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the strangest sensation

like Allah mian has enveloped me in His grace

and calmed me

like He is holding my heart in the palm of His hand

made me soft and strong at the same time.

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all of the happy songs.

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feeling immensely grateful to have so many people around me who care about my wellbeing.

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i close my eyes

leaning over sink

chest heaving

gasping for breath

the world spins around me

my form is numb

but i close my eyes

and i move towards you

towards calm and safety

i stay there till the world stops spinning

and you stay with me.

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oh to read a poem and let it cut you

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against all odds

is this you making your way to me

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we all fear vulnerability and it is precisely that which connects us to other people

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surely one of the worst forms of betrayal is at the hands of the mother, when she fails to understand you, fails to read you. gives you away so easily. like it means nothing?

how?

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theres ways more than one to tell someone you love them

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i talk to you, all my walls come down.

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i can think of many adjectives to describe my state of mind right now.

anxious apprehensive terrified confused bewildered

but 'happy' isnt one of them. is there something intrinsically wrong with me. a glitch?

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First they give u a voice

Then they punish u for using it.

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Where does all your discontent stem from.

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Gnawing feeling in the chest

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Sinking heart sinking heart sinking heart

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Time to go into hiding again

Lock these rhoughts into a box

And chuck it into the farthest corners of my mind