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LEE BYUNG-HUN & LEE JUNG-JAE ♡

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Headcanon on jealous!In-ho? I would love to hear all your thoughts of In-ho when he's jealous; when Gi-hun receives a lot of attention from someone who's not him, or maybe when he sees thinks Jun-ho is forming a brotherly bond with someone else and not him, etc.

I feel like, besides the possessiveness and the urge to control which can certainly be unhealthy, In-ho’s jealousy is also rooted in his own insecurity that’s also rooted in his trauma and the fear of being abandoned, the fear of being seen as something undesirable by the people he loves (Jun-ho and possibly even Gi-hun), because deep down — possibly unconsciously — In-ho sees himself as something undesirable, someone that’s done terrible things. A monster. And he fears one day Jun-ho and Gi-hun will walk away, because they can no longer carry the weight of his crimes.

Maybe a part of him even thinks he deserves to be abandoned and given up on. But the thing is that I think there’s also another part of In-ho that’s outright childish/childlike — maybe he wasn’t like this before (childish/childlike), when he was still the man of the house and providing for / taking of his mom, Jun-ho and a pregnant wife, but after his time in the game as Player 132, after the deaths of his wife and child, I think something in In-ho just broke, and he couldn’t be that strong man who provided for his family anymore. Yes, he’s the Front Man. Yes, the Front Man is supposed to be cold, strong and invincible. But take off the mask and what you see is a child. Not literally, but like, since it looks like In-ho never has a chance to be a child when he was still one, that child in him got buried within and locked away, but he’s still there. And after the trauma, after what he went through — what he’s still going through — I can see that, without the Front Man mask, the child that is In-ho slowly starts to make himself seen more and more.

And that child is terrified of being abandoned and given up on. Thus the possessiveness. Thus the jealousy.

I think with Gi-hun, In-ho’s jealousy comes off petty, childish, but can also be harmful, violent and territorial (maybe less like a jealous lover and more like a cat who hates it when their owner pets other cats). In the sense that instead of lashing out on the spot, In-ho watches and observes in silence. He may not be directly telling Gi-hun he doesn’t like it when Gi-hun hangs out with someone else. But he makes plans, thorough and calculated and in secret. And then he strikes, gets rid of the “opponents” until he’s the only one Gi-hun pays attention to again.

It’s different with Jun-ho though. Because if there’s anybody whom I see bond a brotherly relationship with him, it’s Gi-hun. And In-ho’s not going to get rid of Gi-hun. I can’t see him being truly happy that Jun-ho gets himself a new brother who’s not him though (Jun-ho is not going to replace In-ho, he still loves In-ho no matter what, so it’s In-ho’s own issues and insecurity that make him think Jun-ho is replacing him). But I think, instead of coming up with some evil plan to interfere and keep Gi-hun away from his brother, In-ho will just sulk in silence. Because he loves Jun-ho, and deep down he knows Gi-hun is a good person, a better brother than he can ever be (it’s not true, but again, In-ho has issues and these, in my opinion, are just his thoughts). So he’ll just sit in self-pity and defeat the first time he hears Jun-ho call Gi-hun hyung. It doesn’t mean he’s being replaced, doesn’t mean Jun-ho loves him any less. It just means he has issues, and since communication skills aren’t his strong suit, of course, he’s not going to say anything.

Jun-ho and Gi-hun will have to notice on their own that something’s bothering In-ho, that he feels left out. And still he won’t tell them what’s wrong. They’ll just have to figure it out on their own. In-ho’s lucky though because they love him, and they’re not abandoning or giving up on him, no matter what his own mind says.

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Surgeon had to give me more drugs cuz I woke up halfway thru the procedure and started sucking the scalpel

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solitude

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what if in squid game season 3 we get a parallel scene where jun-ho extends his hand to in-ho (like how in-ho extended his hand to jun-ho on the cliff in season 1) and this time in-ho takes his brother’s hand and lets himself be saved then?

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Spikes

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february ice storm

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thinking about how In-ho must believe there's no one left in this world who loves him. his wife and child are dead. Jun-ho, in In-ho's belief, must hate him now. his step mom must hate him too when/if she finds out it was him who shot her real son and nearly killed him. and of course, Gi-hun will hate him too (again, in In-ho's belief).

all the people In-ho loves and cares about either are dead or hate him.

I think In-ho hates himself too, deep down. maybe he sees himself as some kind of a "monster" who deserves death. I need Jun-ho and Gi-hun to fucking save his life in season 3, even if it's against In-ho's will.

I need to see more of traumatized antagonists who aren't dying through self sacrifice in the end but are actually living, healing, learning how to live with their mistakes, how to forgive themselves, how to accept forgiveness, how to love and be loved again.

please don't take Hwang In-ho away from me

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one of the many things I love about both Lee Byung-hun and Hwang In-ho is that both of them have this adorable sense of humor and they both also laugh at their own jokes. and it’s so endearing. please never change ♡

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Lee Byung-hun teasing a Front Man spin-off today at The Tonight Show Starring Jimmy Fallon

WE NEED A FRONT MAN SPIN-OFF STARRING LEE BYUNG-HUN ♡

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writers (me) if they (I) get paid every time they (I) actually wrote their (my) wips instead of daydreaming about them

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Apparently in Squid Game Greece, from s3 trailer, the guard doesn't say "he wants to see you" to Gi-hun. The guard just says "he wants you"

I am absolutely losing my mind. Welcome back Supernatural Spanish dub