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A raindrop is more than just water

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i will never feel the same sort of shame, despondent worthlessness, and absolute embarrassment that i got from not attending an ivy

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now that i’ve lost it, let’s see how long it takes before it explodes.

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of fucking course i wasnt suited for mcgill in any capapcity, not social not mental not aademic. i cant een make it thru finals week, nor can i make it 20 minutes without pissing someone off. to think i entertained the notion of going to some highbrow place like chicago or harvard? what a fucking joke. im a fucking joke. i wouldve died there. ill probably die here too. im just crashing so hard

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did not think school would push me back to the bring of hurting myself so fast...

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even with everything ok in my life, i feel as aimless and tortured as ever before.

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i have never been this miserable in my entire life

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you are the dancing queen young and sweet, only seventeen

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for 18 years, i was a crusader of the idea that antisemitism doesnt exist in America till today at Georgetown, a totally normal, liberal WASP bud said the following:

“but, after all, what more can you expect from a jewish boy from brooklyn?”

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“Delicate line between heaven and earth…

The calm of the ages,

all the world’s worth.

Such minuscule measure,

while we think it so grand…

Just five specks of smallness,

This soft quiet land.

So frail and so fleeting,

in the end you will see

Simple dreams were Horatio’s philosophy.

For all the truth,

all creation,

all secrets of yore Can be told in an instant,

by then they’re no more.

Ah,

The Unexplainable All worries unsettled,

heartache unresolved…

All questions unanswered,

with death,

shall be solved.

We already teeter,

this sheer cliff so high.

When we fall to corruption,

insecurities die.

To end is to start;

to surrender is to know.

Despair and depression,

together they grow.

Hope shall meet hopeless when there’s nowhere to go.”

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So fucking true.

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So this kid fell asleep during class and he’s still there after school so we decided to play a prank on him

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Thoughts on turning 18:

the first part of this little play called life was underwhelming and poorly cast, to say the least. it's a miracle that part ended. is the whole show even necessary?

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just calcuated that i gained 130 lbs in high school haaa haaa haaaaaaa *cries*

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if any y'all got weird asks for me, someone decided to mess with me

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got me weak af.