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me: I’m really not a hard person to be friends with, I promise lol~

also me: *goes from totally fine to suicidal in 3 seconds flat if left alone*

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someone: *is nice to me*

me: oh god. I’m so sorry. god. I must’ve guilted or manipulated you into doing that

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dont talk to me or my 47 moodswings ever again

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early 80s teen street style “what are you?” “nothing”

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*drowns feelings in 80s music*

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it hurts a lot when ur around, but i can't show it

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hey kids is it just me or do you ever feel like you're floating and not connected to your body? like everything is a dream and oh god it's a sick nightmare of a dream at that. like everyone around you is real and whole and you're a ghost???

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it comes in waves. i'm happy, so happy i feel my heart about to burst! i sing into the world, "i am so happy!" i feel euphoric, don't touch me i'm elated! but then i crash a few days later. it all sinks down. ow. it hurts again. is it worth it? what does happiness feel like? i only was so happy a few days ago, why can't i remember? will i stay this sad forever? no! next week i'm up again and the world tastes like sugar and honey! but i miss sadness it was so comforting. so i self destruct bc i forget what sadness felt like. and when it comes it hurts. oh god it hurts. and i forget what happiness tastes like again. and over and over and over it rotates weekly. and i still can't remember what happiness tastes like today.

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that feeling when u realize nothing really was getting better, but the mixture of caffeine and assorted meds made u feel like maybe things were looking up. yes, ye old brain just PRANKED U APRIL FOOLS U R STILL A MESS !!

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since nobody here knows who i am except like 2 people, i'm going to vent a little. so the other night i cried, like actually cried for the first time in a while. and it ripped me apart. it hurt. i felt it deep in my stomach and my heart just broke into little shards of glass and ripped into my soul. i cried for every heart break i had been unable to cry for. and then in the morning i felt nothing again. <3

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by Sam Emerson

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peter murphy can get this dick 

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The Cure in 1993 (found on fb: The Cure Strange day!!!)