heybinnie

[heybinnie]

You're not being rude and it's perfectly understandable to not wanting it to have been a suicide. I hoped for that too. But eunwoo's and mj's letter and mj's post today pretty much point to suicide, which is heart-rending. Mj said in his post that bin was worried about the team and members until the last moment, so I'm sure he left at least some kind of message to some people, but unfortunately a lot of times the idea that people leave a note is false. I've had people close to me that tried to commit suicide and there was no note or anything. What you're feeling is real and sad. Bin was an amazing person. It's ok to be sad and not okay, for as long as you need. I miss him too

And I'd encourage you to ignore the people that say those vile things. They don't know what they're talking about and they can't even begin to imagine how much he must've been suffering, all alone, to take such a drastic decision when we know he was such a loving person. If he wasn't t ihose closest to him wouldn't be suffering as they are right now.

thank you for being kind. life has had me in a chokehold so as ugly as it sounds, i havent had much time to be angry about it, but now im thinking about it again and its still baffling to me.

im so sorry to hear about your friends’ attempts and i genuinely hope theyre doing better now. youre right, not everyone leaves a note, and i think i was still trying to make sense of his passing all those weeks ago. not that its gotten any easier …… but i guess i shouldnt spend so much time wondering about the why of it even to myself. harsh as this sounds, it is what it is (i say as i still struggle to come to terms with it) and life continues onwards.

[heybinnie]

We've come into a time where people all have their opinions and could never shut up about it. Sadly, those people that speak ill of him doesn't even know bin personally. Even the people who knows him personally and was close to him were surprised by what happened.

We were just fans who was inspired by their music or admire them from afar. Yet those people still put words in his mouth even in his death. I share your sentiments. I really hope it wasn't what most of us thinks, but even if it is, no one has the right to throw shade at him when we didn't know what he truly feels.

thank you for this. its just mindblowing to me that people could come up with such an insanely rude thing to say about someone who has passed. im glad that i havent seen any more of such terrible comments but every time im reminded of it i feel like punching a wall

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sanha’s message 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

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the message mj left . my heart shattered

[heybinnie]

이젠 내게 기대 편히 쉬어도 돼 // Now you can lean on me and rest in peace 소중한 널 내 품속에 꼭 안을게 // I will hold you dear in my arms

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Imma be resting easy in silence

Don’t you trip, baby. They just sirens.

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its nice seeing so so so many stories by all kinds of people remembering moonbin as one of the kindest and warmest idols they’ve met, how he was always eager to help others in his own way, putting others first, spotting little things he could help with. i would think this means a lot in the artiste industry, and its heartwarming that people remember him like this. brightly shining both on and off stage. its nice.

its not so nice remembering that hes gone.

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i miss him

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i still cant process this

[heybinnie]

charles baudelaire, les fleurs du mal

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i wake up and the headlines dont change

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im sure it will hit me again later and tomorrow and the next day and the next and the next ones after that, but while i am absolutely heartbroken by his passing, i am endlessly thankful and relieved to have found him and astro when i did, all those years ago. im glad i found him before he left.

ive always wanted to meet him at least once to tell him that it always felt like i was going thru life with a distant friend — but i suppose life works in curious ways, and now that chance is lost. he wont know how much hes helped me all these years, but still:

hey binnie, thank you for everything. i’ll miss you like crazy.