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I'm not into resus, defib or dark cardphilia stuff, but could someone please stop my heart from beating and don't bother restarting it either. Sick of this life and this world.

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Requests

So, I've been a part of the cardiophile community for quite a while. I've requested things during chat shares here and there when I was at a younger age. But the older I got and the more time that I've spent in this community, the more I realized that I didn't really care to make any requests. I guess some of it could be chalked up to me not really socializing much these days. But in all, it has to do with respecting people's time and freedom to do whatever they want and what they feel comfortable with rather than to request something of them. It also feels kind of selfish to me to request things if that makes sense. Maybe it's just me. I don't know. There's a lot of people in this community who are always requesting others to do this or do that in a video or during a chat share, and it's just mind boggling to me how much they constantly want. I understand that it can be very overwhelming and frustrating for the person getting all of the requests, and I hope that they don't feel the need to fulfill every one or any of them for that matter. This is just my take on the whole thing and why I choose not to request things.

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Just my heart. Caught some skips.

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The perfect date night

Playing video games, watching horror movies, jamming to some metal music and ending it all listening to each other's heart.

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So it's been forever since I posted anything. So I guess I'll just start by saying Hi. I'm still alive. I know that I scrapped all my stuff that I posted on here before. Just had a fear of getting discovered. I know I probably shouldn't care if one of friends or whoever else knows, but it's very personal to me.

Anyways, still here, still very much part of the community regardless of how little I post or talk. I guess I'm more of a lurker now in the community. Though I'd like to be more social, Just don't know the right words to say. But whatever. I'll figure it out.