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the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.

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i really don't want to mess this one up

this one is good and nice and respectful. please please please don't mess this up i tell myself. but dangerous thoughts of comparison creep at the edge of my mind.

i don't know how to be loved this way

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Vorhang zur seite

Da unten sind Menschen

Menschen die nicht mehr Menschen sind

Zombies?

Geister?

Leblose mit ein wenig Leben

Sie bauen ein Grüst

Sie kommen rein

Warum wir?

Wie kann das sein?

Sie schlagen gegen das Fenster

Wir rennen runter

Am besten raus

Aufgewacht

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oh how i long to fall in love again , to find that effortless smile , the heart on high , to feel like everything is right in the world because i love someone & they love me back . & all these sweet songs will feel ripped from my life , & the sun will take my face for his because all there is is light , light , warmth , everglow , this deep radiance of love everywhere . oh god , will you do this for me ? allow me love once more , the luck - to find someone i cannot bear to be apart from , to find inseparableness , a presence to look forward to , each & every day .

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Maybe he really just thought you didn’t have that much in common. And maybe you really didn’t. That’s ok. There’s someone out there who you won’t have to try to find things in common with. And maybe timing really did have a lot to do with it. And maybe one day it will be the right time for him and you won’t want it anymore. That’s good. There’s someone out there who will want you always, regardless of time or place. And maybe everything he said was a lie or maybe it really was true, but there’s someone out there who won’t ever make you wonder that. Someone is out there who won’t ever leave you unsure or insecure or wondering. There’s someone out there who is better in every single way.

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In meinen Ohren das piepen.

Lang und andauernd

Sie meinte wir hätten uns fast geküsst

Doch was bringt ein Kuss wenn wir es nicht schaffen

Wenn wir es nicht können

Wenn es einfach nicht passiert

Was bringt ein Kuss?

Du bist da du kommt zu mir und wir reden lachen

Und dann bist du weg

Für den ganzen abend

Bis zum Abschied

Und langsam denke ich

Will ich das?

Will ich dich?

Oder ist es jetzt egal?

Bist du auch nur ein Mensch?

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waters so amazing because you can drink it really sloppy style and like spill it all over yourself and it doesnt even leave a stain. you dont even have to wash it out/ . because its already washed

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I wonder if I'm ever stuck in someone's mind.

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Unter den Kirschen

An der Tafel

Du am Ende

Und ich in der Mitte

Zwischen den Menschen die ich liebe

Ohne dich

Wir sehen uns an

Immer und immer wieder

Jedenfalls glaube ich das ich deinen Blick spüre

Vielleicht ist es auch vorbei

Bevor es je begonnen hat

Spätestens im Juli

Weiß ich bescheid

Und bis dahin bleib ich einfach 22

Und warte was der Sommer sagt

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Sylvia Plath, from The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

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LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS LIFE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN YOU IT HOLDS YOU IN ITS HANDS

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You came into the room

With a smiles on your face

It lit up when you saw me

You at the end of the table

Too far to talk

Too far to joke

Playing cards and getting bored

You turn to me and ask

do you wanna play ?

I nod and get up

Now it's the same it's always been

But you are distant

In a way I can't describe

We lose

In the kitchen we joke

Laugh about it all

Is that you flirting ?

Or have I just lost my mind?

We say goodbye and

You say

see you in a few months!

And I say

that doesn't have to be that way

You ask for my number

But I gave it to you already

"You really wanna leave me standing without your number?"

I call myself from your phone

And on the way home

We text