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ilan beses ko ginustong imsg ka.. at sbhn na miss na kita .. miss na miss na miss na kita...

kaso...

narmdmn ko ung mas gusto mo manahimik

na pag nagparmdm ako syo, magugulo lang kita...

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there is this song ... n every time mrrnig ko... pkirmdm ko knta mo sa akin ..

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mabgat puso ko...

gusto ko kmustahin ka na ayaw ko..

d ako ngexpect na magrrply ka... biglang kbog nang dibdib ko pagkbsa msg mo...

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wala na ako nare received nang ganito message..

morning love

kamusta k? baka madmi k na naman casualty dyan

kalmahan mo lang

miss na kita..

ingat ka

goodnight

tabi tayo, akap mo ko

sometimes i miss having someone who asks me how my day went or someone sending me updates without asking for it ..

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missing you so so so much...

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ang lakas nang kabog d man tibok tlga, habng ng ccheck ako fb baka inunfrend mo ko... oo nga ung isang account ko nakaunfrend n, ung isa buti hindi p?

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namimiss kita...

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hmmmm..

not again ...

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naiiyak ako

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dito n muna ko let mg ssbi nang saloobin, pra gumagaan..

sabi nga nya

khit na gaano kagaan ang isang bagay, pag matagal mo nang hwak, bibigat at bibigat din yan

u need to breath..

mag relax..

re start...

re fresh...

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its been a while last na ng msg ako dto, cguro kasi pinigilan ko, pinigilan ko ilabas lahat nang nrrmdmn ko, kasi pastrong ako? not knowing... slowly I'm drowning with my own baggage

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someone ask me... pano ka mg vent out nang nrrmmdn? pano mo nailalabas ung frustrations mo, ung inis mo, ung galit mo.. amd i anwered, sa pagkain po, stress eating sabi nya. yes, sabi ko..

but the truth is, i was taken aback.. kasi nung moment n yon gusto ko umiyak, gusto ko humagulgol, kasi i just realized, wla nga ko masabihan.. wla ko tao n kaya i voice out ano ang nrrmdmn ko..

it hit me.. and it always hit me..

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how's your heart? hmmmm still holding up despite everything?.. i knw, its not that easy.. and i knw u've been through so much na parang ayaw magpatalo ni heart.. but i just want you to knw, it's okay.. it's okay to feel tired.. hindi po kailangn magpretend na okay ka sa lahat nang oras..

your heart is strong, but it's also okay to take breaks . it's okay to heal slowly, hindi mi kailngan mdaliin ang proseso....

i hope u're finding ng peace even though it is little, in the midst of what your facing now.. dont forgett to check in with yourself, cause you deserve to feel loved and cared for..

your journey is yours alone.. but always remember, andito ako lagi para sayo, just like how you've always been there for the people you care about..

i just want to remind you that your heart matters and whatever you're going through now, it will get better..

one at a time

#letterformyself

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bakit d ko magawang mgalit sayo, bakit

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namimiss kita

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bkit nrmdmn ko na mangyyri to? kasi ngsabi k? d lang cguro ako hnda na totoohanin mo... kahit na sinabi ko naiintndhan ko... deep insde ayoko mangyari...

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inunfollow mo na ako sa mga soc med mo ulit.... and rmdm ko this time, no turning back.. d ka na babalik