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We did an opera-singing scene, and there was a dancing one too… I don’t know why it was never used. Maybe it was too funny.

Maggie Cheung & Tony Leung in a deleted scene for In the Mood For Love (2000) dir. Wong Kar-wai

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Nobuyoshi Araki, no Nise Nikki (Pseudo-Diary) - 1980

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From the series: "Reach And Touch Faith" [Experimental Photography; 2025] A collaboration with Strix, this new photo series is about whispered secrets in the shadows, tactile and mental contact, a moment in a veiled connection of skin and unspoken words. --- {Photographic Prints Available}

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vanessa on film // evie desmarais

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Philly museum, 2024.

I am drawn most often to isolated subjects in a scene, especially when including people. This is especially true of my concert work, but it’s also true of my walkaround photography. With my little Ricoh in hand, I saw a person walking down the stairs in white and took this at a mostly-too-slow shutter speed, but still came away happy with it.

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All this I'm expirienceing feels horribly wrong but righteous in same way and I don't know which is correct and what to believe into. Its like shedding an old skin but the good things also die off. Its part of the transformation and I want to accept it with gratitude for growing a new skin, but it feels horrible to be suffocating in between thoughs "is this right, should it look like this, what choice do i make". On one note, the sacrifices I've made brought me clarity of my past (in a way) but on the other note, maybe I'm too harsh to myself and I just killed my own desires for nothing. I'm scared that this Saturn return will leave me dead, not reborn

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Frank Cheyne Papé (1878-1972), ''The Well of Saint Clare'' by Anatole France, 1928

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Urbex by Paulo Abrantes https://www.artlimited.net/25050/art/photography-urbex-film-24x36-35mm-construction-urban/en/11942188

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Esquivez la matrice

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EDITION Gernot Schwarz - Ruhrort

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propaganda i am not falling for:

always moving on. some goodbyes need to rot a little. some griefs need to be held in the mouth like a stone.

beauty defined by algorithms. beauty exists in crow feet and smile lines

pretending to be chill. i’m not chill. i care deeply and inconveniently. i read into things. i write poems about eye contact

beige apartments with no soul. give me bookshelves and incense and loud art

sneaky links and unclear intentions. i want devotion. and also clarity

treating books as decor. read them. dog-ear them. argue with them in the margins

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Pina Menichelli in Giovanni Pastrone’s Il Fuoco (The Fire), 1915

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Man Ray - Nightgown by Annek, Harper's Bazaar, July 1937, from Man Ray, Bazaar Years by John Esten (1988)

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anatomy of the crowd, Mindaugas Buivydas

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