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feel free to send me a message whenever! i love talking to people n i promise i’m not a creepy 40 yrld man 😐 luv u angels! ♡

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tonight i’ll be posting what i ate+cals!! thank you for all the support angels ♡ stay hydrated!!

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TRIGGER WARNING

this account is the only place i feel safe talking about my problems, please do not report me, simply block me if you have a problem with any of my posts. IF YOU ARE NOT 15+ PLEASE DO NOT LOOK AT THIS ACCOUNT. in no way shape or form am i pro ana. i am 100% pro recovery. i’m only pro ana for myself.

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i saw someone post something along the lines of “ every time i breathe i gain weight” AND I FELT THAT SM. like literally 2 seconds after i wake up my morning skinny is gone like girl PLEASE stick around at least for 5 more second like fuck

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I literally cannot focus in school at all. The only thing that takes up my mind is calories n my weight. The measurements of my waist in my thighs just flood my mind every single waking second. Even in my dreams I always restrict myself. But I can’t just stop because it’s become an addiction, 5 1/2 years I’ve been robbing my body of basic nutrients. But something about it is just so comforting. I can’t really describe it. Whenever my mom tells me that I’ve lost weight I can’t help but fight a smile. for some reason it makes me so happy to see other people scared for my health. I guess it’s because it means I’m actually showing progress

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i regret telling this one person about my ed. i told her about my triggers and she’s deliberately posting things that she knows will trigger me 🙄

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i already ate 366 cals tday :// i feel like such a failure tbh. i’m def burning it all off later. my limit for cals per day is 400/500.

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does anyone have any tips to reduce cup size? i’m a 34B rn and i really wanna drop down to an A cup

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TW: ed

something that really triggers me is that whenever i talk about my ed with my friend ( she is recovering from ana) i feel terrible because i feel like i’m copying her. even though i’ve literally had an ed for almost 5 1/2 years. but i’ve never been hospitalized for it. she has. when i went to go visit her ( she was hospitalized before the pandemic, so that’s why i could visit her) i wished it was me in the hospital bed. i wanted to be in her position. i wanted people to come visit me and tell me that i’ve lost a lot of weight. i feel so so so bad for wanting that because ik that it’s obv TERRIBLE. i feel like a fake anorexic because i’ve never been hospitalized. i have a doctors app. on may 12 and part of me is hoping that they rush me to the hospital. but the other half of me doesn’t want anything to happen. I’m in a ballet company and i FINALLY got a variation in sleeping beauty and i really want to perform.

NOT PRO JUST USING TAGS

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TW: ed, counting calories

ok so this morning i was like “ i’m not gonna eat until 12pm” and then while i was scrolling thru tumblr i saw this tip to eat a big breakfast so that way you won’t feel super hungry later, i was kinda hesitant to do that because even the thought of feeling full makes me physically ill, but i decided to give it a try. i had a mini bag of smart food popcorn (100 cals) and i already feel like i fucked up? i feel so guilty for eating it. i’m also having green tea rn so i kinda feel better, but i just feel like whatever i do, i’m never gonna lose weight :/

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