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Stop being mean to me I’ve got eyes and I’m not afraid to cry

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from zurichfilmfest' twitter - january 14, 2025

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SEBASTIAN STAN Variety Cover Story 2024

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Want you back - NH

Author note: wrote this while I was listening to the New song of 5SOS Want You Back (haven’t you listen yet? Listen here) every feedback it’s appreciate. Also I’ll be posting something to help Smaller Niall’s blogs so stay time :) enjoy 💕

Their break up was friendly, Niall hugged her tight and left a kiss on her cheek as he left.

She’s doing great (Niall could say based on her instagram posts) not sign of broken heart, or resentments on her social media towards him.

Niall is lately not trusting his brain anymore. He wants her back.

He’s hasn’t over her yet.

He can feel in his fingerprints the smoothness of her skin, when he was just holding her in the street. He can still remember every freckle on her back and how he loves to count every of them; his favourite activity he can say.

But he remembers her white long shirt, her black jeans and stilettos, her hair flying with the summer wind from London that day. Her smile was radiantly when she reach Niall’s spot.

“What’s wrong? I left as soon I see your desperate text”

“Shall we go inside?” was his only response.

She nods and get into the empty coffee, strange for a Wednesday noon but not surprised because everyone was enjoying the summer.

Niall stare at her a few minutes more, when he took a deep breath and without a glance to her, spoke.

“We should break up, love”

“Hmm? Can i know why?” She wasn’t shocked, but impressed.

“The tour is about to start and we won’t have time for ourselves anymore, your college its going harder and harder everytime and would be hard to keep in touch” he tried so bad to explain himself.

She seems to get the point though cuz nodded at his direction and start the window a few minutes.

“Guess you’re right. I was afraid to freak out the day after you’re gone. Glad you did it earlier though.”

This time, Niall was in shock. She is not going to cry? To tell him he’s the biggest garbage in world? He doesn’t deserve nothing but being buried in hell? She is just…letting him go?

Then, was all whirlwind going down.

After their goodbyes, Niall drive back home, get ready for the upcoming tour and forget about the strange break up with his long term girlfriend.

Until they were on break.

The first leg of the tour was all done successfully, every night was a different adventure for Niall, enjoying with his mates and doing what he loves more - singing.

When the break came, he spend most of his days, buried in a routine that consists: sleep until midday, eat some takeaway, sleep a bit more, catch up some telly and goes back to sleep.

He considers himself a hermit a full week, when they friends drag him into a club night, he had gotten into the conclusion that he miss her.

After their break up he haven’t had the chance to miss her, with the tour around the corner and a lot of things in his head, he cannot let himself miss her.

Although. He started to stalk her deeply every day, wanting to know how she was doing without him.

When he realizes how happy she was, without him he realizes how unhappy was he without her.

So one night, he swallowed his pride (because let’s remember he left her) and texted her.

“Hey. How are ya ?”

The response hasn’t come until the next day at noon.

“Hey there, sorry for the late reply. I’m in Ibiza with some friends enjoying the summer. Saw that everything it’s going perfectly with you though”

He figured out that he left her the past summer, so they’ve been apart almost a year.

“Yeah. Thought ya were for London and wanted to invited ya some pints but see ya r not here so have fun” was his response.

He locked his phone, stare himself in the black mirror, and was totally sure that he worst mistake was cut everything with her.

Another night, a few months later, he was working his ass off in the gym when a known brunette ran into him, both sweating and smelly.

“Hey! You! I’m sorry. I’m late for an appointment!” She was running to the door leaving a speechless Niall standing in love.

He doesn’t hesitate and follows her.

“Can I drive you?” He screams, she turns and smiles.

“Oh please. I will appreciate that a lot”

She was late for a catering meeting, her sister was getting married. She the bridesmaid.

Niall was with her because she begged him to stay, they look like they old-themselves.

When he left her in her doorway, she smiled and thanked him for his help.

Two days letter he received the invitation to the wedding.

A week later he was in a court field seeing his ex-girlfriend’s sister getting married. Looking at her looking stunning as bridesmaid made him think he should try to get a chance with her again.

He looked at her smiling in the centre of the place, he asked her for a piece and now they’re looking each other with love.

“I realize something while we were apart.. I’ve missed you every day. I regret the day I came up to you and break everything. You’re my best muse love, I realised how miserable I am without you. This year had been awful without you”

She looked at him, smiling and say.

“You’re a dork Niall” and kiss his cheek.

“Agreed. But I am your dork” he smiles.

“Yes you are. I’ve waiting for the day to you coming and telling me that was all a mistake. We have things to sort out yet, but we will make it” she gives him a eskimo-kiss.

“No matter where I go, I always gonna want you back” he says, and kiss her with nothing but love.

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Hoy hace 7 años que llegué a Tumblr. 🥳

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Gratitude - Tidying Up With Marie Kondo (2019)

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— — — love is sour grapes # ♡

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JH: Loving you is like having one-sided love with a cat. Made their owner feel lonely at times but they also made the owner feel happy. Lets not break up

YW: You said its one-sided love with a cat. But cats love their owner too. Lets not break up

I'm crying, I'm so happy😭

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Ep 14-15: *emotional trauma for our whale couple*

Ep 16: *cat analogy with both confessing, Jun Ho falling in love at first sight AGAIN, them being happy and smiley and gooey together AGAIN*

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bitches will die every time kang tae-oh smiles. it's me. i am bitches.

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me staring at my calculator app for 45 seconds before i remember i was trying to open my clock app to set an alarm

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SEBASTIAN STAN Deadline Contenders Television, 2022

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just a regular tuesday

april 5th.-

today i woke up earlier than usual because a huge thunderstorm was about to fall down, as i get ready i was thinking that i didn't think about you at all...which made me realize i was thinking about you that moment, the thought of you flew away after a few minutes though. you weren't persistent in my mind anymore and that made me feel free for the first time

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How do you spend your nights?

Overthinking and imagining scenarios that will never happen

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a really little animated black cat with giant eyes and no other discernible features

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People hacking their lungs out around you and then being like ‘don’t worry it’s not covid’ like girl I don’t want whatever the fuck else it is you’ve got either!!