bear!!! she's been thru so much she's become theseus' ship... all the fuzzy is refurbished most recently, the corners and edges were redone by my mom when I turned 10 and the head and very ends of the arms are still original (and the collar but I finally replaced the elastic today)
thinking about how ronan is a shit younger brother, but a good older brother. thinking about how matthew doesn't technically need declan to be the youngest. thinking about how declan has a different mother, how he’s neither dreamer nor dreamt. thinking about the true fake brother. thinking about how declan is an accessory, a phantom limb to the lynch family, who never really needed him as a family. thinking about how declan quite literally turned the lynches into a family.
thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.
actually, I think spiders georg should be counted. just because he's the best at what he does doesn't mean we need to discredit him. he's part of the statistic too
There are only two things Simon will take his time to describe in full: the meal laid in front of him and what Baz is wearing, aka the meal laid in front of him