...

i havent played 1/3/11/12 but im open to ideas

fe2/15- lukas. conrad. im open to suggestion!

i havent played 4/5 but im open to ideas

i havent played 6 either

fe7- ninian. probably would ship them with lloyd n linus, both. im open to suggestion here too

fe8- eirika, ephraim. lyon n knoll probably. open to suggestion !

i havent played 9/10 or but im open to ideas

fe13- sumia, olivia, robin most likely. lonqu? mayb chrom.. again open to suggestion

fe14- kamui, thats it thats all ive thought so far for 14 but im fckinng open !!!

im takin suggestions. talk to m

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cant wait to get home from work tonight so i can destroy huxley

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@moonbrace said:  ‘ oh, what a privilege it is to matter to you. ’ / meme.

     Her words leave them silent for a moment, greyish eyes simply fixated upon the Renais princess. Slowly do their lips part, remaining open for a time before closing. Open again, close again. The summoner has no words and their throat feels tight, fingers holding firmer onto the princess’ hand. Privilege, she said but is that what it is? Was it so special to be something important to the summoner?

     But it is, so they realize. With the way they are distant, withdrawn. How they keep to themself, away from everyone.

     Yet Eirika has made it a habit to check on them. To make sure they are alright. To offer her ear when needed. And Mikhael thinks back to the timeline before- to the way their heart felt tight around the princess. To how it felt as though they could not breathe, but not out of fear but something different. Love, perhaps... A cruel thing for them to experience.

     Their eyes sting for a moment at the tears that well up in the corners, blinking them away as they hold tighter onto Eirika’s hand. Dull eyes look to her again, brow furrowing in their mild upset and somehow, Mikhael manages a smile. A smile that looks like it may crack any moment now, how their lips quiver in trying to keep it in place. A harsh swallow is made in their throat.

     “Eirika–” They wheeze for a second, trying to remain composed, “Of course, you matter to me,” You’ve always mattered to me. “If it seems like I- like you don’t, that isn’t it... There’s a lot– A lot running through my mind, I simply need time to think.” Another swallow and they squeeze her hand once more. 

     “You matter to me... more than you know.” And you will continue to matter to me, no matter what. Even when you don’t remember.

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spctlessminds‌:

‘  all i need is for you to stay by my side.  ’ ‘  all of the love songs remind me of you.  ’ ‘  all of the words in the world can’t show how much you mean to me.  ’ ‘  boy,  could i use your love  &  affection right now.  ’ ‘  concept:  we’re both awake at 4 a.m.  i call you to hear your sleepy voice.  ’ ‘  cute thing that you do:  the most stereotypical giggle  &  then hiding your face.  ’ ‘  don’t let this be temporary.  ’ ‘  don’t worry about me.  i just want to know you’re okay.  ’ ‘  every day i get to see your gorgeous face is a good day.  ’ ‘  everything about our relationship feels so natural  &  perfect.  ’ ‘  feelings change,  but mine about you won’t.  ’ ‘  hey,  guess what?  i love you.  ’ ‘  hold me tight  &  tell me you love me.  ’ ‘  i always daydream about living with you.  ’ ‘  i am so exhausted,  but i’d sleep so much better with your arms around me.  ’ ‘  i can’t help but imagine living with you years from now.  ’ ‘  i can’t keep setting fires to keep you warm.  ’ ‘  i could listen to you talk about the things you love forever.  ’ ‘  i don’t think i’ll ever stop wanting you.  ’ ‘  i don’t want those memories any more.  ’ ‘  i forget who  &  where i am when we kiss.  ’ ‘  i get that warm,  pleasant feeling in my chest when i’m with you.  ’ ‘  i hope with all my heart that you love me like i love you.  ’ ‘  i hope you feel the same way you make me feel.  ’ ‘  i just want to softly cuddle with you  &  count the freckles on your cheek  &  i want to run my fingers through your hair.  ’ ‘  i know it’s getting scary,  but you’ve just got your perfect self out of bed  &  do the best with what you’ve got.  i believe in you.  ’ ‘  i love looking into your squinted eyes while we laugh.  ’ ‘  i love when you give me little kisses on my hand  &  cheek  &  neck.  it makes me feel so loved.  ’ ‘  i never thought i’d deserve the love you give me.  ’ ‘  i think you’ve shown me what love really is.  ’ ‘  i want the only thing between our bodies to be our love.  ’ ‘  i want the only thing between our love to be our lips.  ’ ‘  i want to bury my face in the crook of your neck until we both fall asleep.  ’ ‘  i want to listen to the beautiful song of your voice for hours.  ’ ‘  i want to make you just as happy as you make me.  ’ ‘  i want to wake up to your smile.  ’ ‘  i want to wrap my arms around you at 3 a.m.  &  tell you i love you.  ’ ‘  i want you to be my yesterday,  my today,  &  my tomorrow.  ’ ‘  i want you.  ’ ‘  i will always love you.  even when you don’t think it’s a possibility,  i am going to love you.  ’ ‘  i would sleep so much better with you right next to me.  ’ ‘  if only you could see your angelic self from my perspective.  ’ ‘  if you frequently play with my hair,  i might just fall in love with you.  ’ ‘  it’s amazing feeling the warmth of your love.  ’ ‘  it’s okay to have a bad day every once in a while.  ’ ‘  it’s so much easier to fall asleep when you’re in bed next to me,  running your gentle fingers down my back while we softly smile at each other through the darkness.  ’ ‘  i’d wait a lifetime to be in your arms.  ’ ‘  i’m all yours.  always.  ’ ‘  i’m always going to support you.  without even a second thought,  i’ll be there when you need me.  i want what’s best for you.  ’ ‘  just knowing you’re there comforts me.  ’ ‘  just thinking about how you make me blush.  ’ ‘  keep in mind all the things that you have to look forward to,  babe.  ’ ‘  kiss me under the starry sky.  ’ ‘  let me know if you’re in love with me too.  ’ ‘  let today be the day that everything changes.  you are capable of so much.  ’ ‘  let’s go on a cute,  cliché date.  ’ ‘  let’s sleep together under the stars.  ’ ‘  make yourself  &  your own happiness you priority.  ’ ‘  make yourself happy before you worry about me.  ’ ‘  my kindness isn’t weakness.  ’ ‘  my new years resolution is for all our arguments to be settled because i know you’ll still have my love  ’ ‘  oh,  what a privilege it is to matter to you.  ’ ‘  our love could make flowers bloom int he dead of winter.  ’ ‘  pet names are my weakness.  ’ ‘  start setting boundaries.  enough is enough.  ’ ‘  thank you for caring like nobody else ever has.  ’ ‘  thank you for caring when nobody else has.  ’ ‘  the world is going to do something amazing for you.  ’ ‘  there are times to power through it  &  there are times to say no.  ’ ‘  when i look at the stars i can’t help but think of you.  ’ ‘  when you look at me,  the butterflies flutter.  ’ ‘  you are my happiness  &  you don’t even know it.  ’ ‘  you are my starlight.  ’ ‘  you are the one i’d do anything for.  ’ ‘  you are what puts my mind to rest when i can’t sleep.  ’ ‘  you don’t need anyone to rescue you.  you can do it all on your own,  babe.  i know you can.  ’ ‘  you feel like home.  ’ ‘  you have a smile that lights up my world.  ’ ‘  you have no idea how proud of you i am.  you’ve done so much for everyone.  thank you.  ’ ‘  you stole my heart,  but i’ll let you keep it.  ’ ‘  you’re made of stars  &  you’re my favorite constellation.  ’ ‘  you’re my favorite notification.  ’ ‘  you’re my home  &  i’m homesick.  ’ ‘  you’re not just your mistakes  &  you deserve to be happy.  ’ ‘  you’re so much more than good enough.  don’t ever doubt that.  ’ ‘  you’re soft  &  sweet  &  too good for me.  ’ ‘  you’re something special babe.  you can make a difference.  ’ ‘  you’re the happy part of my days.  ’ ‘  you’re the one i’m looking for.  ’ ‘  you’re the one thing i think about when i wake up every morning.  ’ ‘  you’re the reason why i want to get up every morning.  ’ ‘  you’re waking,  talking,  living,  loving poetry.  ’

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thinkin about mikhael gettin their beauty mark smooched 😔

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mikhaels loop always restarts when askr is completely ‘dead’ and cannot sustain life. mikhael blames themself for such a tragedy, in the original timeline, and hel has cursed them ( since she is capable of taking life, she is surely able to make someone reside within a purgatory- never dying and perpetually stuck ). its a sort of retribution and mikhael has attempted several times to change events in every timeline thereafter to stop the demise of askr and embla but it never works- everything ends up the same and its wearing heavily on them. constantly watching their friends be picked off one by one, witnessing the land die and then being summoned through breidablik again to watch it all happen over and over again.

mikhael wants to end the loops, so they can be free and so other timelines arent affected by such cruel fate. because mikhael assumes the timeline where everything finally goes right is the true timeline and finally they will be free from a limbo theyve spent countless of years in.

and they know once that happens they will be at peace and finally die along with the original timeline

im mobile but ive come to say that hel is aware of the loop, as well as líf and thrasir, that mikhael is stuck in. and when the loop finally comes to an end, mikhaels life will too.

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im mobile but ive come to say that hel is aware of the loop, as well as líf and thrasir, that mikhael is stuck in. and when the loop finally comes to an end, mikhaels life will too.

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❝ Alone again? ❞ Finding Mikhael is like a sixth sense to him -- for whatever reason, Alfonse is just incredibly lucky to be able to do so. He knows not the reason that the summoner prefers to be left alone, but there's just... something about it that makes it seem like Alfonse can help him. If they would just tell him, ❝ Would you like to walk with me? We can discuss what's on your mind if you'd like. ❞

     A gasp escapes the summoner upon being found by the Askr prince, dull eyes shifting to glance in his direction. It always seemed as though Alfonse had a penchant for finding them, and it makes Mikhael’s chest tighten at the thought. After all, there’s no way that Alfonse would really know of the places they take to hiding, to being alone by themself— but it gives them a semblance of hope that perhaps in this curse they live out, everyone subconsciously remembers something.

     They hope anyways.

     Their fingers tighten upon the rail of the balcony, lips parting just so at the proposition made to them. Mikhael ponders for a moment, letting one hand drop from the rail to turn on their heels to better face the prince. There’s still an ache in their chest, and their eyes fall downcast. No, is what they want to say. That they want to stay here. But they betray themself, looking back up and offering a somber smile to Alfonse.

     “Yes,” The summoner speaks, “I– I would like that.”