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steelseries arctis 7 no sound debug

yo hoenstly i have no idea how it got fixed.

at one point i was fucking restarting everything, checked the driver and everythign nothing. checked to make sure that the sound output was correct. nothing. tried all types of shit on the headphone buttons still nothing. even tried to plug in wired headphones in the computer, still nothing.

then i tried the microsoft support get help thing and it diagnosed saying i needed to update my drivers. i went in the device manager to update the drivers but... it said everything is most up to date... ok...

then i opened up the SteelSeries GG console and then set the output to "Headphones (SteelSeries Arctis 7X)" ......... that was def not there before....... i definitely saw that and saw it getting sound bars meaning there was input but the output wasnt happening...... idunno yo. i have sound now so fuck it

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Bloomberg pt3

the RTO 3-days/week begins.

i think the key to a productive week is going to be those 2 wfh days. thats the post covid workschedule. thanks to the covid19 earth update thats what i got from it. thanks god i survived and pretty much everyone i know survived would have sucked to lose someone to it. wow i dont think i heard anyone that even my friends know die from it.

anyways so those two wfh days are f key. those are the 2 days u get to recharge in whatever way you need so that those 3 days in office are legit too. the only points in those 3 days is that you get to run into people on ur team and chat. thats the biggest gain from it. and its fucking definitely working. when you can just have a face to face convo about shit ur working on and how to fix it. everyone is looking their best and we are all on the same mindset of making this shit work. one good example of the gain is when i met sridhar. on camera that dude was this old ass halabuhj who just barked orders at people. but it was kinda cool to meet w him in person. his charm def showed and i see why he has his position. got that charizzma.

so i need to figure out what to do w those 2 days. i think those are gym days and cooking. and like the late night workers hours days. the other three when im in the office i should prob try to be as social as possible. maybe even plan an afterwork/during work event to go to everytime/week whatever.

holy shit i got insanely side tracked.

yeah i think im done here though

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Bloomberg pt2

First week of Actual work at bloomberg. Actually did something useful rather than doing some BS training that basically reminded me of SCHOOL. I fucking. HATED school. That just is Not the way that i learn. Yeah.. you could tell me a bunch of useful information about different topics, but if I'm not chasing after the knowledge with the thirst and passionate curiosity and pain of not-knowing, then im just not going to retain any of the things that were taught. At best I will remember that 'oh yeah i think i heard someone talk about that at one time'

Definitely something I learned is that the way I learn.. or at least the way that i should adapt to the school-curriculum method of teaching is to get from the lectures the answers to Where i can find the answer when i search for it with thirst later on. When i have the pain of notknowing and get the answer, at that point that shit sticks. I guess i could also go into the lectures with the thirst, but that would mean i sort of checked out what i was going to be learning ab.

So bloomberg HR (i guess) blocked off 2 weeks of time for me to do training. By the start of the 2nd week though i was so friggin bored that i started looking into someone else's Developer Request (DRQS<GO>). I pretty much already figured out how to do it within 2 days, but that nigga hasnt even touch it yet. i wonder if hes working on much bigger thing already. i have a feeling im pretty much going to be "cleaning the dishes" for the next couple of months. And honestly im totally ok with that. Itll give me a good opportunity to learn about how to be productive at Bloomberg and how things work there.

Once im at the point where i stop asking/not knowing every little detail and tool that i need to be a dev, then thats when ill be ready for something bigger and more complicated. Also... fucking they need someone to clean the dishes... that shit is so buggy. CUZ WE DONT HAVEA QA TEAM!!!!! fucking unbelievable. Whenever I asked about testing they all are jsut like 'yeah... u just gotta do it'... i mean yeah its a frontend framework so its possible but... i dunno the developer is going to miss shit.

So now that im IN IT.... it is definitely time to start the next "venture"... dating. Time to think and plan for that.

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Bloooomberrrg

Yup.

I got accepted an offer from bloomberg late june. 220k + 50k /year and 15k signing. noooot baaaad.

these final 2 weeks at Arkadium are so boring holy crap i Really dont give a rat's ASS about anyting LOL. its like kinda bad cuz i feel like im developing some bad work ethic habits. whatever. i bought a bunch of new clothes from theory and cos so mebe if i start up the routine of going into the office ill be good. only thing that worries me is if they dont give me a FAT laptop. imma be pretty pissed yo hm...

but yah finally some very good news id say. especially cuz the start of the year was so damn rough with the wrist and shit. wrist still sucks but i think thats just.. is it. im supposed to start up OT again for strength training but i think imma hold off until the new job settles.

IN OTHER NEWS. i have a new crush LOL. f girl is MARRIED though...... so wack yo. shes def MAAAD my type. even chris said 'yeah as soon as i saw that girl i thought she is def eric's type' but guess what bro. married. ugh. i was like checking out her old ig posts and shit... ugh. BAD LOL. i need a new girl ASAP. time to be bloomberg oppa lezgo

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Wrist Update

Still sucks. lol

friggin caught covid the DAY/night that nyc lifted its vaccine check and mask mandates. coincidence??? well i also shared a vape with alice that cute little... BITCH gave me corona. It Had to have been her. legit everyone at the table at den social was fine Except me. legit the only thing that i did differently i think.. but then i see her insta posts and shes friggin fine. like in hawaii and shit. dafuq am i really that weak. gdi.

yah so cuz of covid i had to pause going to occupational therapy for 3 weeksish. my wrist is stiff bruh. def feels weird. i resume tomorrow so hopefully we can get this going.

but yah aside from wrist. i been grinding leetcode. time to start interviewing some some D-tier companies to see what options i have and practice coding interviews for the big leagues... LETS GO

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Keychron

yeah my wrist is still majorly fucked and ugh.. ive accepted that its going to be iike this for a fucking Year. although im still in disbelief that i can be that unlucky for this to happen.

giving me a lot of time to think about stuff like life and how people go through shit in life. like appas stomach is majorly fucked and well... he might get stomach cancer... umma? her lungs are fucked like eebbeunee halmeh. like after hearing his diagnosis, appa seems fine but theres no way that doesnt hit you emotionally.

i guess its a part of growing up to understand that life is hard for other people in different ways.

anwyays yeah i got a keychron k2 v2 cuz i got bored LOL. maybe noona will like it once she tries it out. get her into the mechanical keyboard game.

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What. Do you want?

p sure that was the defining line in TheNotebook and then the girl is like "errhhhmerrgerrrdf i dunnooo"

yahnah. i Do know what i want. and i guess i shouldnt be scared of trying to get it especially because these things that i want are so important to me that even if i fail, im going to keep trying until i succeed.

financial security/safety. working at a big tech will def gimme that. my goal is def google. they seem the least evil of the 3 or 4 i would consider. although.. amazon is trying to be better too..

fam. healthy parents and noona, happy wife, healthful children. the priorities will def change but yah. this is definitely the most important thing in my life. i dont really know what else is more worth living and dying for

ofc friends and being well connected... but i feel like thats just a sub-category of family. maybe this is important cuz it might help me get the other two..?

ofc my own health.

Gotta have some fun in life too.. cant stop discovering things ab myself and learning what things in life trigger emotions in me right?

what else yo. thats like it. after that. u just like.... die... my goodness. i mean after that i guess its ab the "living life" part. exploring traveling learning, but those things i feel arent necessarily things that i need to work for. those are almost the rewards.

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sad

wow my life took such a turn after the whole “i need to know phase”

well i found out but i did a terrible job instilling any kind of feeling for her towards me so she not interested.

but thats like such a small portion of my sadness.

fucking. my wrist. is demolished.  FUCK FLAG FOOTBALL.  i fucking tried to make a play on a runaway guy to grab his flag but i fell on my wrist HARD. got fucking surgery... now i just have to hope it heals well.  ill find out on monday how well its healing and the whole procedure... UGH FUCK THIS.

this is essentially my life now is just DEALING with this wrist shit.  especially until i can take the cast off which should be around 6 weeks... that puts me in f like mid-late january.

this is probably one of the lowest points of my life considering i turned 30, already got stitches in my right eyebrow from flag football... and then the very next game i demolish my wrist... fuck flag football. i used to love it with a passion. now i hate it with a passion. like a bad breakup.

considering i legit cant really do much ive been thinking a lot about growing up and what Really is important in my life.. ezily i am reminded that family is #1. my two amazing and loving parents were there for me yet again.  feeding me, keeping me company through this shit.  there are definitely worse things to have happen to me but... its just that i was on my way out of flag football already and the last thing i wanted was a serious injury........ biiiig sigh... tore fuckin 3 ligaments And broke a bone. wrist injuries are f scary and severe...

my 30s are off to such a rough start gattdamn.

i really need to live more carefully so that these life altering accidents dont happen.  my life can be so good.  i want it to be good again.

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i need to know

always a curious guy.

i Need to know how much i can get. if i can get more.

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about a girl

so i been single for like what 5? years now. maybe 4.  either way lots of fun u know.. being a fccboi and shit. yah great.  met lots of new people made lots of new friends. met some girls that were going Through some shit, met some who were just wanting to have fun, met some who were happy, met some who were dating and seemingly out of reach(?) like i wouldnt even look at them the same way i look at girls who are at the club or something.  pretty much just treat them as a complete friend.  pretty much befriending the Couple as opposed to the individual girl.

and then one of those girls becomes single... and then all of a sudden i become shy LOL. it feels so different.  this isnt like the ‘oh shit what am i gunna say to that girl who im making eye contact with at the club’ kind of shy. this is like some innocent fucking 1st grade crush type of shy.  i legit dont think ive felt this crush feeling since like the 1st grade.  LOLsocute.

so yeah i just need to log how im feeling right now cuz its pretty different for sure.  like definitely the heart ache thing right? theres some sort of like.. caving-in? type feeling going on. like ur longing for something/one i guess.  and like the emotions are inSane rn.  theres an insane mix of anger, angst, longing, sadness, regret(or more like wondering if somethign happened or i shoulda done something or if i missed somethign), definitely some confusion.  definitely a Lot of energy LOL but its like uncontrolled chaotic energy that i cant always focus.  normally when i feel emotional about whatever, ill be able to Focus that energy into being productive.  so if im panicking about something ill Focus my energy into solving the issue or whatever. but rn its like.. what can i even do yo.  if i keep pushing the topic thats Verybad.  i think i legit just have to chill..... but how the F am i supposed to do that when i keep thinking about this girl yo LOLdamn.  

like before i started feeling this way i would what. watch twitch streams of random chicks, maybe insta, watch some shows or somethign i dunno. but now like i dont want Any of that. wow. im going fucking crazy yo. i am definteely thinkin gab this girl.. way too much.. like this sunday? for our double header in flag football? holy shit im going to absolutely deMolish some mother fuckers.  what else am i gunna do with all this energy? f.

and like theres even another girl who i met like once or twice before and i think i promised her i would meet up with her this week but like. is it even fair to her? i def should let her know what my situation is i guess.... hm.... am i.... that girl to this girl...? LOL... i Really hope not. cuz if i find out that theres another guy (which is Definitely possible.  this girl is a Catch yo.) id be prrrrrrtty f bummed out.  yikes. if i hear that news... hm.. i dunno whats gunna happen to me and how imma act.

i mean what else could i have expected. she Just recently broke up w a guy who was very srs and almost married and then what comes this dude (me).  just Some Guy.  interesting this is--- i dunno if anything changes.

oh wow i need to provide some backstory LOL.  took a girl out on 1 date. met up at a party night after. she sends Long text. ab how like she just broke up w srs relationship prob wants to be w herself or like meet other guys (i think?)... hm...

what. am i supposed to do yo.  like what other outcome even was there?  the Day i saw her for our date i could already see on her face that she was like sorta unsure about if she even wanted to be there. like ive seen girls who were looking Forward to the date and how they look when they see me.  that was Not the look on this girls face LOL. i mean we still had a good time and stuff but it definitely wasnt like any of the dates i took girls out who i Knew we were both uh... whats the best way to say this.... we both knew we were both interested in each other and uh.. yeah.  i definitely had to be more careful w this girl just cuz we had mutual friends so LOL theres no f way im doing the same shit i am doing to other girls with this close friend group girl.

i guess i sorta do regret (only a little) not asking more about her dating preferences cuz that helps me understand where her mind is at. but i was also sorta confused i guess.  wasnt exactly sure how i even felt about her. so that first date was sorta more for me to figure my shit out.  i guess i was really hoping there would be a second date so that i could figure out how She felt... but now maybe there wont be a chance. at least not for a while.  unless its like we just meeting up as friends but.... i dunno i wonder if she would be down for that hm.

i def need to find a way to figure out if she actually is not interested at all anymore. cuz if thats the case then aite gg. but if thats not the case then hm....

FFFFFFF. fun stuff.

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Faster Computer

I want a faster computer.

I remember saying that a lot when I was younger.  It was almost always synonymous with I want a new computer.  Newer stuff is usually faster and better.

But now that I shopped for my first pc build and am about to build a pc for the first time in my life, I learned a lot about how to make your computer ‘faster’ and that there are so many different things that can becOme ‘faster.’

1. Internet speed - this of course is something that you can pay for outside of a pc build.  The ‘faster’ internet you have, the better your streaming and internet-reliant computer use is going to be.  Games, video streaming, downloading, all that good stuff.  But just because you have the top of the top in terms of internet speed provided by your internet service provider (ISP) like Verizon FIOS, Spectrum, Time Warner, RCN, and so on, it doesn’t mean that your computer is capable of Handling this ultra fast internet speed.  It’s like you have an OJ juicer and you are providing lots of oranges (gigabytes per second), but the speed of the juicer is limiting the amount of OJ (content like video streaming) you can produce.

so how do you make sure your OJ juicer can be ‘faster’? you have to upgrade your computer.

2. CPU - this is largely what you need to upgrade and focus on when you want to make your computer faster.  It’s the brains of the computer.  It’s what does all the math and calculations.  Think about all the 1s and 0s that need to be processed whenever you do something on your computer.  That’s all handled by your CPU.  The better your CPU, the faster your computer is going to be.

3. Monitor - Your monitor can actually become ‘faster’ as well.  Well not really. The more proper word would be ‘smoother’.  Everything on your monitor is going to look smoother if you get a monitor that has a higher refresh rate and faster response time.  Most monitors probably have a 60Hz refresh rate.  If you ever go into an electronics store with monitors, you can compare a 60Hz to a 144Hz monitor and feel the difference for yourself.  To put this into perspective, most gaming monitors are at Least 144Hz because the player needs to have a ‘fast’ monitor that renders instantaneous changes to their screen so that they can react more quickly to in-game situations.

I also want to mention that the stuff you see on your monitor is linked to your graphics card, but I don’t really want to say that your graphics card is what makes things faster, it’s more what makes things prettier.  So technically it makes prettier things faster.  Like for video games, if you are playing on high resolution, you need a ‘faster’, better graphics card that can handle the resolution or else your computer is not going to be able to handle it and the game is going to feel ‘slow.’

4. Drive - If you want your computer to start, restart, and turn off faster, you need to get a Solid State Drive (SSD) as opposed to a Hard Disk Drive (HDD).  The way SSDs work allows it to work faster than the HDD.

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The Perfect Weekend

Ur busy all week and shit and you kinda just need to chill and have some fun.  ur probably Bored and in good health.  You need a ‘the perfect weekend’.

I thought of this when i was going out a lot sometime last year in the summer when i was still living at my parents apartment.  i was wondering what made some weekends better than others.  of course we got the ‘night on the prowl’ type weekends where its like just me and one or two more fuccbois and those nights can be fun whether or not u get lucky.  we also got the nights where u get a table with a group of friends cuz maybe its someones birthday.  u might also have the kind of night where u dont go too crazy and u just take it a little easy with some friends.

i think, though, that the perfect weekend doesnt care about Where ur chilling or How ur chilling. its about the people ur chilling With.  it fucking is always about the people.

Whats key here is that ur chilling with three types of Friends.  

1. Good friends: these are ur bros. ur go-to guys that u cant live without. of course they need to be there for u to have a perfect weekend, otherwise it would just feel like something Major is missing in ur weekend.

2. New friends: most likely to be different depending on where ur chilling.  if its a birthday thing, then yeah ur gunna meet ur friend’s friends who will now be ur new friends.  otherwise if ur prowlin...... yeh. go make some new friends. but make sure theyre cute or at least have cute friends.

3. Old friends: this is probably the most important one.  i think it also has to be unexpected.  like ‘ooooohhh shiit yooooo’ type of deal.  one time i Knew an old friend was going to a party because of the guest list thing and it just wasnt the same as being surprised to see an old friend.  That’s a pretty good feeling.  cuz then u can catch up and blablabla maybe he/she has a cute friend which might then lead to rule #2.  It’s always good to see that someone you were close with in the past is doing well even if ur life drifted u guys apart.  i really dont like how life does that sometimes. especially because i like to make Brothers, not just friends.  i like to think that im making bonds that last a lifetime, but sometimes life just... doesnt let me do that.  thats probably why it feels so sweet to see old friends again and is why its an important factor to having a perfect weekend.

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I Forgot I’m Mortal

This was actually a shower thought which started from appreciating how incredibly happy i feel.  Im living in one of the, and arguably The best, places to live in the world today, my family is fairly well off, i got somewhat of a career going, im young, i have some good friends, all this good stuff. And then i remembered that all of it is going to disappear one day... because i am not immortal.  ThAt is a sad thought.  Not because I didn’t know it already, but because of how amazingly happy i feel right now and to think that its just go away one day.  I wont even be able to feel the beautiful sadness i feel right now thinking about it.. it would just be nothing..

really makes me reconsider all those phrases: carpe diem, YOLO, no ragrats...lol. 

But going back to why i feel so happy and can appreciate life so fully.  its mostly has to do with God and how God created or IS everything.  When I think about how religions try to portray God, it’s a little ridiculous to claim that they know that God is some being when there’s absolutely Zero fucking proof.  Not denying that its possible though.  What I am saying though is that God might also just be Everything that exists.  When I think about everything in the whole universe is happening because of some Entropy or energy or u might say its because atoms and electrons are moving and reacting.  But WHY are those electrons and smaller particles reacting and moving with such Life?  Why don’t they just stay the fuck still and make it so the whole universe just stops as it is right now.  Why do they even or How do they even exist in the first fucking place?  It’s cuz God is good.  and i am so damn thankful to God that I can feel such happiness.  That i can even appreciate feeling such happiness.  The atoms that make up who i am coulda just been some rock or plant.  But nah.  Im a human being living in one of the greatest places with a solid foundation.  Thank God.

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Problem Solver

I think im a pretty good problem solver.  i consider myself one. but the best problem solver is just a guy with a lot of money because money solves the important problems.  Our life problems.  i keep thinking about how i need to grow up to take care of my family because i will probably have to take care of some adult ass shit considering my sister doesn’t seem to want to live up to the task.  she still wants to hold on to the free spirited mind of a youth and im pretty sure shes in deep denial about her aging.  i think she realizes somewhere deep down too but shes scared or something and doesnt want to face it.  

yo so fuckin i gotta grow up fast.  and make money fast cuz im behind which means im causing more problems than i am solving.  i feel like the rat race is really just the ultimate game where money is the points.  i Have been getting pretty bored of the video games that used to entertain me for hours.  i think its time to transition into the ultimate game.

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expanding Old Mode

Old Mode is this thing that i thought of for making web pages more readable and more user-friendly for older folks (i.e. my dad).  He specified having LARGE text and only a few buttons that are also LARGE.  He always does that old man thing where his eyes are like Not near-sighted and he has to move the thing hes trying to see further away from his face.  So what about when hes looking at a webpage.  I feel like 99% of the people who are heavy internet users are mostly youngins who can appreciate cool CSS and JS scripts with neat-o functionality and movements, but probly not so much for older folk, or even people who are on a mission to get something specific from a webpage instead of having to be distracted by all the flashy shit.

So the problem in question here is that All webpages are preset and non-customizable.  Some webpages are designed perfectly and are fine just as they are; not too much flash, minimalism achieved, wouldnt really wanna change anything about it.  Other websites can use some help though.  

What if there was a way for clients/users of the webpage to interact with every single webpage in a format that theyre used to, or even that they simply prefer.

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what to do..

with my life..

theres always this devastatingly horrid realization that i have where ‘everything is meaningless, we are just random bits and pieces of stars so who gives a shit. nobody.’ and then i circle back to ‘well the stars lined up so perfectly that we have this amazing thing called life. why not live it and make it amazing.’  so yeah... i guess i should just ignore the whole, life is meaningless thing because why would you waste life even if its meaningless.  why not try to fill it with a bunch of cool shit, including the work that you do.  

so in the end. i sorta liked my old job cuz the work was cool and i worked with cool technology. but i didnt like pretty much... everything else.  the people were very nice and cool, but they were old and not as exciting and i just didnt feel like i made a strong connection with Anyone there.  the pay was meh.  the outlook was actually pretty good i guess, but certainly the location was the worst.  bumblefuck pennsylvania.  why the fuck did i decide to go there.  i mean i guess i was just desperate for a job.  got 2 years work experience under my belt, exposed to different aspects of corporate life.

now its time to get another job.  im not confident that i will be able to achieve my dream job (whatever that is now) so imma just get a job that pays well, is in a great location-dude this is so important. ReallyReally determines the quality of your life because it will determine who you are around, what stores and things are around you, ultimately shaping the type of life that you can have both inside and outside the office-has the right coworkers that i can connect with, and hopefully is work that works towards a vision that i believe in..or at least that i can see.

i gotta go to more networking events to see whats out there... well first off i guess i gotta get my ass into a coding bootcamp so that i have some skills and projects under my belt.

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Journal 1

So this one is gunna be alittle differnet from the other shit that i was posting up, which was way more of me trying to sound like some aristotle philosopher.  This shit is basically just me journaling whats happening in my life right now because whats happening in my life right now deinitely isnt just some boring, drone ass life type shit.  In fact its pretty much the exact opposite.  Mother fucking exciting as fuck times right now.  Definitely one of the peaks of my life I would say in terms of figuring out who I am, growing up into an adult, having some fracking fun (holy shit bruv.  lots of fun), and yeah doing some other stuff but mostly figuring out my shit like career and what i want out of life and who i am as an adult i guess. 

So the thign that really brought all of this on was me quitting my job at Morgan Advanced MAterials - Diamonex.  I quit cuz my life working there was boring as SHIT son hoooly fuck that shit was not fun outside of doing my job.  My job was great fun (sorta) cuz im basically just an engineer getting paid some good money to just fuck around and discover shit, break shit, fix shit, and dude... I got to mess around with plasma guns and ion guns and shit.  Cool ass technology.  Anyways it was all fun and games but the people I worked with were old as fuck so they never went out for happy hour (not that we could go anywhere cuz NOTHING was there since we were in the middle of fracking nowhere PA).  Also, I didnt have friends over there and I didnt want to try That hard to make new friends.  I guess you could say that life is much easier here because my friends and family are already here (my network).

Yea ok I quit.  And theeen funemployment began.  Pretty mcuh living a dream life right now where I dont work, I fuck around sometimes, try to find jobs or whatever and most importantly i have a funemployment crew where a bunch of my other delinquent friends are being rascals and running around for fun. 

So why am I writing this.  Because right now, you can defintely say that Im going through some shit where im trying to figure my shit out.  And in the future, when i have my shit figured out and maybe living somewhat of a drone life, i can look back and read this and connect to the time of MY LIFE right now that im having through all of the stress and emotions brought on by not yet having my shit figured out.  I keep thignking about that cartoon picture of a rubix cube head man in a suit where his rubix cube head is sovled, looking at a picture of himself when he was younger with a rubix cube head that is all messsed up.  Im the messed up rubix cube head right now and i guess me writing this journal is kind of like taking a picture that i can look at in the future. Also... I just took a shower so im too hot right now to fall asleep. 

Anyways I went out last night to hang out with sangs dental school friends.  bunch of cool ass kids and good amount of cute chicks too, didnt see anyone ridiculously astonishing, but definitely cute enough for me to have fun talking to.  And then we went to this place called Cielo - suuuux.  and then we went to Circle because this latina chick whos super into kpop wanted to go.  Circle is pretty legit.  I;m glad that im at the state right now where i can still enjoy circle. cuz people are always saying fuck circle and fuck maru cuz they go there all the time.  but nah not for me.  i only go when i wanna have fun and get RIGGITY RIGGITY WREEECKED SOOOON.  Oh yeah i ran into hyunjin kim from hs (charless ex) and two of her friends who i think were cute.  i was prrrrtty wrecked at that point cuz i drank a good amount at the pregame in washington heights with sangs dental school friends.  and then what did i drink.... ooooh no i messed up so sang susan (dkimtrogz hyungs ex) and amy (latina) went to woorijip to get some cheap drinks and Theeen we went to circle and thats why i was so wrecked.  oh yeah at some point i did some bumps but i dunno yet.. not sure exactly what it does like i wonder if anythign would be different if i just placebod myself into thinking i did it.

anyways imma watch some rick and morty cuz this show is fucking awesome.

i was gunna write some more about what i wanted to do with my life, but id rather watch this show and then fall asleep.  but real quick so i remind myself what to write next time about what i wanna do with my life.  Basically... im not a genius so i cant learn how to do shit in 3 seconds.  so its gunna take time and im gunna have to commit to something.  im wondeirng if i could become the 2 types of gods that i want to become: coding/programming and 3d printing...

so u can make money with job/career as someone with skills in programming. and then i can fund myself to selfteach 3d printing?? maybe drones and stuff?? hmmm