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I hate that I just get random impulses to apologize. What am I apologizing for? I have no fucking idea but I sure as hell am sorry.

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I’m sorry I’m not you. I’m sorry you can’t just tell me that it’s over and I move straight on without a second thought of you, but I promise I’m trying, it’s just not that easy for me.

B.L letters I never sent (via im-sad-lets-have-sex)

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I started replacing my sad poems with sappy love words. I saw a shot of happiness and I dropped all of my progress and headed into your arms, forgetting the reason why I avoided love at all costs. I was blinded by you and your empty words, I believed you when you swore black and blue you were in love with me, but you don’t really walk away from those you love after all, do you? Everyone told me all along you were no good for me but I ignored the ones I was once closest to and naively believed you were different. Silly girl. Now I’m left lying awake crying myself to sleep with a heavy heart just like I used to, when will I learn no one can really love a broken girl.

B.L letters I never sent (via im-sad-lets-have-sex)

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When he slams the door in your face, it’s not a moment that’s going to escape your mind. It’s going to be right there, on the tip of your tongue, and the echo of the creaky hinges will reverberate endlessly, even in your dreams Because this love that you had with him was everywhere, All over your skin, inside your heart and soul, But the thing is, things that aren’t solid can evaporate into thin air And love isn’t fucking solid You can’t touch it, but somehow you can feel it So maybe that’s why he left He felt the love one day, but then the next it dissipated into the air and drifted away with the browning leaves on the ground And before you knew it, he had walked right out of your life again. So then you’ll cry and crawl into bed with your mind set on never coming out again Even though you know that in the morning, you’ll have to drag yourself out from under the covers, with eyes that are only half open and legs that never move when you tell them to, and pretend that you can live without him. But you’ll miss him, oh God you’ll miss him so much that it’ll hurt and you’ll beg him to come back for the thousandth time but all he’ll say is, “I’m sorry, but I just don’t love you anymore” And eventually waking up will get harder and harder because each day will feel endless And it’ll make you start to think, “Well, if he won’t come back, then I guess I’ll just go” And then you’ll disappear Right into thin air Because you were never solid, You were always made of tears and veins and broken hearts, And he was the only thing that ever made you whole But now that he’s gone you’re not a person anymore You’re just a mess.

this love fucking killed you (via weaksorry)

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“I still firmly believe that the best thing I could have done for my daughter was to give her a family. I don’t have the means to provide the stable environment that she deserves. What she has with her adoptive parents is perfect. I could not have chosen a better family for her.

I will never forget the day I left the hospital. My daughter’s adoptive mother came into my room crying. She told me she felt like she was stealing her away from me. I told her that was ridiculous. From the moment I met her, I knew that she was the perfect mother for my daughter.

I am so thankful that my daughter’s parents are willing to have an open adoption, and that they seem to genuinely want me to be a part of her life, but I can’t help but wonder if that will continue when she’s older. I always have this fear in the back of my mind that they will change their minds, or worse, that she will decide she doesn’t want to know me.” -Jessica

Hillary M. Jones Photography Birthmother Series//2015

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Why ain’t any of y'all fake feminist talking about the amazing thing Amber Rose is doing right now?

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WHEN SOMEONE CHALLENGES MY THESIS

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kinda hurt kinda offended kinda not planning on saying anything about it

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As we enter day two of MegaCon in Orlando, FL, I wanted to post a few photos of my cosplay as Popuri from The Harvest Moon games. I decided to go with the N64 version since I couldn’t find a good/cute enough chicken as a prop. My wig has since become more and more disheveled from our lovely Florida weather, but at least I have some good shots of it beforehand.

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Okay after this I PROMISE no more Popuri cosplay pics :) but I just had to!

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Our bodies could be skin on skin and I’d still pull you closer.

(via lady-kadaver)

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Found another #albumen print of mine on twitter up at Woodend Creative for the Wish You Were Here exhibition! I don't know how many of mine they used, but that's 3 so far! Thanks @angelchalmers for getting me involved!

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Floral kimonos and pale legs