no becos baku not being on the new hori sketch is sending me MDJDKDH
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what brand of stupid are you ?
bastard stupid.
swears are your language and crime is your profession. your reason for doing just about anything is because you could, no matter how stupid it was. why did you set that fence on fire? to watch it burn. why did you put that bug in your mouth? to see what it tastes like. why did you teach that kid to say fuck? it's funny. keeping you around is like housing a cartoon villain, but at least you know how to pick locks so that's a reason to let you stay.
tagged by: @shaidow <33 mwah
tagging: @eraseur, @ericense, @roguesenses, @crem8, @antigodeus, @pokiiroki
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@crem8 threads that r like oh no both our charas had nightmares …. and accidentally meet/hang out during the night …… and then they talk abt deep philosophical things n never mention it again …
katsuki wakes with a tremor obscuring his senses and a gleam he can not smother. behind lidded eyes, there is the weight of thought that shines like star-dust, and no matter how hard he tries they won't open. he watches himself shatter, choke and vanish under cold benevolence, feels cloying flesh block his airways as he tries to scream. [ varying selves of inexperienced youth haunt at the edges where he should have been smarter, stronger, kinder. they fade to wordless snap-shots and he wishes that growing up meant forgetting. ] the memories repeat like a reel before the grasping hands that loomed melt into blurry vision. katsuki's next breath leaves him gasping. instinctively, flickering panic alights in his lungs as palms rub hard enough across his eyes to see shapes before he realises, oh. i'm crying.
it takes several moments before the disorientating wave that shudders through him finally eases. it takes several more, before he can even think. counting helps, up to ten and down again. as he does the rooms serene silence seems more familiar when removed of weltering shadow. [ he ignores the way the man watches him, half-lurking in the recess of his mind. ] touya had offered a room after a long night shift and naively, katsuki agreed, thinking that maybe, just maybe, he'd feel safe enough to sleep through the night with a pro just steps away. it hadn't. there's still that unsettling sensation in the pit of his stomach, the paranoia of someone waiting outside or any movement being a body. he sits up, throwing the twisted blanket off and stands. suddenly, the room is too dark. too quiet. head still spinning, katsuki stumbles before he's slipping on shoes and opening the door as softly as he can. touya won't mind if he passes out on the couch. hopefully.
what katsuki hadn't anticipated, was seeing the pro in question already sat in the living room. guess being quiet was a waste of effort. unsure of what to say or do, he stares. the flooring underneath creaks. shit. now what?
❛ uh... morning. ❜ what the fuck is wrong with him.
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❛ you're one of those support study students right? ❜ despite being phrased as a question, his tone brokers little to no argument with how he stands, tense shouldered and posture tight. katsuki's eyebrow twitches. after a brief moment of an unblinking stare, the gauntlets are haphazardly rippped off only to then be gently placed on the work station. [ anger tastes flat in his mouth and all there is, is exhaustion. ] he'd spent nearly all night trying to repair them, notes written and crossed out as each time a new approach was tried, nothing seemed to change. it was infuriating. ❛ they've been heating up and splintering when i ain't even usin' my quirk. can't figure out why, so fix them. ❜
@portraitsof
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"Lean on me, I’ve got you." bracing himself to get punched in the face, but still feeling the need to take care of him hehehe
ASK MEME. ACCEPTING. @eraseur
flames and ether rush through veins, flesh and blood playing out lightning to strike as limbs stiffen. sodden in drizzle with rain still falling alongside industrial smoke, katsuki can barely bring himself to move from where he lays. the ground is wet, puddles forming beside and the rally of rain-clouds weigh down the vertical-flowing sky. wait. the sky's not meant to sway in some odd downward flow, is it? he groans. his knee feels twisted sore under the guard, head near spinning with every twitch; clockwise, paused, reversed until his eyes fall shut again. a concussion, of course, and it seems a dislocated knee. they aren't the worst injuries he's suffered, far from the outpouring anguish that came with building his palms' callouses, but it still stings. [ in what way, katsuki can't quite place. ]
retracing his steps in the forms of memory, he knows he was careful to avoid damaging the practice buildings foundation, that he'd barely set off anything bigger than a spark. he couldn't of caused the collapse. katsuki wasn't an idiot. no, clearly someone else hadn't gotten the memo of being careful. fortunately for them, he had grown rather skilled at shooting himself out of windows even if his landings remained rough. his finger twitches. his shoulders ache. a piercing-quiet setles as the droplets ease their torrent, the sound around faded and dull. wisps of simple musing sing in faint tide-rhythm flows, half-thought things which easily muddle between themselves. cringing forms in the crowded air scuttle and flutter in and out, leaving in their place an odd semblance of rest. it's easier to exist with his eyes closed.
then, all at once, noise thunders back to him and brings with it a penetrating pain that leaves him wincing. it just makes the headache worse. echoes of raindrops, shouts of his class and the steady pace of footsteps soon encroaching towards his muddied sanctuary all roar undisturbed. katsuki is sure this is what hell must be. loudness and company. if it's izuku coming over, i'll scream, he thinks distantly but instead, it's his teacher. aizawa's voice is lost to the sea of riot and bombast, barely lessening even when katsuki manages to peel open his eyes. there is a sharp inhale that comes from one of them before he's moved. the world begins to spin faster and katsuki smacks a gloved palm towards aizawa's face to make it stop. he grins when it hits and squawks when it does nothing to stop the shifting ground.
❛ fuck you. ❜ katsuki says and hopes it conveys everything he feels before his eyes shut again.
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katsuki watches on with a gaze of evening flame. there is something that flickers, struggling against the flashing heat that burrows into his chest and rakes slowly through it. the feelings abject sharpness is unsettlingly new. raw, almost. like there is a running wound that writhes tumultuous under his skin, his very being. it breathes out alongside the small grunt he makes as izuku moves him, the harsh shriek of the wind making even himself wince. katsuki has half the mind to yell, until he sees izuku's barely there trembling. how he's in front to take the hit. [ just like katsuki had been. on the surface they're nothing alike, but he's begun to realise that he's the reason izuku left. the final domino that fell. just like always, he is the catalyst to something terrible. ]
so, even to the surprise of himself, katsuki doesn't yell or bite out a snarling response, he just stares. expression pinched into a contemplative look until suddenly he slouches, eyes darting away and he snorts with a roll of the shoulders.
❛ probably. ❜ he says, and the smoke-veiled throne he always sat tall at ebbs, dissapating even more. it's all its done this year, that supposed stable foundation of his. fade away until he's left with nothing he's ever known and forced to acknowledge his own snarling fear of inadequacy, his own weakness. [ bloodied, bruised, its ripped at every limb and somedays katsuki can even persuade himself he's a different person now. most days, he knows he isn't. ] still, katsuki makes no effort to move. he knows he'll leave izuku's side again before morning peaks through the clouds least anyone notice, but for now the streets are quiet. the night calm. there is no reason for him to go, not yet. ❛ why? my company not good enough for you anymore? ❜
an awful taste settles in the back of his throat, more truth in the snarked out answer than the tone implies. with his injuries, katsuki is all too aware he is in no shape to fight if an escaped villain were to startle through the peace. knows he's useless in comparison to the outpouring power of one for all that lingers in each tremble of lightning that alights izuku's whole form. the bandages serve only as a reminder of katsuki's own pathetic uselessness. all he could do to save izuku was almost die, and though he knows he'd do it over and over again, the barely healed wounds are humiliatingly human. what use is he, if his only ability to help izuku is to nearly die?
❛ i just had to make sure your dumb ass hadn't died in some fuckin' alley. tryin' to take on shigaraki without one for all would be a real mess, though of course we'd still win 'cause i'd be there. i've got a lot to say to that bastard. ❜
Their shoulders collided lightly and Izuku was surprised by the amount of comfort he managed to gather from that brief contact. It reminded him of the other day when he was eating his lunch in a narrow alley several streets down from here. It was a dingy, unsanitary space, but also pleasantly quiet until a soft meow alerted him to the fact that he was not alone. The stray was mangy but seemed friendly enough as it crawled up his leg, stepped on his chest, and bumped its head against his shoulder.
He hadn't realized his desperation for companionship until now...After he had officially walked away from everyone because he needed them to be safe.
This moment here, with Katsuki, was selfishness - yes, Izuku was aware.
But he took the protein bar anyway, despite the guilt, because he could not physically refuse a gift from his childhood friend. Once upon a time, all he wanted was for Katsuki to turn around and look at him, now that he actually achieved that and more, he suddenly became fearful of losing it all.
He peeled back the plastic wrapping of the protein bar with no sense of urgency because he didn't feel hungry. Once he actually had the first bite, however, the bar disappeared in seconds. "Thanks." Guess hunger was something that could be ignored too when one was too single-mindedly focused on a higher goal.
Izuku allowed silence to sit between them for a while as he struggled with indecision, but eventually, did opt to verbalize the unreasonable request that was swimming in his head.
"Can I see?" His gaze drifted towards Katsuki's torso. "Is it fully he-"
There was a rustle in the distance - that was all - but Izuku could not stop himself from responding. He swapped their positions with a single swift movement so that he was between Katsuki and whatever made the sound.
His danger sense did not activate. It was only the wind, and his increasing paranoia.
"I am sorry, Kacchan." Was he apologizing for overreacting just now, for getting the other hurt in the first place, or for leaving without a proper goodbye? Even Izuku didn't know. "Can you...Go back to UA?" There was a chance he was inviting the blond's anger, but Izuku didn't care anymore. "You shouldn't be out here. Especially not looking for me."
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“How are you feeling?” From Mami :)
ASK MEME. ACCEPTING. @memuria
simultaneously, katsuki feels both everything and nothing. blurring his sight like some sort of flying detritus of pollen or dust. his body thrums red-headed, the hairs on the back of his neck still raised as breathes come short. [ how are you feeling? like everything living and enervated is jutting out in shapes i don't recognise. ] trembling hands begin to ease as the white knuckled grip around the crowbar loosens, and a heavy noise follows after one end hits the floor. with a tight look, shoulders lift when he drops to sit, head between his knees and the thrum of the witches lair fizzling into bird chirps. lips are soon chewed raw. a hand reaches to scratch absent-mindedly at the feather-soft tufts of hair at the base of his head as katsuki sighs. staring towards a weed that sprouts through a crack between his shoes, he offers mami a shrug.
how the fuck is he meant to answer that?
what are you meant to feel, afterall, when you realise that reality itself isn't stable that there are puddles that reflect something you didn't think could be real? katsuki had thought the whole experience was a dream. a horrid one, sure, where he tasted sunlight thicker than cough-syrup and had twigs in place of limbs as everything glittered gold, but a dream nonetheless. and yet, it wasn't. it was more real than the everday he'd walked for years, just humming under each step. [ a part of him always knew it wasn't a dream in how it curled into the back of his mind like mold, unmoving and persistent. he supposes seeing mami was just a confirmation of a fear he didn't realise he had. ]
❛ fuckin' great, obviously. couldn't you tell? ❜ katsuki snarks with his voice heavy. he throws his head back, groaning as the crowbar is properly dropped and hands move to rub at his face in dismay. ❛ who doesn't enjoy finding out their nightmare is fuckin' real and has a shitton of friends? fuck, i've got a headache from that bullshit. nice guns'n all but i'm never joinin' you again. s'like i got jetlag or fell off a bridge. how the fuck did you even get those? ❜
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‘ are you threatening me? ’ from dabi <3
katsuki swears that there must be a sign written on his forehead in nontoxic marker exclaiming 'hey villains! come get me you bastards!' and it's beginning to piss him off. half the time it seems, neither of them are even in active duty, just dressed as civillain-esque as they can manage and going about normal person things. [ he assumes that late-night walks are normal, even if technically not allowed. it will be a cold day in hell when aizawa catches him on the cameras again. ] now seemed to be another one of those times. it had initially started as a short excursion to the nearby 7/11 for some melon soda and rice crackers, perfect snacks for late evening studying. the weather was pleasant enough, air still and cool as the streets droaned on in peaceful silence. with the goods secured, he'd only taken a few steps into the darkened streets before he felt the air shift.
someone was watching him.
gripping the melon soda tighter, katsuki maintained his lax pace least it was just another passerby. [ he'd already blown up at some extra this week because of his increasing paranoia, and he was in no mood to deal with another lecture. or another is he a villain? spiel from the news. ] as the gaze seemed to continue to linger on him despite walking steadily forward, he frowned. flickering lights above nestled under his skin, nerve endings prickling like sinuous knitting-needles had bunched further and deeper into his limbs. apparently his mind liked to lie to him. right now it felt like it was trying to warn him. with misplaced confidence and gripping anger that incessantly flickered, katsuki turns on his heel with a glare to where he presumes the figure stands.
❛ what's you're fuckin' problem asshole? i'll kill you! ❜ belatedly, as his gaze searches through the shadows of alleys and doorways, that the threat is significantly lessened by his attire. he'd left in his pyjamas. his all-might themed pyjamas that had the heroes face printed in blurred pixels and spanning across almost all of the t-shirt. shit. before he has the time to dwell, a familiar voice replies. ❛ are you threatening me? ❜
katsuki wishes he'd just be put out his misery at this point. all he'd wanted was some snacks. ❛ of course i am dipshit! what do you think i'll kill you means? fuckin' hell. you're even stupider than you look. now fuck off already before i give you more shit to stitch back up! ❜
@dpsdiff / @crem8
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half-asleep, it takes a moment for shoto’s words to fultter through. a daze of blurry innumerable flowers droop as his head turns and eyelids crack open with a glare. katsuki hates sharing a room. usually they don’t, the doctors letting him wallow in splintered gold and indistinguishable emotion that trembles, but now they do. he figures it’s from how frequently they’re here in near-death states. it saves time to shove the problem the children into one room least they wake up yelling for the other again. he groans. a hand reaches to wipe at his face, soon turning to a middle-finger as he rolls his eyes, mumbling. ❛ and you look fuckin’ ugly. don’t know why it’s suddenly a problem. ❜
careful of the wires and bandages that wrap beneath blankets, he moves to stand. a sharp ache waves passionless through ribs and he lets out a breathy wheeze that he smothers in a sigh. [ how long do stab wounds take to heal anyways? the stubborness of pain is starting to piss him off. ] grabbing at the few spare coins that litter his bedside, he hobbles to drop them unceremoniously on shoto’s lap. katsuki would have to be dead and buried to pass off an opportunity to inconvenience him. ❛ aren’t you meant to be the rich one? fuckin’ asshole. now get your ass up, i’m cravin’ melon soda and i know if i let you go by yourself you’ll just buy me the wrong shit again. ❜
‘ you look terrible. ‘ shoto says it in his typical blunt way. it’s not meant to be an insult, it’s just a simple fact. he says it with the same infliction that you would tell a friend what the weather is like outside. though he knows he probably looks just as bad. at this point, the two of them should just move into the hospital. they definitely spent the most time there, along with midoriya. it seemed like after every major battle, the 3 of them ended up in the worst of it, with the worst injuries to heal before getting right back out there.
it weirdly allows plenty of time for the two of them to hang out. not necessarily a fun time, considering the extent of their injuries most of the time, but some quiet, quality time. he looks over from his own hospital bed, looking around for his clothes. ‘ i’m hungry. i want something from the vending machine. give me a few dollars. ‘
@hwitzr
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this face is anothers [...] a skinless vapour that weeps: these hands decay and i am not myself. a broken prototype. WHEN THE SMOKE FADES, I WILL FIND A SHAPE WORTH TAKING.
an independent, low activity and headcanon-heavy baku.go katsu.ki of horikoshi's boku no hero academ.ia! this blog will only be using beta legacy and will revolve around the themes of: guilt as an open wound, metamorphosis and anger as all you are. written by lou.
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what does your heart look like ?
molten lava and charred flesh.
your heart burned so fiercely that it burnt itself out, leaving horrible scars in its wake; scars inside your chest and on the hands of those who touched you, the hearts of anyone who got close enough to connect to yours. the person you are now is no longer recognisable, burnt up by your own anger and passion and love. the injuries can never be fully erased, but they can be soothed with time and trust and forgiveness.
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bird-song, bloom, rapture. it eats away at his day to day, greying the school walls and joy swollen to fraility. he trains with izuku, tries to ignore the rough-red cheeks of eijiro when a new teacher comes to fill midnight's spot, and sways on his aching legs back to bed. the routine is a simple one. thought-infested nightmares just fetter in the hell of his room, haunting as eyes stare and hands reach to him. it's routine. as are the purple shadows undereye that only grow darker, the way his shoulders tense if izuku is out the room. it's routine, one that shudders and aches. but he's managing. katsuki's not weak enough to crack just from this, he'll be fine because there's no other choice.
izuku, of course, seems intent to disrupt it. the two are near inseperable now. when they aren't training, they're talking to all-might or walking around the school together as normality shudders around them. he sighs, quiet. izuku glances at him with a frown yet katsuki can only offer a shrug. [ how are you meant to explain you're tired? that nothing will ever be the same again, and it terrifies you like you're five years old again? ] he can see izuku open his mouth to say something, like always, before another voice filters through the hall. it's empty except for a door barely cracked open. katsuki puts a hand to izuku's chest, stopping him mid-step before signalling him to be quiet.
❛ really? that's what you found? are you sure right... ok. yes, i understand, i'll check the files you sent soon... upsetting? how? oh oh, that's, yes. and he was only 10? ❜ a heavy, tired sounding sigh follows, and a chair creaks. katsuki doesn't breath. ❛ i see. and you're sure that the nomu was him? ...you are. he was dr. tsubasa's nephew? right... yes, i'll i'll make sure to send them across. thank you. ❜ and a click rings out as silence falls.
it takes a moment for the air to leave his throat, a murky feeling building in his chest. katsuki knew a tsubasa, knew one who went missing at ten years old and how no one had seen or heard from him since. his uncle had reported him missing. the case went dead only a few months after. katsuki feels his hands tremble and for a moment, thinks he must be dreaming. he has to be.
@roguesenses
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❛ the fuck? ❜ there's an incredulous look accompanying the complaint, shoulders tensing as once stilled lips twitch. tenya looks no different, not really. his hair is still flat, glasses still square and yet the engines on his calves seem sleeker. newer. katsuki's frown deepens. hard flint self-kindled rises through the column of his throat, mingling between quiet breathes. it's not anger he realises, but something new he can't quite name. ❛ what's with your engines? ❜
@deckofclubs ♥
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" you can stay the night. if you'd like. i have a spare room. " pro hero touya after a late night patrol/post a scuffle with villains and thinks that baku should sleep soon and he cares him from b4sekoto
treading the thorny road, street-lights shine ardent against a twighlighted evening. their walk is quiet, punctuated only by the fading meoldies of soft breathes and dragging steps. it's late. late enough, that even the gentle bustle of the city is awash in an uncomplaining sleep, and katsuki wishes he was too. droopy-eyed and faint as he'd rest like dew on a peaceful petal, where melancholic thunder lay behind glass rather than threatening overhead. but he's not. instead he still wanders with trembling arms, red imprints embalming his skin like frozen fire with an expression that betrays none of it. next to montag touya, he'd rather keel over than ever admit to being tired [...] a chance like this isn't one to take for granted. [ he knows too much about taking after all, and he's not sure how he'd fare if touya ever saw him as weak. the thought is cut off before it has the chance to reply. ]
a hand on his shoulder shakes the silken fringe over his eyes, touya's blue eyes warm in a way katsuki wishes his own were. answering with a slow shrug, his gaze flits back to the empty street, the lights. to the small movements of bugs that diffuse themselves in some lorn nightgale. for a moment, his tongue lays heavy against barbs, wondering, fleetingly, on how to respond. [ should he thank touya? abandon the instinct to swear and sneer for once, and answer like a 'real' hero? ] it's what so many others have tried to teach by cutting through each layer and calling it humility but then, touya has yet to complain. it's... nice. refreshing, almost. like maybe he's not some passing ghost stuck in a mockery of itself.
❛ fine. better not be a shithole though. ❜ he finally utters, a frown twisted along his mouth. [ it reminds him of how he acts around all-might, painfully awkward and like the child he knows, somewhere, he is. one day he'll kill that part of himself, he's sure. ] ❛ s'just gotta tell mr. aizawa. he'd kick my ass otherwise. ❜
@crem8 / @b4sekoto
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