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:(

the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.

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Will quite literally never get over the fact that prince was watching new girl on tour, liked the show so much he told his people to get him on the show and then zooey thought it was a prank email. Prince even requested to be inserted into a jess/nick storyline 😭 he was so real for the fangirl behavior this is exactly how id act if i was a celebrity

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thinking about how ‘city with the brightest lights’ is a paradox—the brighter the city lights, the dimmer the stars are. and then ‘romanticise a dark city, you can’t find the light in the sun’ the sun is a star. you can’t find the light in the stars when the city itself is too bright. so bright it makes itself dark, in a way; the buildings so high emitting so much light in the darkness that during the day, the sun can’t penetrate to the ground. ‘burn too bright now the fire’s gone’ or something to that effect

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thinking about the decision to include better man on youngblood when it is undoubtedly the song that doesn't fit the theme of dissatisfaction and loss that all the other songs even and especially the bonus bonus tracks have. then to slap it right there in the middle, right where we're going to see it and listen to it--but in some ways it fits the theme perfectly. 'find me at a quarter to three, cigarette in my hand. i'd be at every party, i'd never miss a chance' being young. early 20s party culture, it's such an early 20s party album, hiding the pain and everything else going on behind fair weather friends and drinks and massive bops the album is absolutely packed with--when you look deeper, it's the only way to survive sometimes. it's if 'feeling 22' was a whole album. better man is if what if the person you're feeling 22 with ends up being a forever person? it's the other side of talk fast where you're hoping this will last but you don't expect it to--you don't know what's happening then you realise you've changed for the better. it's open eyes right at 23. it's a 'good girl saves bad boy' dream song stereotypical story it tells, but then you look deeper and it's just about being known. the highest high of them all, and you've tried every substance. it's about hope for everyone trying to numb their pain in the early 20s party scene that they're almost outgrowing--there is hope for you! simple solace in just being known and loved and you knew that all along didn't you? you'd just given up on it. and so i'm really glad better man was included on youngblood.

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when calum said "the blood in my veins is made up of mistakes"

when ashton said "burn the world to start over"

when luke said "I don't think I like me anymore, can someone tell me who I was before?"

when michael "if you need me, I'll be here with my emotions"

they were talking about me personally btw they told me themselves

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your touch is deadly and i wanna call

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—the city tends to move on all the same.

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Me Pretending I don’t care about TTPD so it comes faster

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LIARRRRRRR

All men do is lie

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War is over and the world is finally healing. I am also convinced him and louis talked!!

"I've been listening to quite a bit of One Direction lately, reminiscing ...good times... we made some good music, as a band, we were pretty good" -ZAYN

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~cleaning up today, found that old Zeppelin shirt~

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What a cutie💞

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poor luke just wanted to eat his lunch with his wife in peace & now he’s being called rude for being confused and weirded out. the internet rlly needs to touch grass or read a book or get a hobby or something like c’mon…

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He needs to stop being hot

Ashton with fans in LA the other night

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The vibe i bring to the function

Luke via IG Story