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hotel-oscar Ā· 6 years
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On days like this, I think of u and love u more. ā¤
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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Ooooh, I'm shaking in my boots. J/k I'm not scared. šŸ˜‰šŸ˜™šŸ˜Š
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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God, thank u for always having my 6 and never abandoning me. U always find a way to remind me that everything is going to be ok & that saves my heart always. Thank u, ur the best. ā¤
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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Imagine being in love w someone who doesn't exist. It's great bc u'll never get hurt.
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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Do I really have to remain dead for people to have to take me seriously?
Well I'm not ready to die but how many innocent people have to die for others to have to wake up and do something about it? It's not me against the world. It's us against injustice. I tried to get help, report, seek representation, defend myself, and now I have resorted to letting the truth be known to all and at all costs bc I knew that if I were to die, my story might go as well. F everybody who's had an opportunity to help and hasn't. F everybody who thinks I'm a liar and F everybody who continues their attempt to ruin me on all stupid and superficial levels. U got nothing. Nothing and your reaching is obvious & has only proven to be cumbersome but nothing compared to what I'm sure your ultimate goal really is and that's to silence me indefinitely. Unfortunately for u, u've never had a chance & when the truth comes out we'll all know why but meanwhile fu for still trying.
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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A story describing our current situation, my ā¤:
We're on the world's fastest rollarcoaster & I just had surgery. I bust stitches & probably have to go back to the hospital (but it's cool bc they have great meatloaf & hot nurses take their time bathing u šŸ˜²). Still that adrenaline rush put me on cloud 9 & just as I'm about to feel the reason they have a sign saying pregnant women & people w recent surgeries should not ride, I turn to u and say, "Faaaak, this is the best rollarcoaster I've ever been on!" Was/is it worth it? Hell ya. Heeeelllll ya.
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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U canā€™t say ur a good person and obviously not be one. This is actually really simple and it shouldnā€™t have to be explained to u. No point in arguing w an idiot. And the ignorant need to educate themselves before they continue to spread false propaganda aimed at creating fear & hate that not only breaks our solidarity as Americans but also as part of humanity. It makes us vulnerable for others to dictate what we think.
People say, ā€œThey were just doing their job,ā€ when referring to anybody who knowingly breaks one of Godā€™s laws as if that made it ok but never in a million years will it be right. The Nazis were just doing their job too. Ripping apart families, stealing, torturing & murdering are NEVER ok so donā€™t ever excuse a human being because they were just doing their job. Thatā€™s b.s. and we all know that. Please have enough sense to see that. U donā€™t have to do anything u donā€™t feel is right. Those that hide behind the stupid excuse that they were following orders are not so much stupid but weak. Weak or straight up liars bc they willingly wanted to do it. Either way that excuse is b.s. and I canā€™t believe weā€™re letting people get away with blatant murder for supposedly doing their job. When did we convince ourselves that a cop, a ā€œpeace officerā€ has murder as part of their job description? Being a police officer is honorable but whereā€™s the honor in abusing power? Whereā€™s the honor in being the danger we literally have to protect ourselves from? I wonder when it got easy for people to be dishonorable. I find it damn near impossible to act dishonorably so I honestly donā€™t understand what compels a person to do so. To me, life is only worth living w your head up. A dishonorable life is a shameful one and simply not a life I am willing to consider nor will be forced or bullied into living and thatā€™s my God-given right. A right that Iā€™ll will defend to the death, not only for myself but for anyone else who wants it. āœŠ
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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I feel like my country has betrayed me.
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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I was painfully reminded of something very traumatic that I underwent at the LA County womenā€™s jail twice now and I want it to be known. I was put in isolation for being a female that takes testosterone. Small, dark, freezing, cramped cell for 24hrs of however many days they want to leave u in there for. They ignore u like the plague and donā€™t give a sh*t that u are literally going mad. Thereā€™s no blanket nor pillow but can request a blanket which uā€™ll get whenever they feel like giving it to u. No shower, no light, no outside world in any way shape or form. No phone call. Nothing. I think itā€™s where u go to be forgotten. Nevermind that ur not a violent criminal. Nevermind that ur the most cooperative person there. Nevermind that u have PTSD & isolation can be detrimental to your mental health. Nevermind that U ARE OBVIOUSLY BEING SINGLED OUT FROM EVERYBODY ELSE AND KEPT THERE FOR LONGER THAN YOUR STAY SHOULD HAVE EVEN BEEN. I saw the highest ranking woman sitting there and leading by example which by the way was exactly the opposite of what a fine public servant & humane person would be. Lady, ur an embarrassment to not only the badge, but to all women out there.
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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I still canā€™t believe the sh*t Iā€™ve been put through and the sh*t they/someone is still trying to put me through. I am passed asking why. Iā€™m only concentrating on living my life right and rebuilding my relationship w friends & family. Getting closer to the person I used to be. I honestly had lost sight of who that was but I remember now bc Iā€™m still that person. I was just asleep. I feel like Iā€™ve been dreaming for almost a decade. Like dreaming w my eyes open. I no longer feel that anymore but I still have to deal w the aftermath. I admit that Iā€™m in recovery and itā€™s apparent that some scars I have to work on living w for the rest of my life. I am having a hell of a time just trying to trust others. Iā€™ve isolated myself but have been forcing myself to go back to my social routines just to bring some normalcy in my life as well as to not worry others. But I still feel alone bc itā€™s me against them. Iā€™m not gonna let it go. I know what I was put through. I know what I physically endured. I know I was messed w mentally. I wonā€™t let it go. I donā€™t need to be known or compensated bc I donā€™t trust anyone enough still to give me anything. What I do want is people to do the right thing. For all those pieces of sh*t to be seen for the terrorists they are instead of the public servants they are masquerading to be. Thereā€™s no room for hate in this country. Thereā€™s no room for psychos. I donā€™t even think thereā€™s room for people that donā€™t believe in God in this country. We pledge to be one nation under God, solemnly swear to tell the truth so help us God, spend our $ In God We Trustā€¦so then why are we allowing people that not only believe the opposite but are also violently trying to end our existence. They say they believe in God and our nation and are Americans all the way but like I said before, u canā€™t believe in God and be hurting others, taking away their happiness nor messing w their lives for your gratification. These people donā€™t believe in God/Good. Why is that so hard to understand? Why donā€™t people understand that God is not about hate? Heā€™s about love and happiness. Why are people having such a difficult time grasping that truth? It really is simple. Itā€™s like finding joy in seeing your lover cry from sadness and then saying u love them. Thatā€™d be false. Love is truly feeling someoneā€™s pain, sadness, happiness, excitement, etc. When u donā€™t care u are selfish and make sure no one has anything better than u bc seeing others miserable is what makes u smile. Thatā€™s psycho & evil and against God & this nation. Iā€™m not going to let it go. I canā€™t. I want people to be free and happy and to live happy lives and to get along w each other. Respect one another. Help each other. Be happy. Wearing a uniform, having a PHD and/or being a parent doesnā€™t make u one of the ā€˜Goodā€™ guys and everyone else one of the ā€˜Badā€™ guys. Letā€™s be real. If ur hurting others, ur doing something wrong & it should not be ignored. Weā€™re not perfect but we have to try to be. If we donā€™t recognize or make amends then we are not truly sorry and canā€™t say we believe in God. People will say a lot of things about me. A lot of crap- some good, some bad, some true, some not, a lot exaggerated but the one thing they canā€™t say is that Iā€™m a bad person. I might sometimes break manā€™s laws but I donā€™t break Godā€™s laws. Iā€™m also not a liar nor am I stupid. I know that Godā€™s got my back so I wonā€™t be shamed, intimidated nor forced to be something Iā€™m not either. Iā€™m not evil and Iā€™ve never been. So say and do what u want because I will never stop believing in God and living my life accordingly. Unlike u, I wonā€™t come after u nor mess w u but I will tell the truth to anyone willing to hear it.
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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The detectives that came to see me in jail. On the back Detective Johnny Perez wrote his # which kept coming up as an inactive # when I called it.
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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Love.
Love is unconditional. Look up and understand what 'unconditional' means if ur not clear on its definition. That's the only type of love u should have for anything worth living & dying for. Reevaluate your loves & priorities and live accordingly. Thereā€™s no better time than now. āœŠā¤
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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The reason I say martial law is bc our first responders need to be audited. Something is wrong bc they are not doing their jobs & at times even being counterproductive. Audit them.
As of right now I know of 2 other girls that were raped in West Hollywood 8 years ago. Both lesbians and both were not drugged so they were awake for it. One even happened at an ATM across the street from the Sheriffā€™s station. She went directly to the station afterwards to report it and was met with, what do u want us to do about it?? Both women lived w the constant fear of it reoccurring, nightmares, paranoia, self-hate & blame, shame and began to feel like maybe they just werenā€™t important to the rest of the world bc NO ONE CARED. Even Iā€™m guilty of thinking if the cops didnā€™t care, then sheā€™s probably being melodramatic. Iā€™m sorry. I just never thought that first responders/public servants would ever, ever blatantly not do what they swore to do. Honest, I never thought it possible.
The girls eventually moved away. One to another state and the other hours away but I still know them & we are in touch. Those are just the 2 from West Hollywood that I know personally but Iā€™ve heard of so many more women and men whom had the same apathetic reaction from the WeHo Sheriffs when reporting theyā€™ve been assaulted.
In San Pedro this past February another girl was raped. She went directly to the Police Station to report it and she said that they made her feel like she was the criminal. They wouldnā€™t give her a rape kit or do anything that would acknowledge what happened to her. This was this February 2017! So what the hell is going on?? Why are there so many women being hurt and ignored as if they didnā€™t count? Do people not realize that women are the most important of Godā€™s creation?? Ask yourself, what would u do in a world with NO women? Why are we allowing women to be oppressed, berated, raped, stalked, beat up, made to feel crazy? Wake up, people! This is really happening! Stop ignoring or pretending injustices are not occurring bc I am telling u they are.
If u love your mother, your sister, your tĆ­a, your wife, your niece, your kids then stand by them. Donā€™t ever doubt what they feel or experienced. The only protection they need is your love and solidarity. Thatā€™s all. They need to know theyā€™re not alone and that u got their back.
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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Oh and u are wrong about one thing America is GREAT.
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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We are at War right now. Same War on Terror except instead of overseas itā€™s in our backyards. ***News Flash*** U canā€™t believe in God and believe in hate. The Pope said it best that a man preoccupied in building walls instead of bridges is not a Christian man.
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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FACTS : what I know without a shadow of a doubt happened vs deduction, speculation and/or my opinion.
FACT : December 18th, Sunday - Woke up on corner of Robertson & Santa Monica Blvd in front of Pavilions. I was partially robbed & obviously sexually molested. Also had 1 thin clean cut over left top lip. Like a purposely cut line approximately 1" in length. I was also missing my left earring. It was a black circle and superman symbol on other (I sometimes use that mismatch combo on my left ear only and both matching circles on the right). Itā€™s the kind often referred to as fake plugs so they screw into each other, which in turn makes them more secure and a task to remove so ya, left earring was missing and not on the floor. Otherwise, absolutely no other signs of visible trauma or impact points so I know I didnā€™t fall on the ground.
FACT : I was missing my wallet, motorcycle key, motorcycle w helmet BUT I still had my A1 leather bomber jacket on, $1+ in coins, 2x collector Swiss Army pocket knives & my black Ray Ban Wayfarer sunglasses. Partial robberyā€¦? I then went into Pavilionsā€™ and bought myself a Tonic Water w the change I had.
FACT : I parked right in front of Abbey and went into Chapel @ the Abbey and bought Bacardi Limon from the tall slender female bartender with the obviously fake English accent.
FACT : Other than feeling confused to how, when & HOW the hell I ended up there, I felt 100% sober & clear minded. This was no surprise to me since I know I didnā€™t even drink enough to have a buzz. I donā€™t even remember finishing my shot.
FACT : I thought it weird that NO ONE offered to neither help me nor express any concern. Then when I went back to The Abbey to get my credit card that I had left there, everyone was being rude and giving me the run around and saying come back & just meaner than I have ever recalled them being. They never gave me back my card. I tried from before 7am until noon.
****UPDATE**** They charged my card $40 and itā€™s a straight up lie. For one, I lost my phone a few days earlier and so I wasnā€™t sure my balance so I was limiting myself 1-2 drinks max and I always keep my limit. Second, I havenā€™t spent $40 on a tab since the military and thatā€™s no joke. Besides, Iā€™m 100% positive that I didnā€™t authorize $40.
FACT : At sundown, I walked miles and miles walking all lit main streets until someone finally asked me if I was ok. It was a homeless woman at a 711 whom I later gave my Air Force Swiss Army pocket knife to as a gift. I was freezing and hungry & she fed me and we huddled together for body heat right outside the 711 doors. When she left, she offered me to go with her but I still felt a danger lurking and didnā€™t want to put her at risk. When she left, I began looking for a cement or steel trash can bc I was shivering uncontrollably from the cold and needed to get warm. I found one on a sidewalk adjacent to a gas station. I made sure there was no residue gas dripping from the pumps as I walked by them on my way to the trashcan on street. I started that fire for the sole reason of staying warm but also made sure I was being seen on the stationā€™s camera in case anything happened to me bc I had a feeling that someone wanted to make me disappear.
FACT : At no time was anyone or thing in any danger, including myself. Firefighters put it out. Cops (LAPD) showed up after the fire was already out and the firefighters were packing up to leave. It was obvious I was going to get hurt right off the back so I repeatedly told them loudly & clearly that I was a woman. They only got more aggressive and more threatening to the point where I thought thatā€™s it, Iā€™m about to get tazed/shot so I finally yelled, ā€œOk ok Iā€™m a guy,ā€ā€“ in which they proceeded to tackle me, hogtie, rip my nose back, suffocate me, inject me & beat me. I begged & pleaded for my life forever it seemed bc I couldnā€™t breathe & that alone was unbearable. When I realized that they were not going to let up, I yelled in Spanish for God to help me and thatā€™s when I got one last sock to the face in which I pretended to be knocked out. I began listening and feeling everything they were doing. I felt my butt exposed while they injected me w something. They had my socks off and had my ankles turned in an unnatural way which w the handcuffs made it impossible to feel anything they were doing to them but the overwhelming pain & fear of breaking like my wrist already felt was. I do however remember the firefighters driving by close enough to make eye contact while I was struggling on the floor before pretending to lose consciousness.
FACT : They tortured me for over 25+ minutes but now actually seemed a lot longer than that and am sure it was. Then they finally put me in a paramedic-like vehicle where not only did they refer to me as a WOMAN but one said, ā€œI wish sheā€™d keep squirming so I could rip her nose back again.ā€ Wtf? Then they proceeded to cut my A1 AF leather bomber jacket into little pieces so Iā€™d never wear it again. Btw, that jacket clearly had my (female) name & rank on front name badge. Then they cut off my white t-shirt and binder which held down my breast followed by sticking an IV down a vein in my throat and opening my eyes and pushing each one so far into my skull that I swore they were gonna poke each out. Iā€™ve never had anyone do these things to me & didnā€™t know people like that even existed, let alone people that wore uniforms and were supposed to be saving lives. Not enjoying themselves torturing oneā€¦ I heard them all making little jokes and enjoying themselves the entire time and even when I was walked thru the precinct and booking topless with my breast out in the open (Yet, they were still trying to book me as a male even then!). I remained exposed for everyone to see until I was seen by the doctor in holding in which she said can we put a shirt on him/her. She saw the IV in my throat & asked why the hell they put an IV in me. Even the officer stuttered that he didnā€™t know why. They x-rayed my wrist bc it was badly injured. I still have no feeling of left thumb and wrist. I still have scars on wrists and ankles from being hogtied with the handcuffs overly tightened. At the time I had blood and swelling at my wrists and ankles from the handcuffs. I also noticed that I was bleeding under one of my middle toes from my left foot & wasnā€™t previously.
FACT : I reported the rape from West Hollywood as soon as I felt safe and asked for rape kits. Santa Monica Hospital, USC and LA County Womenā€™s Jail. Sheriffs sent SVU investigators to talk to me while in jail. I told them every detail including how I got my motorcycle stolen from right in front of the Abbey and gave them title info in order to find it. The men left their #ā€™s. I called them several times later to find out status and left msgs. I did this from jail and later from home after I was released. I never ever received a call back or acknowledgment and the other # said it didnā€™t exist. I made sure to keep record of any calls & messages I made to or left them as well as keep the business card they gave me when they came to see me in jail.
{For the record, WOMENā€™S LA County Jail was the best part of this ordeal. Not only did they take care of me and make me feel safe and respected me but also the inmates were a blessing to have met. Each inmate made a very special & personal contribution to my heartā€™s recovery. They all became my friends and I know we all share a special bond and will no doubt see each other again and hopefully work with too. Thank u to every Deputy. U guys genuinely care about human beings and Iā€™m sorry there are Sheriffs that carry guns on the outside tarnishing your priceless contribution to humanity. Iā€™d work w u guys any day.}
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FACT : I was in Signal Hill the day before and received a ticket for the motorcycle being parked on the sidewalk. The motorcycle a 1983 Blue Hondamatic had mismatching license plate from VIN on registration. This is bc I have 2 of the same exact bike and often switched out parts between them. I have its twin sitting here at home in pieces and missing its original license plate, which went w the stolen bike. When I finally got home from jail in mid January, I discovered that the titles for both of the bikes that I had put away safely in a box were both missing. I didnā€™t even have time to fully take in this whole mess before I was conveniently 5150ā€™d for crying on a curb on a street named Cudahy in which HP Police decided to tow my other bike which was simply parked against the curb correctly & not even w key in it. It was towed to Mr. Cā€™s Towing in South Gate. I tried to get it after my VA nightmare but they wanted me to pay $66 per day for something they did illegally. Well, just like my other bike it has a twin so it has the same mismatching plate detail. I still have the title for this one and the original plate on me. Not on the bike they are holding. I also have the original plate for the 1983 Hondamatic that I just learned from its previous owner, the guy I bought it from, that it was auctioned off in January while I was in jail. They said that they had contacted him to demand he pay for the fees that I guess were not recovered w the f***ing auction but when he tried calling them back w his defense the DMV claimed they had no record of the bikeā€™s existence. Can somebody please tell me what the f*** is going on????
****UPDATE**** I canā€™t seem to get a police report anywhere. I want to know what they said so I can defend myself but they keep jerking me around sending me on a wild goose chase and lying. HPPD first said I was operating the bike impaired but when I brought evidence contradicting that, they changed their story once again. This time they say that they didnā€™t want to be responsible in case the bike was stolen while I was in the hospital bc God knows how long Iā€™d be there. BULLSH*T. 1st, they 5150ā€™d me which is a 72 hr hold. 2nd, Iā€™m sure I could have easily arranged for a family member to just walk over and get it. No biggie. 3rd, U ARE RESPONSIBLE for it being stolen! Both PD & Towing place keep sending me back and forth to supposedly get something needed which have been lies and the days have added up. Hereā€™s the big whopper though, they hold for 45 days after which they not only send me to collections for the entire 45+ day storage cost but they ALSO auction my bike! Wow, talk about rapeā€¦is this even legal??? It doesnā€™t seem ethical thatā€™s for sure. I know itā€™s not right in my heart either. I still have faith in humanity. I refuse to believe there are so many evil people around here.
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West Hollywood Sheriffs think they can do whatever they want and say and do unspeakable things without any repercussions. (????) Literally think they are above the human race and they have an acute hate for strong women who donā€™t need men (i.e. Lesbians). As far as Iā€™m concerned, they are domestic terrorists and traitors to our country and God-given rights. If u donā€™t believe me, Iā€™m sure they have videos. They have a thing for recording everything. Or u can believe me bc Iā€™ve never lied to u and would never want to see anyone else hurt. I rather it be me than anyone else bc I know I was born special & can take more than others and Iā€™m ok. Plus, I took an oath to protect my country against ALL ENEMIES, foreign & DOMESTIC and I meant it & live accordingly. I was born to serve my country and its perfect people. I take attacks on them personally and will be damned if I let them intimidate me into letting them get away with it. Over my dead body and even after that.
I believe martial law should be implemented in LA County with special emphasis on West Hollywood & VA in Long Beach (ER & L1 psych ward), if not ALL Emergency Rooms, Psych Wards & Law Enforcement in the county of Los Angeles.
West Hollywood used to be a safe haven for gay people from all over the country. Now itā€™s become the fastest way to become a non-reported missing person. Iā€™ve had the privilege of meeting their spirits and the honor of their unwavering love and guidance through my drugging, rape, torture and eventual death. That girl I used to be is forever gone.
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The VA in Long Beach has a modern God-complex psychotic Doctor who I lovingly refer to as GPS bc his name sounds like a GPS Navigation brand name. Dr. Magellan?
FACT : I told them I didnā€™t want to go in the back door. I didnā€™t feel comfortable & told them I rather go in through the front entrance just like every other 50 millionth time but they were adamant & not budging. I had a bunch of pix w me but mainly of my niece and nephews. Before knocking out I tucked them into my binder like I had been every night. I woke up and found them sprawled all over the bed & floor which was odd & shocking but to make matters worse, 3 pix were missing and that pissed me off. I pulled a fire alarm. Not only did they cancel it on their own instead of the fire department but it also made them pretty angry so 2 guys tied me up to a bed and then each injected a shoulder. I muttered something about the only people that could cancel a fire alarm are the firefighters and was out.
I donā€™t think anything u guys did was cool. The mystery straight up bite mark was like wtf (and I know uā€™ll say itā€™s mine but not only is that stupid as hell but also physically impossible bc of angle it was done).
FACT : Blood & liquid build up on toes by the nails, not being able to account for over a week, being told Iā€™m being given certain meds that we both know damn well arenā€™t what u said they were, u getting upset w the social worker for not hanging up properly w a public defender and accidentally recording everything u were saying right before I walked in and just all of your bs, GPS. Honestly, I just feel betrayed by everybody there bc I trusted them. I already didnā€™t trust u bc u always had a smile when u were telling me something that would make my world crumble. I do remember seeing the cameras in the employee meeting room and thinking oh sh*t they are watching me change & sleep?? Then I thought how is that possible if inside the rooms there is not a camera in sight. Still, I wish I would have had a courtesy heads up before getting undressed bc thatā€™s embarrassing/uncomfortable for me to do around anybody.
I also finally realized that not only have u guys been f-ing w my mental health but also that u literally are not one bit interested in really helping me. The same goes to the ER where they watched me have an anxiety attack and didnā€™t calm me down but instead took detailed notes of whatever fright I was experiencing and even had others come watch and also do nothing except ask that same dumb question, Do u wanna hurt anyone or yourself, all while watching me bawl my eyes out & scared outta my mind seeing whatever it was that was so terrifying but thank goodness u made sure to make a detailed transcript, right?? That still surprises me btw bc I only begin to remember it when u read from it. Weird how u guys remember my dreams/nightmares better than I do. Like how are u able to get inside my head while Iā€™m totally asleepā€¦?? Seriously.
FACT : I always made sure to get a ride to your ER where every time Iā€™d walk in and just ask for someone to talk to. Thatā€™s all just a Therapist or someone that could help me relax just by listening and responding like one and not some smart-ass condescending one that belittles what Iā€™m feeling as if I didnā€™t just now ask for help. I just needed to talk to someone and Iā€™m sure my provider remembers how many times throughout the years I would continuously ask for one-on-one therapy. Every single time I saw u guys Iā€™d ask for that therapy and I practically lived there! Yet, I would be put to sleep & always waking up days later confused of where I was at and then later finding out from the other patients that I was out for days! DAYS! WTF is that all about?? U canā€™t tell me Iā€™m a drug addict that was doing this to myself bc I know now that is all BS and Iā€™m really pissed about it. U swear we arenā€™t smart enough to know the difference between the drugs we knowingly put into our systems and the ones u claim are the cause of our perpetual detachment from reality! Yes, u do a good job of keeping us confused so that we accept your BS but eventually something had to give. Maybe my tolerance got higher or maybe I just became immune to your junk. It really is unbelievable how f-ed up u are. I didnā€™t think there was a cure for what u said I had bc I couldnā€™t wrap my mind around the perpetual diagnosis u would give me and Iā€™d reluctantly accept even though I hadnā€™t been doing any drugs. I somehow would convince myself that maybe I donā€™t remember using (ya right) or someone in my life was purposely drugging me (which made me paranoid) or maybe it was just my guilty conscience from using in the past. I didnā€™t even consider that uā€™d be that evil and that your staff would be too naive to question.
I still canā€™t believe this is happening. So many of my Vet buddies were patients of yours. Some got worse and others Iā€™ve never seen again and no one has either bc Iā€™ve asked. Weā€™re family and we look out for each other no matter what and u know that. Itā€™s unfair that uā€™d tell the staff to tell me that they were not able to tell me what happened to Izzy for privacy reasons but he had no other next of kin. I was his family and I knew something happened to him the first time I returned to L1 after he was gone and u put me in his old room. I can feel everything and I knew and cried. Iā€™m not saying u did something to him but my last memory of him was me being discharged from there and wanting to say bye but seeing him be tied down to the same bed but not making it easy for your staff. He was in duress and I should have stayed to calm him. I donā€™t think any of this is funny. Not one bit. I donā€™t play around when it comes to other peopleā€™s quality of life. Heck no and though not all of u guys are guilty, I still wonā€™t return to your part of the hospital and will share that w the Vets I know. Thereā€™s nothing u can say to confuse me anymore. I finally feel more like the old me I used to be when I was still in the military. It took more than a miracle for me to overcome this but Iā€™m glad I did and Iā€™m glad u guys were wrong. Iā€™m totally fine and healthy and NOT addicted to any substance or thing. Iā€™m also STILL not a danger to myself or anyone. In fact, every day I get better & better. I had forgotten how good it felt to be sane.
Thereā€™s something wrong w u, GPS and Iā€™m sure Iā€™m not the only one that would agree and Iā€™m sure we can count on u to always be smiling when u know ur about to and/or are making someone miserable. U really had me going there which is why I felt no remorse when I turned the tables on u. Just remember, ur the doc and u discharged me regardless of my state and me asking for help. U can figure the rest out.
****UPDATE**** I requested all my medical records from VA. I reviewed my recent 5150 stay in L1. In the short summary they are very detailed on all days except for the 6 day gap of nothing. So I went back to review the entire month of March to see what u put for those 6 days I lost. Itā€™s funny bc u put the same type of very detailed notes for those 6 days. U put my vital signs, exact bowel movements, participation, % of food eaten, etc. Oh u also mentioned that I was temporarily put in restraints and stated the strict policies u have with that like notifying next of kin and 24/7 100% face to face surveillance. Well first off, EVERYTHING u wrote for those 6 days minimum are complete utter BS. Lies. Not only did I find many holes in your detailed fabricated data but regardless of me having to prove anything, uā€™ve managed to screw yourself. Iā€™ll put it to u this way, u somehow managed to keep meticulous record of not treating me for my said perpetual disorder but also keeping me at that state the whole time. Plus, there were other discrepancies that might seem small but in my case stand out like a sore thumb bc it meant I was 100% not myself in anyway which would be the first in my life since Iā€™m very consistent regardless of my state of mind. So glad the AF & VA keeps records of everything so Iā€™ll let them speak for themselves. U should have paid closer attention to me all these years or just listened to me every time I told u certain things about myself that havenā€™t changed my entire life. They are important in order to be able to accurately assess and treat me, your patient, medically. I mean, it could mean life or death literally. Either way, u grossly neglected to do that job u swore to do correctly. Add f-ing liar to that. Never mind that u guys also have 100% surveillance in L1 so per your notes, everything in those 6 days should check out at least visually right? Well at the very least for your sake.
I urge everyone to call the jails, hospitals and everywhere to find that loved one and make it known that that person will be missed and looked for and that no one will give up and accept their loss bc they couldnā€™t live with themselves if they did. Go in person, call or go online to check inmates & arrests. Snapchat and use all & any current social media to record, keep track of, make note of or just have as insurance if anyone is not doing their job, threatening u, putting your life in danger, lying to u or just getting a bad feeling from. They tend to think twice before continuing their disturbing behavior towards u but also letting others know whatā€™s up in case, God forbid, they do harm u. Email all resources & be heard. Email even strangers that might just be in your address book automatically from buying something from them on Craigslist. Serious. Someone, the right person will be listening and thatā€™s all it takes.
FACT : Iā€™m an Air Force Vet who got out in her prime and had nothing less than a stellar career but decided she wanted to be with her family and see their kids be born and grow up. She chose family and chose right. I still have very close ties to my military family and still have the same beliefs I had while serving which is why I will continue to serve, pay or not. I began to transition from female to male but I never intended to change my gender nor name so basically even though considered Transgender, I am just a woman that looks like a dude but I donā€™t pretend to be and donā€™t tell others I am. Iā€™m a woman whoā€™s happy looking masculine, as weird as that sounded just now. Ha. Some women get breast implants, others want them removed. Truth is I just rather look this way and it makes me happier than Iā€™ve ever been and the people that love me say that it shows and that makes them happier as well.
FACT : I represent a vast majority of Americans who struggle against all kinds of discrimination and violence and at the hands of everyone, including my own kind. Iā€™m Hispanic, Mexican, Irish & Jewish descent, Woman, Lesbian, Transgender, Gay, Military Veteran, Domestic Violence Survivor, Rape Survivor, Mental Illness, been Homeless. The reason I mention this is bc everything that happened to me can only be categorized as a HATE CRIME because not only did they totally know I was a female all along but there really was absolutely NO NEED to cut my jacket into little tiny pieces AND strip me NUDE topless. That was obviously meant to shame me. Yes, it was deliberate and intentional. They knew what I was and they 100% intentionally meant to hurt me. Thereā€™s plenty of evidence to back it up as well. Including the officerā€™s body cam. I even asked him what that was on his shirt and he told me that it was his body cam.
FACT : If a woman or man or speaking animal says that they were raped. THEY WERE. Who the f*** are u to tell a person, especially a grown-ass one what THEIR body feels. Shame on u stupid women who decided to be the judge of that bc u let rapists of all that are living know that it was ok.
Regardless of u doing unbelievably psycho and amazingly unfair things to me to make me feel like I should just shut up and forget that these things happened to me, I simply canā€™t. Iā€™m not gonna lie, I really, really considered it and even contemplated moving far away but it always comes back to NO, Iā€™m not crazy. I didnā€™t imagine this sh*t bc I know the difference between being f-ed up or confused. NO, they will never stop and they will hurt so many more people and I canā€™t live with that sh*t. I know u f**ks are all working together in some crazy ass levels of authority making it seem like we have no choice but to bend over and take it and believe me, I thought this was too twilight zonish to still be reality but u really do exist. U literally can do whatever u want and have been getting away with it for years. Iā€™m gonna bring an end to that now. Iā€™ve gone above and beyond and even what u canā€™t fathom to make sure that nmw the truth is known and u guys will not get away with any of it.
Anyways, I was just giving u a heads up of whatā€™s to come and that everything u do (literally) is in our favor and absolutely instrumental in justice. God love us for believing in him and our God given rights. One nation under God, indivisible, with liberty and JUSTICE FOR ALL. One Love - God, Family, Country (US).
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hotel-oscar Ā· 7 years
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Turns out I don't have f**ked up priorities. šŸ’Æ
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