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One Act Play: Four Seasons

Theme: Love

Length: One Act Play

Mode: Romance

Medium: Television

Setting (Time and Place): England, 2018

Character/s: Alexis Marie Lopez

Tyler Frank Williams

What will be your name in the play?

Alexis Marie Lopez

What will you be like?

Main Character

Who else can be part of your dream role?

Anyone

What will he/she be like?

Leading man (Tyler)

NARRATOR:

Alexis and Tyler has been bestfriends since they were kids. They’ve been through everything with each other, they know everything about each other. Fast forward to the year 2018, the two are now 20 years old. Alexis has been dreaming of becoming a writer. Tyler, on the other hand, has been dreaming of marrying Alexis. Tyler had had feelings for Jo ever since the first day they met. But would Alexis, let their relationship be more platonic?

ALEXIS AND TYLER WALKING IN THE WOODS AS THEY’VE DONE FOR YEARS

ALEXIS:

My sisters got out of here. I guess I’ll be always living here until I finish up my novel

TYLER:

You don’t have to stay here, Alexis. You know that.

ALEXIS:

Why? You want to take me to run away with you?

TYLER EXHALES AND LOOKS AT HER, ABOUT TO TALK. ALEXIS SAW HIS FACE AND IMMEDIATELY KNOWS WHAT IT’S ABOUT

ALEXIS:

No, Ty—please don’t

TYLER:

It’s no use, Alexis; we’ve got to have it out!

ALEXIS:

No, we don’t. We shouldn’t, Ty

TYLER:

I have loved you ever since I’ve known you—I couldn’t help it and I tried to show, you wouldn’t let me which is fine but I must make you hear now and give me an answer because I cannot go on like this any longer.

ALEXIS:

Ty, no. You misinterpreted everythin—

TYLER:

(not listening to her)

I worked so hard to please you. I gave up everything that you didn’t like and I’m happy I did.

It’s fine and I waited and I never complained because I figured you loved me.

ALEXIS:

You didn’t have to do all of that, Ty.

TYLER (CONT’D):

(voice breaking)

And I figured I’m not half good enough and I’m not this great man everyone expects me to be.

ALEXIS:

Yes, you are and you are a great deal too—too good for me. And I’m so grateful to you and I’m so proud of you and I just don’t see why I can’t love you the way that you want me to. I don’t know why.

TYLER:

(in disbelief)

You can’t?

ALEXIS:

(helplessly)

I can’t change the feeling and it would be a lie to say I do when I don’t. I’m so sorry, Ty, so desperately sorry, but I can’t help it...

TYLER TURNS HIS BACK ON ALEXIS

TYLER:

I can’t love anyone else. I only love you

ALEXIS:

We’d be a disaster if we marry, Ty! We both have our own issues, you know that!

TYLER:

It wouldn’t be a disaster, Alexis. If we marry I’d be a perfect saint—

ALEXIS:

I can’t, Ty. I’ve tried it and I’ve failed.

TYLER:

Then why does everyone expect us to be together? Say yes and let’s be happy together, please

ALEXIS:

I can’t say yes truly so I’m not going to say it at all.

PAUSE

ALEXIS(CONT’D):

You’ll see that I’m right, eventually, and you’ll thank me for it.

TYLER:

I’d rather hang myself than realize that. I’d rather be dead

ALEXIS:

Ty, please don’t say that. Your world isn’t supposed to stop just because of me.

TYLER:

I’ve made you my world.

TYLER WALKS FURTHER AWAY FROM ALEXIS WHILE TALKING

ALEXIS:

You shouldn’t have done that, Ty.

ALEXIS FOLLOWS TYLER

ALEXIS(CONT’D):

Ty, listen, you’ll find some lovely accomplished girl who will love you and adore you and she’s gonna make a great wife for your great house but I wouldn’t, alright? I wouldn’t be this “accomplished” girl. I’m broken and I’m awkward, Ty

THE TWO OF THEM STOPPED WALKING

TYLER:

(not listening to what she’s saying)

I love you, Alexis.

ALEXIS(CONT’D):

I’m miserable, I haven’t accomplished anything in life and you’d be ashamed of me.

TYLER:

I love you, Alexis

ALEXIS:

Sooner or later, you’ll realize that this decision is wrong. Everything would be horrid, Ty.

TYLER:

(looking down)

Anything more?

ALEXIS:

No, nothing more.

TYLER:

Alright

TYLER ATTEMPTS TO LEAVE UNTIL

ALEXIS(CONT’D):

Except I— Ty, I don’t even believe I would ever marry. I’m happy as I am.

TYLER:

(now accepting his fate)

I think you’re wrong about that. I think you’ll marry. I think you’ll find someone to love and you’ll live with them and die for them because that’s your way and you will and I’ll watch.

TYLER THEN FINALLY WALKS AWAY FROM THE WOODS

ALEXIS JUST WATCHED HIM FLEE THE SCENE

Champagne Problem by Taylor Swift starts to play (Bridge Part)

Your midas touch on the chevy door, november flushed and your flannel cure

STILL FOCUSED ON ALEXIS BEING LEFT IN THE OPEN AREA

THEN

(DAYS PASSED)

SHOWS SCENE TYLER PACKING UP BECAUSE HE’S MOVING AWAY

This dorm was once a madhouse, I made that joke well it’s made for me

SHOWSH ALEXIS TRYING TO FINISH UP HER NOVEL

How evergreen, our group of friends. Don’t think we’ll say that words again

SHOWS ALEXIS GETTING OUT OF THE HOUSE WANTING TO SEE TYLER ONCE AGAIN

And soon they’ll have the nerve to deck the halls that we once walked through. One for the money, two for the show

THE TWO MEETS AGAIN, SMILING AT EACH OTHER

TYLER LEAVES

I never was ready so I watched you go

NARRATOR(V.O):

Tyler and Alexis are now entering a new chapter of their lives: Adulthood. Both of them are leaving their childhood which they both spent together. Alexis had just published her very first novel she’s been working on most of her teenage life. Tyler is now abroad trying to take over his father’s company. Tyler and Alexis leave childhood, and Tyler spent his childhood with Alexis, and he doesn’t want to leave it without her. Alexis is seen to not be regretting her decision. Tyler did marry a girl he met abroad while Alexis continued to write and never got married.

END

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Celebrating Little Successes

Celebrating Small Successes

The writer of this essay you’re reading is a 16 year old teenage girl named Jean Lerry Serrano Catingco. They say that being born on October 26, 2006 is once in a blue moon. My birthday being on October 26th makes me a scorpio, they say a scorpio is determined and I can assure you that it is legitimate. I put my mind into every thing that I do. I am an overachiever, I try to be the best version that I can be in every situation that I encounter. My hobbies revolve around singing, dancing, reading and watching films. I just discovered reading as my hobby during the global pandemic. Being locked in our house for almost 3 years has given me an opportunity to discover myself more. Through my discovery process, I have discovered myself even more. Even traits that I wouldn’t believe that I would ever possess, such as being determined, back before I didn't care about my studies and would just chill, now I’m a very competitive student and am always trying to be the best. Though the process of always trying can also be somehow draining and exhausting like a cat trying to catch the laser. I also discovered my passion in writing, the pandemic has given me enough time to improve my vocabulary and writing skills. During the pandemic I have written stories to kill my time, I have improved the way I describe emotions, events and sceneries. That’s why I am grateful that I chose to study under the strand Humanities and Social Sciences because under this strand I am able to use my writing skills because we are always tasked to make essays. I also discovered my love for film and music. I have discovered that I love the genres, rhythm and blues and indie pop. I've discovered certain artists that perfectly depict my personality such as Lana Del Rey, Sza, Frank Ocean etc. These things that I just stated are what makes me me. There's no concrete thought that these things wouldn’t change because I know it will change, eventually. I know I still have a long way to go in discovering myself but I’m grateful now that I know how to control, pamper, and better myself. I’m proud to say that I’ve gone through darkest moments in order for me to know what I truly need in certain times. I’m proud to say that I do not need to depend on people to make myself feel better. I’m content that I only need myself to feel comfortable in this world.

Actually, I don’t know how well I am, I do not feel good nor do I feel bad. I feel tired and restless, I’ve been craving rest and peace for the past months. January and February had been awful for me. I don’t feel real, I just feel like I’m existing into this world like a wind, who just exists and is not seen. I do not feel seen, people around me seem to always invalidate my whole existence. It has gone to the point where I just chose to stay silent rather than to be hurt by their silence. I feel pathetically ignored by the people whom I always see and I’m starting to realize that maybe they just don’t see me the same way that I do. I feel burned out from school, all these activities make me feel bad. I’m an overachiever, a perfectionist, so I’m having a hard time trying to always be the perfect student. In the eyes of my mom and in the eyes of myself, I am disappointed that I do not bring anything positive into this world. I do nothing but to always disappoint myself, it’s even funny that I always try to find ways to excuse myself. I want to rest but somehow I can’t because I have a lot of responsibilities as my mother’s daughter. I have a lot of tasks to excel as an honor student. And what’s even sadder is I’m only realizing it now, how burned out and tired I am from existing. I didn’t even have time to vent and cry it all out because of how busy I am from trying. I am always trying but unfortunately people don’t appreciate me trying. Even just a small congrats, I would be happy I’m not even aiming for the “I’m proud of you” because I know I won’t ever receive it from them. I’m so drained from life, sometimes I think that maybe it would be best to run away from all my responsibilities. The strengths that I have discovered within me is that I don’t need to depend on anyone else in order to exist in this world. I’ve learned that through the events and hardships I have encountered within me. That’s the one and only strength that I possess that I think is hard to ever be owned by anyone else because you can only achieve that once you’ve actually gone through depths of your life. And with that being said, yes, I have gone through depths of my life, it’s sad realizing it now but unfortunately it is true. The weakness that I have discovered within me is being disappointed. I don’t get that disappointed easily but when I do, I get upset big time. I only get disappointed easily when we’re talking about academics. Let me be honest, I cry over my grades even though they are not that tear worthy. I’ve always dreamed of being perfect, academically speaking, I want to be the one student who always has outstanding scores. So whenever I get average scores, I’m disappointed and would be sad over it. It’s pathetic to hear, my friends also call me pathetic because I would cry over a score that’s already “high” for them. I wish I can proudly say I'm happy with no doubt, with no masking of what I truly feel. There’s this one time that I begged God to make me feel okay because what I have been feeling is pathetic, not normal. I begged Him to help me be okay, I even cried at His home. I sometimes feel that all life gives me is suffering and pain, no joy. Last 2022, I did not feel okay, months were just reminders of how I suffered. But it was an okay year, at least for this is where I started discovering myself, my true self. What lies within me, what my weaknesses are and what are my strengths. Where I’m good at, I’ll be thankful that it did happen though it was a crucial process. I just hope 2023 will offer me happiness and peace.

I would be delighted to know that you’re able to read this for this is an open letter to you, my future self. I’ve witnessed how hard you’ve struggled these past months, it even surprises me that until now I’m able to continue going on with my life. How did I manage to survive all those hardships? Remember that one time where you’re suffering but no one’s there to help you? That’s the moment you realized that you truly only have yourself in this battle called life. You’ve helped yourself to be better, to become okay and you eventually did. It was a harsh process but you did. You did receive help from others but the help that truly helped you was the help from yourself. That event made me realize how truly strong I am and ever since that day I promised to myself I would only trust myself with my problems, on how I will engage with what I’m going through. Whenever you feel like giving up, remember you’ve already passed through more harder events in your life, you can for sure do the same as of now. You have yourself and you only need yourself to be able to overcome it. I know that you know how to fix everything up, if everything starts to feel too overwhelming and suffocating just always remember to breathe. There’s nothing wrong with taking a small break, to breathe even just for a bit, to chill out. With that, you’ll have time to figure out what you are truly going through. I hope you’ve finally learned how to not keep all what you feel inside you and let it all out. Don’t wait for it to burst out because that would be even negative for you. I know by the time you’ve read this, you’ve now discovered a lot more about yourself. As of now, I already did discover myself but not that much, I’ve discovered that I do not need anyone to depend on anyone in order to feel validated. I’ve discovered that I only ever wanted validation for myself. And I hope you still have that mindset as of now, I hope you’re still as independent as I am, now though I can’t say that I’m fully independent but I can say that I’m getting there. I hope you’ve grown more independent. You've probably moved to another city to study for college. I hope you got into your dream university that you’ve dreamed and worked hard for. If not, it’s okay and I hope wherever you’re studying is, you are happy, content and learning. I hope that wherever life took you, you’re happy and are at peace. Now, finding peace is a big thing for us now. It means minding our own business and just basically being happy on our own. Being happy, genuinely like we don’t need to broadcast to the world that we’re happy. I hope you’re alive and well, I hope you’re genuinely happy. I hope some of our dreams are now fulfilled.

But the process of living

I’ve always find exhausting

But it is not the ending

Of what I’m discovering

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Continuation of Critique Paper #2

Marianne ends their relationship abruptly.Throughout their relationship, violence repeatedly impacts Marianne and Connell in unexpected ways. Marianne’s relationship with Jamie suffers strain and Marianne and Connell are drawn closer together when Connell is mugged and Marianne tenderly sees to his injuries in front of Jamie and other friends. The suicide of a friend from school days not only sends Connell into a severe depression but also leads to Helen’s breaking up with Connell when she sees at the funeral how much Connell still cares for Marianne. During a later summer back home, Connell rushes to be with Marianne after Alan breaks her nose by smashing a door in her face. Connell threatens to kill Alan if he mistreats Marianne again.By the time graduation from university approaches, Marianne understands that she and Connell have been good for each other, despite all the troubled times. Connell has developed a desire to write fiction professionally and is showing a romantic interest in Sadie, a past editor at the campus literary magazine. When Connell is accepted to a graduate program in creative writing in New York, Marianne tells him he should go, and that she will always be there for him.

Moral Lesson

This story is all about miscommunication. Marianne and Connell had always liked one another but seems to be always lacking in communicating how they feel about each other. The very best lesson of this story is to always communicate what you feel and what you are thinking. Communication is the key to everything, if only the two of them had deduced their shyness towards communicating, they would’ve had a relationship that is free from any miscommunications. The full horror of Marianne’s home life is brought to the forefront in later episodes. The abuse she suffers at the hands of her brother is vile and abominable. It is also an inescapable element of everyday life for people, especially women, all around the world. When we meet Marianne she is submerged in this toxic environment, but her ability to move away from the abuse and create the life that she deserves is inspirational. Thus, while the ending to Marianne’s story is not as obviously exciting as that of Connell’s (he is presumably on his way to a prestigious writing career in New York while she chooses to remain behind in Ireland), it is equally momentous because she finally frees herself from her oppressive family environment in a true display of power and resilience. This makes her character arc extremely satisfying as it signals the promise of future growth for Marianne.

Although this is only a brief insight into the character of Marianne, these characteristics are the most poignant to me. Yes, Marianne is not perfect, and she makes mistakes; she doesn’t have an ideal life, and she is the victim of her life’s circumstances in some respects. But she holds many desirable qualities which I feel have been underrepresented in the media to date. Her courage, resilience and strength throughout the series, and particularly in the closing scene, act as a reminder to everybody who is struggling that there is light at the end of the tunnel. That changing your life circumstances is possible, even if it sometimes involves sacrifice.

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Critique Paper #2: Normal People by Sally Rooney

Title: Normal People

Author: Sally Rooney

Characters: Marianne Sheridan, Connell Waldron, Lorraine Waldron, Helen Brophy

Characterization:

Marianne Sheridan - is the main protagonist of the story, she was born to an affluent family and grew up in Carricklea. Her father was physically abusive and died at some point before the story, leaving Marianne with her mother, Denise, and brother, Alan.

Connell Waldron - Connell was born to a teen mother, Lorraine Waldron. Not much is known about Connell's father, but it can be assumed he's largely been out of the picture for most if not all of Connell's life. Connell is an english literary student and enjoys writing short stories.

Lorraine Waldron - is the mother of Connell Waldron and was a housekeeper of the Sheridan family’s home

Helen Brophy - is a supporting character in the story written by Sally Rooney. She was a short-time girlfriend of Connell Waldron

Summary

Marianne Sheridan and Connell Waldron attend secondary school in a small town in Ireland and will soon be going off to college. They are smart, like to read, are interested in world events, and care about social justice. Marianne lives with her brother and her widowed mother. They are a wealthy family, but her brother, Alan, is verbally and physically abusive toward Marianne, and her mother, instead of intervening, takes Alan’s side. Marianne has low self-esteem from years of internalizing her brother’s verbal abuse. Connell’s mother, Lorraine, works as a cleaner. She dropped out of school when she became pregnant with Connell and never told anyone who the father was. Lorraine cleans the Sheridans’ house twice weekly. Since she doesn’t drive, Lorraine needs Connell to pick her up when she is done, so Connell and Marianne see each other often. Connell is self-conscious about his origins, naturally shy, inarticulate in conversations, and indecisive. At school, Marianne is deliberately antisocial and is considered a misfit, whereas Connell is handsome and athletic, and is therefore popular despite his private insecurities. Publicly, Marianne ignores Connell to avoid harming his social standing, but privately she tells Connell bluntly that she has feelings for him. Cornell has feelings for Marianne, too, but he thinks of their relationship as a private matter and not to be shared with the rest of the world. His feelings are partly based partly on wanting to protect his social status, but also he connects with Marianne in a way he does not connect with anyone else and does not fully understand. Lorraine is aware that Marianne and Connell are growing close and approves since she likes Marianne a great deal. After Marianne and Connell begin a sexual relationship, over time Connell becomes more willing to be seen with Marianne in public. The relationship ends abruptly, however, when Connell asks one of the school’s most popular girls, not Marianne, to the dance for graduating seniors. Lorraine is furious at Connell, and Marianne is so humiliated that she stops attending school. Connell is ashamed and wants to apologize to Marianne, but she ignores his calls and texts.Connell and Marianne meet again while attending university in Dublin, when her current boyfriend, a political right-winger named Gareth, invites Connell to a party. Marianne and Connell reconnect and resume their relationship. However, whereas she is comfortable in the upper-class university environment and has become much more sociable than she was in school, Connell continually feels out of place at university. Connell’s sense of social inferiority leads to a second breakup with Marianne after a few months. Connell goes on to have a relationship with another student, Helen, who is more conventional than Marianne and condescends toward him. When Connell and Marianne both win a coveted scholarship, both his social standing and his financial situation improve. However, he still feels restless and unhappy at university. Marianne has other relationships as well. She was a virgin before being with Connell, but during a relationship with Jamie, who is from a family even wealthier than her own, Marianne discovers that she wants to be dominated and physically abused during sex. When Marianne shares this fact with Connell, she assures him that her behavior with her boyfriend is an act. For Connell, she says, she really would do anything. Marianne continues to suffer abuse at the hands of her brother and mother when she is home for visits. She breaks up with Jamie after he behaves badly in front of others during a European trip. Connell comforts her, but she does not get back together with Connell. During a study year in Sweden, Marianne has another sado-masochistic relationship, this time with a photographer named Lukas. However, when Lukas mentions love, Marianne ends their relationship abruptly.Throughout their relationship, violence repeatedly impacts Marianne and Connell in unexpected ways. Marianne’s relationship with Jamie suffers strain and Marianne and Connell are d

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Critique Paper #1: Emma by Jane Austen

Title: Emma

Author: Jane Austen

Characters: Emma Woodhouse, Harriet Smith, Mr. Knightley, George Knightley, Frank Churchill, Jane Fairfax, Mr. Weston, Mr. Woodhouse

Characterization:

Emma Woodhouse - is the main protagonist of the book, she is describe as a handsome, rich, clever 21 year old girl living in Hartfield.

Harriet Smith - is a major character of the story, who is a 17 year-old parlor boarder at Mrs. Goddard’s who eventually became Emma’s governess.

George Knightley - is a landowner and gentleman farmer, though "having little spare money". He was Emma’s friend for over seventeen years before confessing his love to her.

Frank Churchill - is a complex character because though we know we should judge him harshly in moral terms, we cannot help but like him more than he deserves to be liked.

Jane Fairfax - is the only person whom Emma Woodhouse envies due to her accomplishments and beauty. She marries Frank Churchill after a long and secret engagement.

Mr. Weston - is a supporting character of the story, who eventually marries Emma’s governess, Harriet Smith.

Mr. Woodhouse - is a central character in Jane Austen's novel Emma and the father of the protagonist, Emma Woodhouse.

Summary

Emma begins by asserting that the eponymous protagonist has every advantage that an early 19th-century young lady could wish for. Emma Woodhouse, who lives in the fictional town of Highbury in Southern England has good looks, intelligence, and a 30,000-pound fortune which means she never has to leave Hartfield, the home where she lives with her doting father Mr. Woodhouse. When her governess Miss Taylor leaves Hartfield to marry Mr. Weston, Emma is left with ample leisure time. As she has no incentive to marry, she decides that she will occupy herself by making a match for her new friend, the unsophisticated but beautiful Harriet Smith. She urges Harriet to reject the proposal of young farmer Robert Martin in favor of pursuing Highbury’s handsome vicar, Mr. Elton. When Emma’s long standing family friend and brother-in-law Mr. Knightley learns of her interference in Harriet’s love-life, he criticizes her, warning that she is so deluded by Harriet’s beauty that she overlooks the stigma of her lower social status, which will deter higher-born suitors such as Mr. Elton. When Emma sees that Mr. Elton is a willing participant in her schemes to get him close to Harriet, she thinks that Mr. Knightley will be proven wrong. However, when she learns that she is the true object of Mr. Elton’s intentions, Emma is humbled and resolves to do no more matchmaking. The New Year brings some new arrivals to Highbury. These include Mr. Elton’s new wife, the overbearing Mrs. Elton; Jane Fairfax, the accomplished, attractive niece of Emma’s tiresome neighbors; and Frank Churchill, Mr. Weston’s son from his first marriage to the high-born Miss Churchill. Frank claims that he had to keep putting off his visit to Highbury owing to the interventions of his aunt Mrs. Churchill, who disapproved of his parents’ marriage. For Emma, Frank is the most eagerly anticipated of these arrivals, as he is reportedly a handsome young man of about her age and she is eager to be romantically attached to him, even if she does not wish to marry. While Frank’s is undoubtedly attractive, he and Emma fall into an easy friendship, as he entertains her unfounded notion that cold, reserved Jane Fairfax is passionately in love with her brother-in-law Mr. Dixon. Although Emma understands that she ought to pity Jane Fairfax, who will have to leave her comfortable life with the family who raised her to become a governess, she cannot help disliking Jane because the latter’s talents make her feel inferior. Guided by her dislike of Jane and by Frank’s affirmations that he finds Jane unattractive, Emma overlooks the clues which indicate a secret attachment between Frank and Jane. Meanwhile, tensions rise between the Eltons and Emma as Mr. Elton resents that Emma judged him only worthy of marrying her lower status friend. Moreover, Mrs. Elton covets Emma’s centrality in Highbury’s social scene. The Eltons take out their frustrations with Emma on Harriet, especially when Mr. Elton publicly snubs her at a ball by refusing to dance with her. Mr. Knightley comes to Harriet’s rescue, and soon after Harriet confesses to Emma that she has an anonymous new love interest. Emma, who has just witnessed the romantic incident of Harriet’s rescue by Frank from a band of itinerant individuals who threaten her, imagines that Frank is the new love interest. Later, when Emma learns that Frank and Jane have been secretly engaged and breaks this news to an indifferent Harriet, Harriet delivers the blow that the object of her affections is Mr. Knightley. A horrified Emma realizes that she does not want Mr. Knightley to marry anyone but herself. She puts purposeful distance between herself and Harriet, fearing that she has lost Mr. Knightley forever. However, Mr. Knightley confesses his love for Emma, and they get married. Harriet, meanwhile, through a chance encounter, finds her way back to Robert Martin. As they have married into different social classes, Emma and Harriet must be more acquaintances than friends.

Moral Lesson

In the first few chapters of the book, it is stated that Mrs. Taylor, the governess of Emma’s home, is now quitting her job. Due to the fact that she’s getting married to Mr. Weston who lives 20 miles far from the home of the Woodhouses. Emma was sad and cannot bear to say goodbye to Mrs. Taylor. Mrs. Taylor has been a great friend to her, that’s why she’s having a hard time to part ways with her. After Mrs. Taylor’s departure, Emma didn’t know what to do but then she discovered Harriet Smith from the house of Mrs. Goddard, Emma knew Harriet just not that much. Harriet then replaced Mrs. Taylor’s place in their home. Just from that moment in the book, I realized that in everything that we lost, we will gain something new. We might be feeling broken, sad or melancholic because of it but it does get better. Probably not right now but the following days definitely. Everything will get better, eventually. It might feel like hell at the moment but soon enough you’ll feel heaven at last. It’s hard to accept the fact that some people will leave us but we have to accept the bitter reality. We have to accept it and move on. Those same people might once made you feel everything that’s why it makes it hard for us to say goodbye to them. Because we think that we wouldn’t know what to do without them. But we do, always we’re just too sad to function. It’s hard to accept, it is obviously a long process but in overcoming it you’ll gain new things from it, you’ll learn and most importantly you’ll grow. You might’ve lost them but there’s always going to be another person that will come, they might be much better than the last one. I don’t mean to say that we should find others instantly after losing other people. But what I am saying is that there’s someone who will be willing to do all the things that the previous person didn’t do to you. It is really hard because you’ll miss them big time, you’ll miss your moments together and the way they once made you feel. We will still get lost thinking about them, we want to ruin ourselves for them but the truth is there’s no need for that. You should always put yourself first because you should love yourself. Though I haven’t finished this book at all, just by reading the first few chapters of it. I’ve realized that love is a lot of things, it’s complicated, hurtful, sad but at the same time it’s happy and peaceful. Love is complicated as it is. And we, people, try to find a key for love to not be complicated. But, the truth is, it is and will always be complicated. In order to make love work, we need to have a perfect acceptance for someone who is imperfect. We have to accept their flaws and imperfections. Us, ourselves, are not perfect, what more is our partners? This book also made me realize that love is all around us. We can’t only find love with other people but also within ourselves. If we haven’t found “the one” for us, we shouldn’t search for it because it’ll come to us not by force but by fate. If they haven't come into our lives then we should just focus on ourselves and love ourselves more. In that way, when they finally come we’ll be ready and there would be no problems that would later on intercede our relationship. You can’t truly love another person if you don’t love yourself. Love starts with ourselves, so if you don’t love yourself how come you can love another person?

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Creative Writing Reflection #3

What I have learned this past lessons in Creative Writing is all about Characters, Settings, Type of Plots, and Possible Conflicts of a Story. In learning about these different key elements of a story. In this way I am able to identify what kind of character I am reading about. I also learned about the different types of characters such as a Major Character, Minor Character and a Round Character. In learning different kinds of characters, I am able to identify what kind of character is the main character of the student. I also learned that in the process of reading a story, we are required to critically analyze it, in that way we are able to know more about the story that we’re reading about, we’re able to strip down ideas. I also learned about Modes of Fictions such as Myth, Romance, High Mimetic and Low Mimetic. These Modes of Fiction are different types of characters that we can see in a story. It’s difficult to see some differences among the four especially between the High Mimetic and Low Mimetic. These Modes of Fictions are a bridge for us to have knowledge about the story that we are reading, in knowing what kind of mode the story you’re reading is a bonus for you because if you know what type it is among the four you’ll know how the story flows. I also learned about the different kinds of plots and by learning these different kinds I am able to identify what kind of plot the story is. Whether if it’s Linear, Episodic, Cumulative or Circular Plot. These different types of plots can significantly be applied if I am watching a movie or a tv series. And the last lesson I have learned is all about the Possible Conflict in a Story which is Man against Man, Man against Society, Man against Nature and Man against Self. We we’re asked by our teacher what’s the hardest kind of conflict is the hardest. That question honestly stucked into my mind and if I were to answer I would answer Man against Nature, why? Well, it’s simple really, because if your conflict is all about nature you have possible solution on how you can get passed through your conflict unlike in Man against Self-Conflict the villain of your story is the people who fights using their mentality, using their mind. And if we’re talking about mind, there is no concrete ways on how a protagonist can overcome that kind of conflict. If we notice and pay more attention to a story that has a conflict of Man agains Self it always ends up with the protagonist’s life getting more and more dark. They have no chance of overcoming themselves because I believe that the biggest enemy you could make is yourself. I’ve learned a lot under this subject and I’m grateful that I did. Having the privilege to study about these kind of topics is a blessing because in that way I am able to be more mindful when I am reading or watching a story. I hope I get to learn more about the different elements of story so that I’ll be able more about the story that I am reading about.

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Creative Writing Reflection #2

What I have learned this past week in our subject, Creative Writing is all about the different Literary Devices, Mood, Tone, Style and Classification of Fiction. When we’re talking about Literary Devices, it talks about Foreshadowing, Symbolism and Motif. Foreshadowing is giving the audiences hint or subtle keys on what would happen in the story that they are reading or watching. Symbolism is using an object, action, event, place or spoken word to signify new ideas and qualities by giving them added meaning. Or in easy words, these are the objects that are seen or read throughout the story that will later have a significance once the story ended. Once it finishes, the audience will soon realize that it wasn’t just an object, that it was indeed a symbolism of the event on the story. Motif is the recurring element usually sound, image, or other figure that suggestive or symbolic significance that advances the message of your story or its theme. In other words, it’s the story having its own theme that needs to be followed. Next I’ve learned about Tone and Mood, to be honest with you I really did have quite a difficult time to strip down information about this two because you really can get confused about it. Mood is the element used to evoke certain feelings or vibe your readers. It is what the author is trying to make the reader feel, rather it is the intention of the author. Mood has 3 types, first is Formal Diction or High Diction, this type of Mood uses advanced vocabulary it avoids slangs, idioms, colloquialisms, contractions etc. It needs to meet the highest grammar standard possible. Second is the Neutral Diction, this uses the standard language it doesn’t contain words that other readers may find difficult to comprehend. Lastly, Informal or Nonformal Diction, this is a cool, chill, relax conversation in this type of diction you can use slangs, idioms, colloquialisms, contractions, etc. It is the opposite of High Diction because it doesn’t follow any grammatical rules. Now, let’s move on to Tone, if Mood is the author’s intention then Tone is the reader’s response to the story. It is the way the reader understood the story. Now let’s move on to the last lesson that we’ve tackled this week, it’s all about Fiction. Fiction has two classification which is the Literary Fiction and Popular Fiction. But first, what is Fiction? Fiction is defined as literature in the form of prose and describes as imaginary or made up events. Literary Fiction, on the other hand is literatures that are more concerned with the writer or author’s personal style and self expression. Lastly, Popular Fiction, focuses more on the readers, on how the author will relate to the story the author has made.

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Creative Writing Reflection #1

What I’ve learned from the lessons that’s been tackled in the subject Creative Writing is how your imagination can get you to be somewhere. How useful your imagination can be, how your imagination can be a way for people to be informed and be entertained. I’ve also learned in this subject that even if we think that we do not have any abilities or chances to become a writer, we can always be. If we’re very passionate and patient about it. In order to become a writer, you need to study the key elements on how to become one. You need to go back to basic English topics such as grammar structure, parts of speech, figure of speech, etc. You need to learn a lot especially since writing requires you to have an advanced knowledge regarding about writing because if you write without having the knowledge about correct grammar usage, then how come can you be able to influence, entertain, and inform you readers? I also learn a lot about different devices that we can use to make our piece of writing more engaging and creative. I also learn a lot about the traits of creating a creative writing, in this way I am able to have the knowledge on how I can write more effectively. So that my readers does not only get entertained but also they get informed about certain topic that I want to propose with them. Especially since every writing requires having a moral story, in that way the readers are able to adapt those lessons into their lives. I also learned how a single word can affect the whole meaning of the speech. That’s why, as a writer, I should be really cautious with my chosen word in that way I’m not going to make a mistake to my readers such as misleading them. I also learned about the different Figurative Languages and I think having the privilege to study about it is such a blessing because these devices is what I can use to make my writing more entertaining to my readers. Instead of saying a dull sentence I can turn it into a hyperbole to make my readers think about what they just read. The previous lesson that I have learned under this subject was really entertaining and purposeful. I hope to learn more in the next lessons, I hope I can pick up more keys and ideas on how I can become a great writer.

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Get to Know Me: My Autobiography

My name is Jean Lerry S. Catingco, my name derives from my fathers name, they picked that name because it has the same initials as his. I was born on the 26th day of October , year 2006, which makes me a scorpio, and they say that being born on that specific date is like the appearance of the blue moon. I am an only child so my mother, Rosalyn Catingco and father, John Leo Catingco gave all their attention to me and bornt, raised, and took care of me here in Cuyapo, Nueva Ecija. I am now at the age of 15 currently a senior at Saint Pius X Institute. . I have quite few hobbies but the hobby that I enjoy the most is reading. Reading became my hobby when I got so bored back in May that I started reading books in my shelf that I never touched. Then surprisingly, I enjoyed it a lot. And eversince then, I bought books that has great synopsis or self-help books. My favorite book at the moment is Emma which was written by Jane Austen. For me, reading is my own safe place where my thoughts are free and nobody can judge me or stop me. I also enjoy listening to music. My favorite artist are Lana Del Rey, Taylor Swift, Hozier, Phoebe Bridgers, SZA, etc. My favorite genre is indie or alternative music and I recently found myself listening to a lot of piano ballads. I also enjoy watching films, specifically back when school ended, that and reading was the only thing that I did. Watching films and reading is like an escape for me. Escape from this dark cloud that’s been beneath me eversince and has never left. My favorite films are Fleabag, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Derry Girls, Gone Girl,Fight Club, American Psycho, etc. Most of my core memories were blue ones and I hope that these occurring years of my life would offer me good days without any exchange of bad days. I hope that when I get to write another autobiography it will be filled with joy, with happy memories. I hope you enjoyed reading who I am and what makes me, me. I am both afraid and excited of what the future might bring to me but I am sure about one thing, that I would enjoy every bits of it. I will always keep good days into my mind and I hope you do too.