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bastille is correct. how AM i gonna be an optimist about this?

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This handsome boy is a local cat in Kyoto, Japan. I met him while I took a strolled around the town.

Unfortunately I lose another pictures of him. He was a cooperated and photogenic cat. I hope he is healthy and live well there.

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I recently started setting boundaries with people in my life including my father and it’s exhausting. I just tried to tell my dad that I can have friends without trying to fix them and that it really bothers me that he constantly assumes that I’m trying to fix people in my life. Not only did he interrupt me with “ok well I won’t say that” but when I tried to say I’d like to explain this so he understands it he goes “I’m going to bed now” and hangs up. So you get to say all this shit to me and get to be upset with me when I don’t react the way you want but I don’t get to do the same? I don’t get to stand my ground? I really don’t want any sort of relationship with my father after his abuse and failure to be my father my whole life but I’m trying because I’d like to enjoy time with my father. This shit however is what makes me really want the courage to just cut it off. I truly don’t care if my father is in my life. I do love him but he brings me nothing but pain and anxiety and it’s always been like that.

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You

You are sky,

soil and sea.

You are fire

and also freedom.

You are air,

light and peace.

You are tenderness

and also honesty.

You are world,

simplicity and inmensity.

You are infinite

and also eternity.

You are harmony,

courage and certainty.

You are life

and much more.

Authors:

bookwormblue / huzneram

kumsall-things / ousia-poetica

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Tú

Tú eres cielo,

tierra y mar.

Tú eres fuego

y también libertad.

Tú eres aire,

luz y paz.

Tú eres ternura

y también sinceridad.

Tú eres mundo,

simpleza e inmensidad.

Tú eres infinito

y también eternidad.

Tú eres armonía,

valentía y seguridad.

Tú eres vida…

y mucho más.

Para Blog (siir-poesia)

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“Nothing ever ends poetically. It ends and we turn it into poetry. All that blood was never once beautiful. It was always just red.”

— Kait Rokowski

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“There are people we meet in life who miss being important to us by inches, days, or heartbeats. Another place or time or a different emotional frame of mind and we would willingly fall into their arms; gladly take up their challenges or invitation. But as it is, we encounter them when we are discontent or content and they are not. Whatever they are, we are not and vice versa. Two trains going in different directions that pass for a few powerful moments at full speed, blasting noise and wind but then they are gone. Whatever serious chemistry might have been possible if, isn’t.”

— Jonathan Carroll

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I know I'm a little different from everyone else, but I'm still a human being. That's what l'd like you to realize. I'm just a regular person, not some monster. I feel the same things everyone else does, act the same way. Sometimes, though, that small difference feels like an abyss. But I guess there's not much I can do about it.

— Haruki Murakami, Kakfa on the Shore

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📷 by Southernms

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White people have to be the most socially tone-deaf people on the earth if they think Karen is a slur

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Pixel Art by pricessofcubes

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Another one from my thesis critiquing self-care culture. This one is about self-care apps 🤡

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I am often viewed as aggressive and too much. I’ve been told I’m very masculine in my personality. (What the hell type of comment is that in the first place?) Part of me feels that I should be less that and part of me feels I have every right to be. My husband, his mother and my own mother all have made comments or insinuated that I’m being unladylike. I don’t want to be ladylike. I want to be able to express my emotions without feeling like I have to tone them down just for others who are uncomfortable with a woman full of fire. I have been through so much in just 25 years and to snuff out that fire is an act that locks the wild woman in me away. I locked her away for years, brought her back and then locked her away again. It hurt my soul deeply to stray from my wild woman. I lost sight of who I am when I put her in that cage. I have generations of Filipina warriors in my blood and as I’m working towards healing generational trauma I’m finding more of that internal fire. My family is full of fierce women who have locked their wild woman away for the sake of their families. I see the way our women have shrunk themselves for their men and their children. I don’t want to be that woman. I want my children to see my fire and know that they are safe and free to find theirs. I want to be the woman that, despite being happily married, is untamed and raw. I want my future daughter to look at me and see a woman who is unapologetic in her wild woman ways so that one day she can feel free in hers. I desire a life full of doing things that strengthens my wild woman as I feel most fulfilled when she is happy. If that means I’m viewed as an aggressive “nasty woman” then so be it. I have kept my wild woman in a cage for so long and now that she is breaking out of the cage I no longer want to stop her. This idea that a woman must be gentle is bullshit. You can be loving and forgiving while still being full of fire. You don’t have to be gentle to be an amazing woman. In my personal opinion the people who feel that you must be gentle to be a good woman are truly full of shit, weak of mind and spirit and outdated in their thinking. Being gentle may be fulfilling for some but it’s not the case for all women.

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We dropped some things off at the storage unit today only to find that someone attempted to break into it. This was taken after we already opened it so the lock is off but the break in attempt was unsuccessful. While I’m grateful neither of us were there whenever this happened I’m anxious nonetheless. This is now the 5th time my personal spaces have been violated in some way. It happens everywhere and can happen to anyone so I get it but at the same time it’s still something that triggers deep fears in me. The last time I was robbed I woke up to a man walking into my room in the middle of the night in an apartment that I had been robbed in 2 times before. It was really hard to deal with this today mentally with everything else that’s been going on in the world. Even now I still just don’t feel alright today. Nothing seems to be helping so I think it’s time to take my meds and go for a nap.

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I’m with you. No matter what else you have in your head I’m with you and I love you.

Ernest Hemingway