i used to listen to one direction to help me calm down during my anxiety attacks and people would often give me weird looks after i would tell them about this musical preference of mine that i would then excuse as "my guilty pleasure"
i really need the shallow but more often oh so dramatic pop music to experience the catharsis hearing all the high notes in demi lovato or sam smith's songs. i need the hypnotysing qualities of indie music to drift my soul somewhere far away. i need musicals to make me feel like im in a spotlight on a stage in front of a big crowd, being an actress that ill never be, for those 4 minutes. i do love myself a good hip hop or r&b piece from time to time, to unleash my sassy and confident self, that the world will probably never see. fuck it, i even need some country music once in a while, just to ground me and remind about the simplicity of life. lastly, probably more than any other genre, i need a good classic rock, to drown me in never ending nostalgia, to remind me about the fundamentals of what every single person on earth yearns for in their life, even if it sounds super cliche. so when people judge me for listening for a certain type of music it's like? i NEED that. it means a lot to me, it gives a lot to me, much more than most people can. so excuse me, for doing what is necessary for me to literally not go insane.
šiandien sėdėdama patogiausiame pasauly fotely žanetos svetainėje, geriant popiečio kavą, į galvą atėjo mintis: "life is good". nepamenu, kada paskutinį syk tai buvau pasakius ar pagalvojus per paskutinius porą metelių.