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[hyunjin-ius]

‘I don’t care, I love it’

‘I don’t care, I love it’ pt.1

Genre: Slice of life, mention of smut, probs angst soon???

Pairings: (as of now just:) Felix x Hyunjin

Warnings: none i guess

Word count: 1K

Description: Danceteacher!Hyunjin broke up with Felix and now can’t really figure his life out. Luckily, he has friends like Changbin to  guide him. But what happens when you let a bunch of 20somethings to mingle??? Yes, it turns out that everyone knows everyone.

“Shit shit shit” screamed Hyunjin slipping down on the passanger seat of his friend’s car. The vehicle was nearing a crosswalk where said boy saw someone who really shouldn’t be seen.

„Well you know” started Hyunjin’s friend Changbin from the driver’s seat „you can’t just hide from Felix for the rest of your life” the boy stated while slowing his car down

„Well you know” Hyunjin mimicked the older with a mocking tone „I can at least try” Hyunjin stayed below window levels. He couldn’t risk seeing his ex boyfriend, after just 2 weeks of their break up.

„You are ridiculous” laughed Changbin. The older let go of the steering wheel with one hand to show a peace sign to Felix. Hyunjin watched his friend in silence from his crouched down position.

„I’m not sure how I feel about you saying hi to my ex who just happend to cross the road”

„I’m not sure how I feel about you telling me what to do” now it was Changbin’s turn to taunt the younger „Anyways he’s gone, you can sit up” it took a few more minutes for Hyunjin to feel safe enough to show his face to the world.

„You’d think that Seoul is big enough for us. Turns out it’s not”

„Since you live in the same neighborhood, and technically work at the same place. You are right” Changbin looked at his friend „it’s small when you don’t want to run into someone” Changbin turned his head back to watch the road.

„It’s like the universe wants us to meet every single day” Hyunjin shook his head in disbelief

„It was the same universe that wanted to see you as a couple” Changbin shrugged „Maybe the universe haven’t got the memo yet, I mean about your breakup”

„Then it should restart its browser and see how I’ve changed my relationship status on facebook” scoffed Hyunjin

Hyunjin and Felix have known each other for quite a while. They’ve started to work at the same dance studio around the same time. Both being 22, at their first serious job after many failed attempts. Being newbies together was a great starting point for their relationship which slowly but surely turned out to be more than just a simple friendship. They’ve worked together as dance teachers and choreographers too. Teaching kids and teens hip-hop elements, trying to help out couples with their wedding choreos, being back-up dancers for famous singers was far more than what they could’ve wished for. The boys have enjoyed working together more than working alone or doing the job with anyone else from the studio.

Hyunjin knew that he was gay since his kindergarden days, but for Felix it was a whole new world. Developing feelings for a man was not on Felix’s bucket list to say the least. Being in your early 20’s was confusing enough. Being in love with someone from your own gender for the first time in your life was beyond comprehensible. Hyunjin knew what he wanted, but first, he had to convince Felix that not being straight does not mean that you’ll end up in hell. It was a casual topic for Hyunjin. Being gay was natural for him, and he never felt the need to hide his sexual identity from anyone. First, it started with lighthearted jokes about Felix being all smiles around Hyunjin and basically being smitten with the openly gay one. And you know how the saying goes…there’s a grain of truth in every joke.

Eventually all it took was a drunk night. The boys went out together and got hammered as fuck on a Friday night. Hyunjin felt ready to take things to the next level. At that point anyone with eyes could see that the boys were into each other. The long awaited kiss happened on the dancefloor in one of the clubs on that Friday night. Needless to say, that kiss awakened everything in Felix. Sure enough they couldn’t stop with just making out in public. That night they ended up in Hyunjin’s apartment. Not being able to repress their sexual fantasies about each other they took action. Since Felix was new to the idea of two men having sex Hyunjin tried to be as carefeul as possible. At the end he settled with the option of just sucking Felix off. Giving oral to his crush while jerking himself off was more than fine that night. For Felix it was even better. The sight of Hyunjin kneeling in front of him, mouth wrapped around his cock while simultanusly gripping his own dick was a scene to die for. That was the first night Hyunjin swallowed everything Felix could offer. Luckily there was no awkward silence the morning after, rather both of them felt relieved. From that morning they were a couple.

But life wouldn’t be complete without heart breaks. Sooner or later Felix and Hyunjin had to admit that they might be better off alone. First of all Felix identified as bi which was a great source of everday arguments. Hyunjin seemed like a boy with an ego reaching for the stars, but deep down he was scared that he isn’t enough for his lover. He was insecure and jealousy often got the better of him. His past relationships were all with men who were just as gay as him, now he was with someone who had eyes for girls as well. For Felix this whole ’being in love with a man’ chapter was too much too handle at times. They pulled through, but after a while there wasn’t any reason to keep on trying to save what can’t be saved.

Hyunjin was right about Felix eyeing girls from time to time. The final straw was when Hyunjin found out that Felix spent more time in the studio with one of his girl students than with him back at home. Cheating really wasn’t an option, and Felix swore to God that it was only a professional relationship, but it was already more than enough for Hyunjin. He thought that breaking up with Felix is going to be easier if he’s mad at the boy. Alas, he had to accept the fact that he loved to make up things, and Felix wasn’t all that bad. But it was too late then. And it is too late now.

„I’m thinking about throwing a party on Saturday or Friday” Changbin’s hoarse voice broke the silence „It’s been a while since we drank together”

„I don’t think that I’m ready to socialize and tell people that I’m single” whined Hyunjin

„Are you joking?” Changbin furiously tapped the steering wheel „You post break up songs on facebook every second day, besides no trace of Felix can be found on any of your social media pages. Everybody knows that you are single!”

„You’re not helping Changbin!”

„Yet I’m trying to!” Changbin was close to lose his temper. At this point Hyunjin knew better than to open his mouth anytime soon.

[hyunjin-ius]

Say What You Wanna (with my body)

Say What You Wanna (pt.I?)

Genre: Angst, little bit of smut,

Pairings: reader X Chris, reader X Changbin

Warnings: whore!reader, mention of prostitutes

Word count: 2,5K

Description: After all Chris might not be your happily ever after. But while you were blinded by said man, someone else might have just developed real feelings for you. How can a past whore deal with being loved or is it just lust playing the main role in her new relationship?

Writer’s note: Please please please for a better reading experience listen to Tujamo – Say What You Wanna. The whole story was inspired by this song. (ALSO I’m new to this whole writing thing moreover english is not my mother tongue, so please bear with me. Lastly, let me know if you want the story to be continued :D )

It’s been more than a month. More than a month that you and Chris have decided to seperate. It wasn’t exactly your choice. Chris have had his mind set. You weren’t asked questions, he wasn’t interested in your opinion either. Like lightning striking out of the blue he just snapped one day.

Waking up next to his body on that specific morning felt oddly strange to say the least. The past days were spent with nothing but work work and work. You at your 9-5 suddenly becoming 6-9 and Chris having a hard time with his comeback preparations. Both of you were exhausted and drained…and sadly the company of each other no longer lightend the mood or made your days better. Living together in your shared apartment ment that you couldn’t let loose even at home since the other one wanted to have a break, wanted to sleep, or in your case…wanted to cry. Frankly you felt the tension in the air, your 6th sense activated but you couldn’t vision what was coming your way. That morining Chris made you coffee as usual but after that he went to the balcony. You saw him lighting a cigarette which was unusual but a tell tale sign of him being extremely anxious. He was sipping on his coffee and puffing out dark grey smoke clouds into the air. You hated the fact that he was smoking. It was a well kept secret since him being a singer ment that his vocal chords needed special treatment which was not including cigarettes. You didn’t question him that morning. The rest of the day was spent quietly. Up until the moment you’ve said that you wanted to go out for lunch. You wanted to spend some quality time with your boyfriend of 4 years, wanted to dress up, wanted to look pretty for him. But Chris had other things in mind. He didn’t answer you. You were standing in your living room as far from each other as possible. You saw him tense up even more.

„I don’t think a lunch in town can solve our problems” was all that you got. Talking about your problems, you sure had a few. Your future together seemed darker and darker with each passing day. It took you 4 years to realize that. But you’ve felt strong enough to endure the hardships life was throwing at you. You’ve tried to talk to Chris countless times about your feelings. About him not being open enough about his plans with you. About the two of having no future together. He kept quiet about his feelings. It seemed like the two of you were match made in heaven. But from the inside it felt like you were matched with a person staright from hell.

You couldn’t deny the fact that Chris was beyond handsome, his body, his face, his charisma was indescribable. It was enough to pull you in. He was caring and loyal…to a point. It wasn’t easy with him being surrounded by hundreds of screaming girls all the time. You knew what was happening during their long tours, you knew that they were all enjoying the company of girls and boys after concerts. You weren’t an angel either to begin with. You’ve met Chris as one these girls after one of his gigs. It was all planned as usual. If people asked about your job you’d tell them that you work at a modelling agency. Modelling agency was the legal way of saying that you were a part-time prostitute. It really wasn’t your dream job of course. You just needed money and luckily had the face and body to achive such goals easier than others not as fortunate as you. The two of you met after the last concert of the first tour of Stray Kids. The company especially called for you to come and entertain one of the boys. You weren’t unfamiliar with Stray Kids but couldn’t name one of the members for the sake of your life. Then you came face to face with Chris. Turns out the boys were given pictures of that day’s whores and they were allowed to decide with whom do they want to spend the night. Chris choose you. He was eager to please you. The spark was between the two of you from the first second. His cock was hard for you from the moment you stepped into the dressing room. It was just the two of you and the sexual tension eating its way up in your bodies. He kissed you with such vigour that made you lightheaded. You weren’t used to this feeling. Feeling attached to one of your clients. But there you were making out with Chris while feeling him up through his jeans. The bulge in his pants was obvious from the start.

„Drop to your knees” he half ordered half asked you

Sucking on his cock was a marvellous experience. The boy was extremely vocal about how you made him feel with your mouth. You were expereinced at giving oral but you couldn’t remember the last time you had so much fun pleasuring a man. And boy did he pay back for your service. Eating you out, fingering you and really making you his bitch before entering you. You were pushed to one of the mirrors in the room. Trying to hold up with your hands on the mirror while Chris was pounding into you from behind wasn’t easy. He took his sweet time with you. Enjoying the view with the help of the mirrors even more. Suddenly piciking up his pace you knew he was close. Pulling his cock out of you he came on your bare back. He asked you to stay in place, he wanted to take photos of his cum splattered on the back of a whore. You were used to this as well. These boys had nothing but their bitches to help them out in situations like this. It wasn’t like they could go to the next bar to pick some girls up. They needed professionals who were able to keep their mouths shut about the dark side of the kpop industry. After taking the pics Chris cleaned you up with caring movements. It was obvious that he was into you. Usually idols would leave you behind with cum anywhere and everywhere on your body. You weren’t complaining. They wanted release not a relationship. But this time was different.

A few days later you were contacted by your agency. Chris wanted to spend the night alone with you. And this is story of how the two of you became madly in love. Chris wanted you as his girlfriend, but only if you could be his and only his. He helped you with finding a job at his company, and asked you to quit being a prostitute. Life was extremely difficult at that time. Balacing your not so usual job and your not so usual boyfriend made you depressed. The same depression that creeped its way into your everyday life after 4 years too. You knew that Chris still enjoyed the company of whores and that you were a whore in the past to begin with. You were afraid each and every day. When will Chris announce that he has found someone better, someone less depressed and less anxious? Or to put it simply when will he finally speak up about his emotions.

Eventually the day has arrived. You were in your living room which soon will only be his. The two of you looking at each other as strangers meeting for the first time.

„So” you started „Should I start packig my stuff?” you asked without a sign of anger. You were calm. You didn’t see it coming, but you weren’t one to play with. If he wanted to end things then you are going to be the one who has the last word. Chris didn’t say a thing. He looked down to the floor.

„I’ll take it as a yes!” you answered your own question. Looking around the apartment you didn’t really know where to start. Everthing was shared. Chris sensed your mood changing. In his mind he expected you to cry as you would usually do in pressuring situations. But you seemed to be everything but heart-broken. He decided to flee from you, from the moment. Brusing past you he grabbed his car keys and left the apartment.

 More than a month has passed since. That was the last day the two of you talked. After he left the house you called one of your closest friends, explained your situation in a hurry and asked for her help. You moved to her flat temporarily until you could find something to rent alone. You were thankful to God and the higher powers that dispite the fact that Chris and you worked at the same company you haven’t crossed paths since the break up. You were not in the position to quit your job just because of Chris. You needed money now more than ever, which actually made you reconsider the hoe life and its pros and cons. Sure, years have gone by, you weren’t as young any more eventhough you were still in your early 20s. But now you were stronger than ever, and more experienced. You used to plan to live your life with Chris and only Chris. Now you were planning to live your life according to your rules and your rules only. You were constantly thinking about your opportunities and chances at life. You wanted to fix things with yourself.

One night your phone lit up signaling a new message. You were in the middle of apartment hunting on your laptop and paid little to no attention to the continous massage sounds and lights. Then the long forgotten skype window of your past ’modelling agency’ popped up on your laptop.

„Playing hard to get huh?” accoring to skype the message was written by one of your past bosses.

„So Chris is cancelled right?”  came the second text right after the first one. Curiosity take over you and you reached for your phone. Unlocking the screen you saw nothing but the name ’Seo Changbin’ everywhere. You weren’t exactly close to anyone in Stray Kids except for Chris of course. You would see each other come and go in the company, but none of the boys were a fan of mingling their professional life and private life. Altough spending so much time together it was only natural that some of them would open up to each other. You knew that Chris was extremely close to Changbin and Jisung.  The three of them being the heart and soul of Stray Kids. But now you were bewildered. What does Changbin want from you?

„You really went as far as reaching for me on skype?” you typed on your phone as an answer to Changbin’s many questions regarding the Chris situation.

„I’d say im persistent” Changbin knew about your past life. After your first time with Chris the boy sent the photos of your back covered in his cum to their group chat. Just another thing that came natural to them after a good fuck. The next day you’ve found yourself in Changbin’s lap. He was different from Chris in many many ways. Sex with him was more about executing his commands. But it wasn’t any less pleasurable. It was actually nice to being told what to do. Changbin always got what he wanted. Just like how he was able to write to you in the name of your past boss. After Chris have officially asked you out you had to cut ties with everyone from the prostitute industry. You hated to admit it but it felt nice that someone was paying attention to you again. Especially since it was coming from Changbin. You knew far well why he was so eager to talk to you now. Changbin always voiced his thoughts, something you were not familiar with while you were living with Chris.

 It went against all your instincts but you’ve decided to give in and meet Changbin. You knew how to play this game. Now more than ever you wanted to be the one who’s in charge. You’ve had enough with Chris, you were fed up with boys not speaking their mind, leaving you in the dark. But knowing Changbin you shouldn’t have worried about the man not voicing his thoughts. Especially thoughts concerning you. You’ve met in a high end restaurant open only for idols and their guests, since going to just any place still wasn’t an option. Small talk was really not Changbin’s cup of tea yet the two of you’ve managed to keep the conversation going. Changbin was calm and collected during the meal. It seemed like he had planned everything in advance. He was wearing a black silk shirt, the material enhancing his taut chest. Catching feelings for him wasn’t difficult.

„Does Chris know that we are here together?” you asked out of curiosty while sipping on your wine. Changbin looked at you with fire in his eyes

 „It’s none of his bussiness to know how and with whom I spend my freetime” his answer came strained. You didn’t mean to anger him. You just wanted to know if they were still talking about you. After his reaction you were sure that your name was a sensitive topic between the boys.

 „Chris fucked up your life more than needed” Changbin continued after a while „You two shouldn’t have crossed the line back then”

 „Well” you interrupted him „He was the one who wanted the relationship. I was fine with being one of his whores”

 „Exactly” Changbin smiled and nodded „You shouldn’t have crossed the line” he repeated. A short pause came before he started to talk again „He never really knew what he wanted to do with you other than fucking you 7/11. It was a pain in the ass to witness all the shit you’ve been through just to stay with him. And to see how Chris was about to throw you out one day”

 „Don’t tell me that you knew what was going on between us” you exclaimed both in surprise and disbelief

 „Not between the two of you” Changbin rectified „I just saw your struggles from outisde and somehow I was able to put the pieces together” he finished his thoughts. You remained silent. Your mind on the other hand was louder than ever. Maybe it was obvious from the start that you weren’t made for each other. Maybe everyone saw it but you. You wanted your relationship to work but mainly because of Chris. He wanted a girlfriend, someone who was there for him through thin and thick. But what was your motive other than pleasing Chris at every given chance? What did you get in return from Chris that you couldn’t get from any other men?

 „Changbin” you started after a while. Looking deep in the eyes of the man sitting across you „Do you know what you want from me?” Changbin smirked at your question.

 „Isn’t it obvious?”he whispered