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Jax in a black dress and stockings with Gangle smirking at him

dont mess with artists. they can uh uhh

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Should I actually continue this (sketched this idea in class randomly)😭😭 like make it a lil comic based on the audio tapes things in greyscale

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behold!! my blorbo who’s canonically a middle aged traumatized man with several mental disorders, violence tendencies and a long list of committed crimes

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MORE DOODLESSSS

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yall lowkey sleeping on stella/harley

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having fun with colours while venting about my dumbass speech impediment

it'z very unfinished but my eyes hurt and I got tired of staring at straight up pixels

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do you guys think that harley would have liked the movie tusk? surgery body horror and all that

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random headcanon that leith pierre is a cajun

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another harley song methinks

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many people seem to have the sentiment that elliot should have been more accommodating to harleys behavioral issues but also like, this happened in the 60s-70s. going to therapy was taboo and any mental issues were seen as a personality flaw. the letter elliot send just sounds more like: "if youre feeling depressed have you tried not being sad?" because mind you this man was born in the early 1900s 😭

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im kinda stumped rn because my original plan for my fic was to have both leith and harley in the YGP but now im thinking that it doesnt make much sense for leith to be there. but i already have it all planned out in a specific way and i really dont wanna change it so idsfkjsd.

theres no canon explanation for what they did in the YGP so im choosing to believe that they had something related to... idk philosophy and leith can be there too fuck it

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stella/harley headcanon:

stella picks up harley and dunks him into the garbage. fucking obliterated

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elliot: harley stop doing unethical experiments

harley: ermm im literally neurodivergent and a minor ???

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Freaky willry doodles from magma with mutuals

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Sawyer's relationship with Yarnaby is a complete parallel to his relationship with Ludwig.

He did to Quinn what he views as exactly the same as what Ludwig did to him: making himself a father figure, the only person who saw potential, the only person who cared.

y'know the big thing with generational trauma, how a parent often abuses their kid as a subconscious way of "getting back" at their own parental figures by exerting the same type of control they did? yeah.

In both cases, the "father" was only interested in taking all that could be taken from that well of potential, shaping that mind into exactly what they wanted. In both cases, they failed, and ended up doing the opposite. Both of them ruined their progenies, greatly lowered their mental capacity in certain fields.

Ludwig completely stunted Sawyer's psychosocial capacity. Sawyer completely stunted Quinn's intellectual capacity.

[also, if Ludwig is the Prototype, both were used as guard dogs, trained to serve and nothing more]

Sawyer also seems to believe that he granted Quinn a courtesy that Ludwig refused to grant him: to see his disturbed mind as a gift, rather than the detriment Ludwig saw his disturbed state as. He chose Quinn because he was disturbed, because he acted in probably the exact same way he himself did when he was young.

In that interview, he told Quinn exactly what he wished he was told as a child, just as Elliot did to him. He sees himself as a loving parent, despite being anything but. He can't see the parallels between his own actions and Ludwig's.

(also note the symbolism: Quinn was literally transplanting the 'minds' of his dolls between bodies, altering the nature of what little he could.)

And in the end, both "fathers" left their progeny to the cold, breaking them. Only to come back into their life, now to use what has become of them.

(note: I actually don't think Sawyer was being malicious when he was "getting a good laugh out of" Yarnaby. The way Sawyer's mind works is strange, and we know the way he navigates social interactions is bizarre at best. I think he genuinely thought of those moments as some strange form of bonding, the way one bonds with a pet through its endearing behaviour. I think he does genuinely care for Yarnaby in his own strange way, but, like I mentioned, his psychosocial development is completely stunted and that care manifests as abuse, as is often the case with developmentally stunted parents.)

Poppy Playtime is a story about generational trauma.