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need i say more? ✨️

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longass meta rambles.

copypasting this from my dms with captain because it's basically a meta post already LMAO.

content warning: discussion of abuse, manipulation, & suicidal ideation under the cut.

thinking about the fact that seph has never, ever lived a normal life. not Once. and most of the abnormalities, which is a Generous term for it, were caused or fostered by the men in her life.

for the first six or seven years of their childhood, her and orion were both raised under the thumb of a pair of extremely violent, strict, superstitious parents. it was their father's idea to leave them out in a blizzard the night they were born to freeze the "curse" out of them. it was his hand that struck them, for the most part, and his words making the kids feel like it was their fault for being born cursed (seph's hair, orion's eyes. orion's transness. seph's inherent capacity for protective violence.) the unseen picked them up after a couple years of surviving on the streets on their own, and from that point on, they were child soldiers.

seph had the same handler/commander/mentor from childhood to adolescence — the second man who influenced them, and the one who taught them that it is their purpose to live and fight and die for the unseen. he also, however, granted all of her softer requests with only performative judgement: transferring orion out of the fighting squadron so that he could become a forger instead, letting her take beatings for him when he messed up, teaching her one-on-one & giving her special attention as a kid with extraordinary potential to become a deadly weapon down the line. he taught her loyalty, in its earliest form. he taught her that being harmed for your mistakes is completely normal, and that not being considered a person was simply a given, and that you had to work hard to not die when everyone around you was fostered to be competitors rather than comrades.

when they tossed her in juvie for a year as a way of toughening her survival skills, she was surrounded by boys and girls she had never met before. the boys felt her fists first, usually in protecting the girls who were smaller than her.

And Then There's Fletch, who is decidedly not a man, but still skews more toward the masc side of the gender spectrum (they/he) where like .... god. the thing w/ fletch is that they didn't raise seph the way her old handler did. the day they met her was the day they ripped her arms off and took her brother's eye, singlehandedly, keeping her awake to make sure she Saw and Felt Every Consequence of Trying to Escape the Unseen. but they had been keeping an ear on her. if they hadn't, they would have just had seph and orion shot and disposed of.

he calls himself a builder because that's what he did. there was potential to create something great from the ashes of something good, and he took that leap when he separated the twins and nursed seph back to health personally after their surgeries were complete + they were brought out of a medical coma. he took extensive time away from his duties as the unseen's leader to rebuild persephone, shaken and numb from shock, from the ground up. they taught her how to shoot a gun and throw a punch before teaching her how to hold utensils and eat with the new hands. building up a devotion complex, a dependence, was a subliminal process that went hand-in-hand with all of this: moments of closeness that breached professional boundaries, fostering an emotional bond persephone had never in her life been allowed to experience

BUT THE THING ABOUT IT IS. seph is completely blind to the manipulation of it all. and for all intents and purposes, they still saw themself as the same person that they were before they lost their arms — fletch just taught them to bring out all of that deadliness that had already been there. he used her bond with orion to 'prove' that it's okay to completely depend on someone else, as long as it's him, because there's no other way to protect herself and orion from outside danger, and the connection she and fletch share is something no one else can understand

AND THATS NOT EVEN GETTING INTO THE ADEO SITUATION . because it's such a left turn from all of this... and i think. with adeo, the reason they consider it Different from their relationship with fletch is that seph knows that it wasn't her choice, what adeo did. he was SO outwardly Cruel, even when he made her believe it was her fault that she was getting hurt (which was easier for him, because it was already ingrained in her from the damage her parents did), she had no say in the matter, she was literally trapped there and unable to fight back against someone who was so much stronger than she was.....

so i think that's why she considers that the point in time where persephone Died.

and that's why she holds no resentment toward fletch, but the fury toward adeo is what holds her bones together, now. it's what keeps her breathing. getting revenge on him is the Only reason she has some semblance of a will to live. they always run back to fletch's side when the day is done, because that is where they have been molded to Fit.

so yaknow. just. normal things SDIUHFDSFJKDSFDS

THIS IS WHAT I MEAN WHEN I SAY SEPH IS INCAPABLE OF LIVING A REGULAR LIFE.......... ITS JUST NOT POSSIBLE. they can never detach themself from the underworld. they ate the fucking pomegranate, man. even if fletch and the unseen imploded and adeo was dead, their first instinct would be to turn themself into the police and let them execute her. and even if for some reason she decided to keep trudging on, violence is written into the marrow of her bones. she would never be able to completely detach herself from crime without feeling like a performer, or a creature in a cage.

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Art by The Unclean

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band au fits.

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SORRY GUYS I FORGOT THE OLD URL BROKE THE LINK

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it's seph cursed energy meltdown hours up in this house and home—

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its midnight thirty, mods are asleep, post fucked up and silly cursed-spirit seph doodles (feat. kenjaku post-absorption gloating about it KJSHDKJDSHS) (fucking around w curse marks & the concepts of angry crying & abstracted fangs??)

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× spider lilies ×

gonna be uploading some art (old and newer) that I never got around to posting

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when mnqn said “stop looking for monsters under your bed / you are the monster” when gregory alan isakov said “where were you when i was still kind” when dustin kensrue said “i will see you in hell / before i let you live to tell what you’ve seen” when matt maeson said “i can’t scrub off the black from my lungs / i can’t wipe off the taste from my tongue / what was it like to feel in love / what was it like to feel in love” when tswift said “i was tame, i was gentle, till the circus life made me mean / ‘don’t you worry, folks, we took out all her teeth’”

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i lied i wasn't done. more lethes for your viewing pain

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People improve when they get external love and support. How can we hold it against them when they don't? —The Good Place, Episode 47: "The Funeral to End All Funerals"

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PERSEPHONE: FLOWER SYMBOLISM.

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some hellhounds for the soul // mutuals can rb

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𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 𝐃𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐒𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆/𝐅𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆.

you long-suffering, endlessly patient angels get two memes today bc i deleted everything in my inbox on my rp blog and i made these memes to top off a solidly productive day! also, if you ever feel guilty about “not being productive” or having to delete drafts and memes in your tumblr life, DON’T! you’re wonderful and valid and your personal comfort and peace of mind is far more important than an overwhelming inbox or draft count! anyway, these are also self-serving, but also i feel no shame bc there’s an extreme lack of this very good vibe in my line of work, so here u go besties. DO NOT ADD ANYTHING TO THIS LIST!!

DATE UPDATED: 19/10/22

[ PIN ]:     sender pins the receiver to the ground and straddles them while training together.

[ SWORD ]:    sender invites the receiver to engage in sword fighting practice with them.

[ AIM ]:    sender and receiver go to target practice together (using any weapon of choice).

[ GUIDE ]:    sender readjusts the receiver’s stance and posture with their hands while training together.

[ STRIKE ]:    sender aims a blow (via either their fists or their weapon) at the receiver.

[ BLOCK ]:    sender blocks an on-coming attack from the receiver.

[ ARMOR ]:     sender helps to show the receiver how to wear and take care of their armor.

[ PREPARE ]:     sender guides the receiver through some pre-battle stretching exercises.

[ CHALLENGE ]:    sender challenges the receiver to a sparring match/actual fight.

[ TEND ]:    sender and receiver tend to one another’s wounds in the aftermath of a fight.

[ RESTRAIN ]:    sender physically restrains the receiver from attacking someone else.

[ FEND ]:    sender adopts a defensive position that stops the receiver from launching an attack on them.

[ PUNCH ]:    sender punches the receiver (to an unknown degree of success or failure).

[ KICK ]:     sender launches a kick at the receiver (to an unknown degree of success or failure).

[ TACKLE ]:    sender physically tackles the receiver during a fight.

[ DRAG ]:     sender physically drags or carries the receiver away from a fight.

[ UP ]:     sender extends a hand to the fallen receiver to help them to their feet after a fight/sparring match.

[ BACK ]:    sender stands behind the receiver while in the midst of battle in order to help them fight off their enemies.

[ ARRIVE ]:     just as the receiver is about to lose hope and become defeated, the sender arrives at the last minute to help them fight their enemies.

[ EXTRA ]:    sender hands the receiver a spare weapon during a fight to give them a better chance after they break or lose their own.

[ WALL ]:     sender slams the receiver against a wall during a fight/sparring match.

[ COVER ]:    sender lunges forward to throw their body over the receiver and shield them from harm during a fight.

[ POWER ]: sender and/or receiver use their powers during a sparring match in order to develop and enhance their abilities.

[ UNLEASH ]: sender, while fighting with the receiver during a physical confrontation, uses their powers in an effort to gain the upper hand.

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✱˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐀 𝐘𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐖 𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄 .    (  a collection of  mixed action prompts.   adjust phrasing as desired.   potentially mature content within.  )

[ 1. ] sender steps between receiver and an aggressive stranger, voice low and steady: "walk. away."

[ 2. ] sender teaches receiver self-defense, hands firm on their hips as they adjust their stance.

[ 3. ] sender presses their forehead to receiver's, voice breaking as they murmur, "i don't know how to fix this, but i'm not leaving."

[ 4. ] sender shoves receiver out of the way of a projectile.

[ 5. ] sender combs their fingers through receiver's hair in the aftermath of a traumatic event, whispering words of comfort.

[ 6. ] sender whispers, “i’ve thought about this all day,” before pinning receiver against a wall for a searing kiss.

[ 7. ] sender wipes away the receiver’s falling tears with their thumb and whispers, “i’m here."

[ 8. ] sender patches up receiver's wounds, hands trembling as they whisper, "you can't keep doing this to me."

[ 9. ] sender shoves receiver into a hiding spot, hissing, "stay here or i’ll kill you myself."

[ 10. ] sender finds receiver drunk at a party, sighing. "let’s get you home."

[ 11. ] sender is discovered sleepwalking by receiver.

[ 12. ] sender steals receiver’s weapon and presses it to their own chest, daring: “go ahead. prove me right.”

[ 13. ] sender ‘accidentally’ flashes receiver while changing, purring, "see something you like?"

[ 14. ] sender whispers, "you’ll ruin me," before biting receiver’s lip hard enough to draw blood.

[ 15. ] sender takes over while receiver is giving themselves stitches, promising to handle it.

[ 16. ] sender frantically grips receiver by the shoulders, "don't you dare close your eyes."

[ 17. ] sender fixes receiver’s crooked [ tie / jewelry ], teasing, "nervous?"

[ 18. ] sender shakes receiver out of a nightmare, comforting them in the aftermath. "same nightmare again?"

[ 19. ] sender brings hot tea and medication to a [ hungover / ill ] receiver.

[ 20. ] sender invites receiver to dance with them, insisting, "what? this song's perfect."

[ 21. ] sender leaves a single rose on receiver’s windshield with a note: "you’re being followed. smile."

[ 22. ] sender pins receiver’s wrists during a sparring match, grinning, "yield."

[ 23. ] sender playfully steals something from receiver, initiating a chase. "come and get it, then."

[ 24. ] sender drapes a blanket over receiver, accidentally waking them. "sorry, go back to sleep."

[ 25. ] receiver returns home only to find sender already there. "finally."

[ 26. ] after a pleasant night out together, sender asks: "can i kiss you goodnight?"

[ 27. ] sender wipes the blood from receiver's face, murmuring, "let's get you cleaned up."

[ 28. ] sender shoves receiver against a vending machine to dodge security, breathless. "act natural."

[ 29. ] sender wakes receiver in the throes of a nightmare, reassuring them, "it's okay, it's not real."

[ 30. ] sender purposefully antagonizes receiver, hurling insults; "what are you gonna do about it?"

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i miss you dear beast.... maybe i hang out on here soon.