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funny thing about having this tumblr is she will probably never seen any of this i dont think anyone will that i know atleast so itll reallt help me get things out like i want without having to worry somedays things get so hard and it just doesnt matter but it does its hard talking bc it can be so anoying for no reason i miss her can’t believe what she did but who am i to say anything she deserves to experience life j mean what did i expect that she would kust keep her promises keep loving me ans only me? idk i hate it but i just cant what she did was horrible broke everything but can i blame her its all she had i knew ahed break as soon as someone gave her the attention or feel i couldnt as soon as someone offered shed take it and that i didnt mean anything really i was just someone who gave her everything i could and the attention she so desperately wanted and now im the one who got hurt again is it so much to ask to have one good thing can’t believe it im broke stuoud job running out of life in reality just dont know how to live my life right now guess i should kust go back to idk meshing days together and having no sense ans shutting things off again opened up so much just to end up closing it off again and for what bc a girl 1000 miles away kisses another dude she was my i guess wasnt mine she was whoever could give her that physical attention she wanted feel like she was never just mine everything special just an illusion i made to make myself feel happy in my life look at me now 18 no college job nothing just writing a stuoud blog post on a ahitty app for no one to see listing to sad songs like an idiot lmao jn so tired who knew the key to insomnia waa to get your soul broke to the point where all you wanna do is sleep to end the sday what a shithole of a world or lufe or decisions idk