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If my body could specifically lose f4t from my stomach I think my life would be a million times better

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“Getting sk!nny won’t make you feel better about urself”

Umm speak for urself I feel awesome tyvm

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my workout for today? crying for 3 hours. Idc. I'm too depressed to step outside. Fuck off

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thinking about relapsing

i want to cut my whole body. i want to see blood. i want to make myself suffer. i want to feel as miserable as possible

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maybe in another universe i dont have to try so hard to be skinny & likeable

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something about myself doesn't sits well with me

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I hate how I can create amazing scenarios in my mind but I can't write a paragraph

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The serotonin and adrenaline kick when multiswiping makes me feel like I'm fcking h!gh

I'd do anything for this feeling

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Me being fat definitely makes me get miss gendered more it's just annoying atp

They’ll always see me as a woman until I lose weight. I want to look as sick as I am. I want to look dead.

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Ig i just want someone to care, but can't expect other ppl too when my own parents couldn't

Thought I was over that bs but been thinking about it again recently

the fucked up thing in all of this is, i want people to worry about me and be shocked when they see me. i want them to think „omg she lost so much weight“. idk why 🤷🏻‍♀️ i just want people to treat me like i’m gonna break in half just by breathing in my direction.

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I just wanna be able to not eat anything for days again

Fucking take me back to that time

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I'm wrong.

I'm a mistake that needs to be erased as it never should had existed in the first place.

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I don't want to wake up tomorrow morning

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Honestly haven't been restricting the last few weeks cuz I have had a lot going on and have been working basically 24/7 so i kinda needed the energy, I burned it all off but still feel like shit that I had to eat in the first place, atleats i still only eat 1 proper meal a day lmao

forgot how good it feels to starve myself

It's literally such an addictive and amazing feeling when your stomach feels empty and it just hurts

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So real I only book tables at restaurants ik have calories on the menu, because if they don't I just spiral

Having an eating disorder is literally so embarrassing what do you mean I’m having a breakdown on a date because they don’t have calories on the menu

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All I do is ruin shit and I wish I had the courage to kill myself bc everyone will be better off without me